A person who never made a mistake never tried anything new. Albert Einstein.
Chapter 11.
I have this instinct about any step I take In my life that as long as things are handed to me it won't work.
Scientist would say am a great Idiot for going to search for Alex but I would say, I have to.
First I need some explanation from him 'why he left me behind in the club' and second, we would have to find out later.
I looked from Liam to James but none of their face expressions cared. "Where is Alex?" I asked, staring at both of them with a wide eye.
Liam shrugged as he said "He doesn't want to speak to anyone" he states.
Isabella held my wrist about to take me In the elevator as it was about to close up, I held my self back and she gave me a confused look and said "Why do you care if he kills himself."
I ignored her question, I didn't want to tell her the full story because she would know I lied about being in my bosses house. I turned my head to James as he didn't give any face expression and said. "Aren't you both supposed to be stopping him?" I asked
Neither of them felt bothered, aren't they supposed to be panicked that their friend is trying to kill himself or someone is trying to kill him.
"Alex doesn't want to be stopped" Liam said.
For some reason I don't get Liam's intentions.
"Where is he then?" I asked again.
"At his house, down the street" James clarified.
I glanced at Isa and she looked terrified about my decision I was about to take.
"Angie" she said, I turned fully to her "We have to talk about-"
"We would talk later Isa." I said, smiling before pressing the buttons for last floor on the elevator but it seems someone is inside.
I don't know what Isa have been trying to tell me but it might be serious but now I have to talk to Alex.
Anyway waiting for the Elevator impatiently, Liam and James had already took off and I left Isa to take the stairs to the down floor.
*
I reached Alex's house just to be taken by surprise the door opened to reveal Alex's mom. The nice lady I met before.
Her name?
Kate yes, I almost forgot.
"Hey Angela, you came right in time" she said taking my hand into the house.
I glanced at the place, and back at her.
"Alex have been having issues lately with his dad" she said, giving me a serious expression.
Issues with his dad? Was he in a fight with his dad.
Just remembering what Ethan had told, he probably had problems with his dad.
"I believe Kourtney might have sent you here?" She asked.
What?
She didn't send me here, was she thinking am here for my job.
Yeah probably.
"Yeah sure" I said and she gave me a slight smile.
She led me through the house down the corridor, i wasn't clearly viewing the house but now I did.
The house was welcoming from the open door to the wide hallway. Upon the walls were the photographs of a little girl and a boy, am sure the boy is Alex but I didn't know Alex had a sister, so obviously so loved. The floor was an old-fashioned parquet with a blend of deep homely browns and the walls were the greens of summer gardens meeting a bold white baseboard. The banister was a twirl of a branch, tamed by the carpenter's hand, it's grain flowing as water might, in waves of comforting woodland hues. Under the lamp-shine it was nature's art, something that soothed right to the soul.
This house was beautiful.
We entered an unfamiliar door and all of a sudden I felt flinch for while.
It might be because am not completely sure if I would want to see Alex again or.... the opposite.
"Alex, someone is here to see you" Kate said and headed straight to the door back immediately, my gaze on her every move and she turned back with a whisper she said "Good luck."
Really
I turned back to Alex, he was on his bed, Sitting opposite to me. He didn't care to see who was here to see him.
I took a glance at the area and it turned out his room is messy, more like he scattered it.
Maybe.
I took a few steps closer and down to where he was.
I sat close enough, but still gave him space. Taking a good look at Alex he wasn't the guy I saw In the cabin, the one that was smirking to all his mischievous behavior, he was more depressed than I thought he would be.
My heart melted at the view of his state, i might not have known what happened today but all I know is I wouldn't wish for my enemy to be in this position as he Is.
"How do you feel?" I asked.
He didn't say a word, his mouth wasn't planning on opening any soon. All I could say is he flinch a little just hearing it was me here.
He wasn't expecting me to be here after what he did and sure of this. Not hearing his voice is one thing but reading people might be my thing or its turning out to be.
I stared at the silence between us and added. "You not saying anything, doesn't prove your a smart ass. You know" I stated bluntly.
Still no answer.
He stood up immediately and went for a whiskey at the right side of his room. I glanced at the room again and how unkept it was.
