Megan decided she was going on to talk to Jared during their ride back home cos she wanted to sort the thing between them out.
"Jared we need to talk", she started as they got into the car.
He sighed loudly showing how tired he was about her.
"If it is about Us and the past i don't want to talk about it", he told her as he loosen his tie, he didn't want anything to do with her.
" I want to apologize , I am sorry I hurt you , I am sorry I cause you pain", she pleaded with tears streaming down her face as she held her hands in front of her facing him
" I said I don't WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT", he shouted frustrated with the whole issue.
" I want us to move past this please ", she said tears blurring her eyes and she could barely see him .
" Do you want me to leave the car right now?, He questioned her angryly
" No please don't ", she pleaded because that was the last thing she will ever do.
"If you don't want that then keep quiet ", he ordered harshly and she did.
The last thing she wanted was information about this to be posted on social media because the press was everywhere.
After that , the drive home was quite.The securities at the gate opened it while the driver drove in passing acres of land filled with flowers of different kinds before they got home.
" Jared I am sorry, please ", she started immediately they got down from the car.
He didn't answer but walked fast to get inside as the butler opened the door while she ran after him.
" Jared ! Jared!", She called out running while he ran upstairs with her on his heels and he got inside his room and quickly shut his door.
He leaned on the door breathing heavily and his heart hurting, hoping she leaves him alone.
He didn't want to listen to whatever excuse or reason she wants to come up with as to why she cheated on him that fateful day.
" Jared please I am sorry ", he heard her say as she knocked on the door.
" I never meant to hurt you please", she yelled from the closed door to him.
He could her the pain in her voice and he wondered why she needed his forgiveness so bad.
" I am really sorry, I wanted us to talk but since we can't I will talk but I just hope you listen ", she said as she sat on the floor of his door then lean her head on the door.
She loves him with every fiber in her and when it comes to love there was nothing like pride.
She didn't care if the maids might be listening.
She knew they won't snitch cos they signed an NDA when they decided to work here.
" I am sorry for hurting you, for causing you so much pain and misery all this years. I never meant to, I love you so much that I beat myself up every day for being the one who broke us", she said her voice breaking more as she got to "broke us" , she sniffles and wipe her none ending tears with her palm.
After Mel told her about how Jared attempted suicide several times and what he went through the last time, she had decided to not try to defend herself but to ensure that she help him forget about the past and move on.
" I am not asking for a chance again with you cos I know I messed up but I just want you to forgive me please. Life as been hard without you J", she said her voice going hoarse from crying.
Life without Jared had been hell for her, she had never been able to move past what they shared.
Jared had been everything to her and he had been there for her always without holding anything back.
He had shown her what true love was and what it entails.
Never had he ever made her have doubt about where she stand in his life until the moment of the betrayal.
" I wish I could turn back the hands of time and never had gone to that hotel", she told him voice out her thoughs about her wish everyday all this years that she could turn back the hand of the time and never have gone to that hotel that fateful day.
The day that destroyed their lives.
Loving Jared had been the only good thing about her life as Megan Stark and she wanted it back so badly but she knows how impossible it is going to be.
Jared place his hands on the door while leaning in it listening as tears slipped down his eyes.
He wondered why she wish she never had gone to that hotel cos it had never stopped her from cheating on him , he had only been blind to all she was doing because he had love and trusted her with all his heart and never thought she would ever cheat on him.
If he hadn't gotten the information about what she was doing that day she would have continued with sleeping with Andre without feeling remorse about how what she is doing is going to affect him when he finds out.
He wondered why his love for her wasn't enough and why she cheated on him?.
She had been the one to ask that they have sex after marriage which he had agreed to because all he wanted was to please her and make her happy.
How was he to know that she was playing him like a fiddle?.
Him, Who had loved and cherish her with his all .
He had thought that they were going to be together forever.
He never thought that she didn't really loved him or that their love was never going to be enough.
He didn't know that love hurts this much and he wished he never did cos he has been in pain for years.
Nothing had been able to numb or change the way he had been hurting all this years .