He poured a little and more into a small cup...he came close to me and sat few inches to me and now he was facing me.
For the first time he said something "Won't you stop me from drinking?" He asked, pouring more drink in the cup.
What does he mean?
Stop him from drinking.
"No" I said, still confused by his question... I knew he always drink so what is the use now.
"Aren't you supposed to tell me, I would become an addict?" He still insisted.
"No, why?" I said and also asked. My face was left without an expression.
Is he an addict?
"What are you doing here?" He asked with a light voice and standing up not sparing me a glance, i didn't say anything.
Deep down I was here to console him but in another word I would say am here for answers, seeing Alex's state I don't think I would bring it up.
"You should go" he says.
I stood up just to face him.
"No!" I raised my voice this time, why should I go?, he have some explanation to do. "I came here without your permission" That's what came out as I talked.
He didn't say anything, he still looks worried so I said "What happened here Alex?" I asked.
"Why do you care" he said not staring at me but the old fashioned parquet.
"Well, ever since you left me at the club by myself, earlier!" My pitch was a little high but he didn't care.
"You should go, Gela" he just said.
I was here for explanation's but he didn't give me any he just shrugged off the topic like I wasn't saying anything.
"No!." I said more angry
"Gela!" He said
"Its Angela, Alex!" I said looking at him with wide eyes "I came here realizing I had work to attend to and you- turf me out!"
"Dont play the victim, I didn't ask you to come!" He said, bluntly "And i didn't turf you out, I just suggested!" He added, more angry.
I looked at him and our eyes where locked but mine was filled with venom.
He is really an Asshole, I couldn't have come here, I could have just gone to work it would have been better off.
I felt stupid standing here, was it just me or was the sentence he made hutting him too. For a second his eyes would go soft another second back to strong.
I can't even read him.
I turned around about to take my leave but I felt a strong hand on my wrist and I was dragged back to the sight of Alex.
Meeting those brown eyes as his shifted to mine.
What does he wants now.
Looking at as he have gone soft.
I melted.
I formed my hand into fists, and stepped back. The effect he had on me was undenenieble and I didn't care for it.
I didn't like when his around me I feel so defenseless, so weak around him, how he would strip away my reasoning just by glancing at him. Seeing Alex is like seeing heaven and I couldn't be more stupid if I stay here anymore.
As if he heard my thoughts he came closer to me and smiled then he said "Am sorry" he pleads
He just apologized but am not buying it.
I was about leaving when he held wrist again and walked to his window blind then he closed it.
Strength and controlled power stamped every movement of his body as I watched him.
My eyes took in the long lines of his arms the ripple of his muscles, the veins that stood out like cords, his thick wrist. Every part of his body where disciplined, tight and masculine.
"Gela" His voice was deep and rich, and my name wasn't Gela but when he called it, it sounded and felt so carnal coming from his mesmerized lips.
It felt so sinful, like slipping into luxurious, expensive silk, to give in.
I feel weak now as his eyes drifted towards my body.
The air was thick with tension and it felt hot with his eyes on me.
Remembering the dress Isa gave me..
His fingers stroked the inside of my wrist once then twice. Then I couldn't feel it again.
My lips opened a fraction, letting out a sharp, silent breath.
An expulsion, its a way my body released the building pressure forming inside at the aftermath of Alex's touch.
This was something I have never felt before neither experienced, I have never been this closed to my opposite sex before or never wanted to be.
I was wondering if I would stay in this amazing world of Alex's touch or if I would go and face reality.
Which one is better for me
He was ruthlessly beautiful.
His dark brows, the deep set brown eyes, the long straight nose, the full lips and his beautiful framed brown hair. I had thought he looked like a dark angel when I first laid my eyes on him. I still think so. More now that we are this close.
There was more I didn't know about Alex.
He was as deep and dark as a cave, am still wondering if I should go in or leave?
My mind is now made up.
His lips pathed in surprised as the pad of my fingers slowly traced his collarbones, my heart skilled at the warmth of his skin, at the softness of it. I thought I would be satisfied just by feeling it but I wanted to do more.
Oh god, save my mind.
His muscles tensed as I moved my fingers to the long line of his neck, rubbing the stable on his jaw, tickling myself.
I smiled but didn't say anything, I wasn't my self around Alex so I didn't mind anymore.
The pulse at the base on his throat jumped as I focused my eyes on his lips, they where adorably pink, full and cupid bows.
I feel mesmerized.
Suddenly he opened his mouth and caught my finger between his lips, between his perfect white teeth, then his soft tongue.
And he sucked my hands.
I enjoyed it but i gasped, my eyes snapping to his as i snatched my fingers away, feeling like my whole body was on fire. I backed away from him instantly.
There was so much feelings, emotion raging inside me and i turned now fully concentrated in his room. My skin prickled. I felt intensed, hot, itchy for more, needy, I wanted more of Alex's touch.
I wanted more.
I turned back to Alex just to watch every move he took and realizing how disciplined it was, now he radiated restless energy. It felt like having a big animal here with me. His arms fell simultaneously by his sides.
There was a way he looked at me, it made me feel hot, heat gliding cross my skin, palpable and he also looked so good, so big and muscular.
He held his hands up, palm up to me.
As if I didn't think I crossed to him and placed my Hand on his palm. His hand where big, wide, with long tempered fingers. It was soft like he didn't work at all.
My eyes moved to his. There was a delicious hot curl in my stomach at the approval and hunger I saw In his brown eyes.
All of a sudden his hands landed on my hips, his fingers pressing intimately, possessively, as he sprawled on the bed pulling me to him and settling me in his lap. I gasped as our bodies made strong contact as I strabbled him.
He was wide.
And God.
So big.
That my legs couldn't accomodate him until I stretched.
We where close and he was even more beautiful. Almost not real, Alex features were totally perfect, his skin touching mine where creamy and smooth.
His hands slipped under the gown Isa had given to me, fingers stroking the skin on my lower tights.
I shivered at the delicious soft texture of them.
When his lips touched my ears, I froze and he realized and brought out a deep low laugh.
Butterflies as usual Whitley in my stomach at the sound. Even his laugh was making me crazy.
He dragged his lips from my ear to my jaw, inhaling long and deep. My hand gripped his hands, his arms, waiting, wanting him to keep going, I obviously wanted to feel what was going to happen next.
His hands left my tights, slowly bringing it up my arms, gently securing both sides of my neck. His thumbs stroke the hallows of my throats.
Oh Alex.
My head fell back as I savoured his touch. Back and forth and back and forth on my pulse that had gone mad.
He leaned forward until his lips where almost touching the side of my mouth.
Am seriously not thinking.
I let out a deep breath.
I felt his body poised, for my rejection or surrender. But there was no question in my mind now.
I closed my eyes and took his bottom lips between mine. I heard him growl, as if i just severed him a feast.
He knew I wasn't good at this, this was my first kiss and I didn't know what to do.
He smiled on the kiss and his tongue traced the seam of my lips, seeking entrance inside my mouth. I opened up to him and he slid inside, shocking how the arousal that bloomed inside me reacted to the kiss.
He tastes like the whiskey he drank earlier. He tasted sweet.
One of Alex's hands moved to the back of my head, securing me in place as I moaned, demanding more. He moaned depeaning the kiss.
And just as he moaned it drived me crazy and I was lost.
I pressed my hands on his back, pulling him closer, rubbing my body against his, He was hard in the chest, his muscles rippling and tensing as i placed my hands under his shirt, glided up his chest, His skin was on fire, burning hot.
His hands settled on my heels of my feet, slidding to my calues, swirling at the back of my knees, up my legs, then cupping my ass.
Then his hips surged up.
Oh my God.
His hands reached for my underwear. My eyes flew open.
"Alex!" I parked
He also opened his eyes and still feeling hot, I untankled my self from him and stood up immediately.
I won't lie that I felt hot at this moment, seeing his muscles stand as i did.
"I have to go" I said but couldn't speak fluently.
"Dont" he insisted.
I brought myself to look at his eyes, even knowing fully well I might be charmed to stay but I just can't.
I ignored him and ran out through the door.
I didn't look back.
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I was Outside of Alex's room and I could still feel his touch, his kiss on my lips and all the amazement he displayed on my body lately.
I could have blushed to all this but could not still forget what he had said earlier.
Did he just kiss me like he does to any other girl.
I shrugged it off my thoughts and walked to the sitting room to take my leave.
"Angela!"Kate snapped at me.
I turned fully to her directions but trying to straighten my hair incase I have any signs of what had happened.
I smiled genuinely to her, she was beautiful am sure Alex took his from her. "Mrs kate" i said.
"Stop the formalities Angela" she smiled and walked to my direction "Did he open up" she asked.
Oh yes he did.
But not that way, he sexually opened up, it was really great having Alex lips in mine but is a pity I can't tell her this.
"Yeah sure" I said grinning to my thoughts...
"He did?" She asked again.
"Of course Mrs kate_- i mean Kate" I replied.
"Thank you Angela, he had not opened up in a while" she smiled widely.
Of course he have.
Oh not that, why am I constantly thinking about it now.
"Really?" I said more anxious now.
"Yes dear" she said and i smiled knowing he didn't really tell me anything "i have prepared much food today, do you mind staying for dinner?" She asked.
Of course i do...
Having to stay means seeing Alex and all the butterflies will start finding their way back to my stomach.
No way.
Of course Alex is gorgeous but still doesn't give him any right to behave the way he did with me earlier...
What did he mean by 'don't play the victim, I didn't ask you to come.
At some point I will enjoy the way his lips touched mine but at another point his and Asshole. Which deserves nothing.
I checked my phone for any call or message's still thinking about the offer as Kate held my hand for a while and I gave her a weary look. "My husband shouldn't see that."
What does she Mean by that. "He is kind of old fashion" she winked and I smiled weirdly Keeping my phone down.
Was Alex's father here, it would be a pleasure meeting him, not.
"Oka..y, thank you for the offer, but my mom might be waiting at home for me." I said still smiling.
"Thank you once again." She said.
"Please don't, it was all your work" I said.
She smiled feeling flattered but she shooked it off and said. "Your breath smells of whiskey, you should know" she tenderly smiles.
Oh no.
She knows.
I quickly checked it by using my hands, feeling the whiskey smells...
I couldn't smile or laugh I nervously blinked at her and she added "Your mom might be waiting." She smiled at me...
Walking me off.
This is awkward....
***
Arriving home was more like going back to reality, where i have bills to pay, school and mostly work.
Entering into my house and seeing my mom In the sitting room, my heart ache for a second.
"We have tacos for dinner" A very familiar voice said and I turned my head just to see it was Isa.
"Isa?" I said and walked up to her.
She was putting on a black jeans and a big cardigan. "Isa can you ask the lady standing here, where she is coming from." My mom said.
I carried my gaze just to look at my mom, she was worried about me and sure but she was also pretending like she doesn't care.
"Where did you get the money for the food" I asked Isa ignoring my mom.
"Well Angie, my bank account isn't dry" she states. I gave her a shocked expression and said.
"I know" I replied.
"Am sorry didn't mean it like that" she states.
I looked at my mom, and she was completely ignoring me.
"I went to Alex's house, he was down." I said just waiting for my mom to look at me.
And she did.
"Is he your boyfriend now?". She asked and I didn't answer.
"No his not" Angie answered for me, she gave me look that say 'right?'
"His not, he was jus-" I was cut off
"I don't want to talk about that kid." My mom said.
Alex isn't no kid, he might be In his early twenties but he isn't a kid.
I looked at my mom trying to read her but, she have a blank expression.
She stood up with a plate of taco in her hands and went off the table back to the sitting room.
"From her perspective, your mom dislikes Alex." Isa tells me the known.
She confuse me at times.
"I thought you liked Alex?" I said giving her a serious expression.
She shrugged and looked at me again. "I like him Cause he was hot." She was being cut off by a incoming call on my mobile.
Kourtney!
A sigh escaped my lips and I picked the call.
"Angela Sud?" She said.
I bit my lips and took in a deep breath before saying.
"Yes, that's me."
"Great! I Want you In my house" she didn't commerce but she added "Around 9am tomorrow, can you make it this time?"
What does she mean Can I make it this time.
Oh no.
I almost forgot I didn't go to work today.
Alex!.
"Yes" I replied....
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