We are each glowing with some sexual relief and a filling breakfast, it's boxing day and we don't really have any plans, I don't know why it takes me a bit to muster up some courage to ask but I finally break the silence we have had over breakfast.
"When do you think we should start planning everything?" she just looks at me and tilts her head a little, "Not sure, I think the reality is just setting in" she looks at the rings on her finger and smiles.
"True, from single to friends to fiances, not a bad thing just something to get use to." we both nod.
"Could just take the rest of the holidays to get use to it and really start planning after new year's, besides I know your waiting for that contract talk and your hopeful to get cleared to drive so, seems a good idea to wait a bit" Amber has a point and the invitational, lots of plans to be made and none taken lightly.
"So, did you have any wedding dreams growing up?" Amber just replys softly "Just that mom would be there", I feel guilty not that feelings can be rushed but I kinda wish I had clued in sooner but I didn't fully feel it until the holiday party, that I would like to keep her in my life, share everything with her, we could have got married in the hospital chapel or the faith room at Cloud Villa, all I can say is "sorry my love, didn't really knew how I felt till the holiday party, forgive me?."
"That's when I felt it to, nothing to forgive dear, I know we will find a way to include them, photos, candles something special." my fiance smiles at me and takes my hand from across the table, "let's start simple what should we plan to do today?" I smile back.
"I wouldn't mind going for a swim, should we head to your place?" to bad her place doesn't have a pool or a place to put one, it's a sweet 3 bedroom bungalow, one room was her mom's, then her one and the third room a simple physio gym for her clients.
"Sure we can do that" I did notice her mother's room was untouched after I had helped move her into Cloud Villa, I should feel comfortable to ask if she has a hard time staying here, but I want her to be happy and not brought down by what may seem like dwelling when it would be an observation of concern, I choose to wait.
"What time do you want to head over?"
"Any time, I will go pack my bag."
It didn't take her very long to pack a little more then her swimming stuff, I already texted dad that we wanted to come over and swim, dad's pretty chill anyway said it'll be nice for a family swim and BBQ to celebrate the engagement.
I sense some relief from Amber when she walks in our house, like it is more like home then again it's not as empty or lonely.
It may be cold outside but since we did this greenhouse cover we enjoy the pool, we spend most of the day in the pool, swimming, playing, dad tells us all lunch is ready, burgers and hot dogs, "you two love birds started planning the wedding yet?" he inquired, to which everyone turned to look at us for a reaction.
"Not Really, still getting used to being engaged" Amber answers then looks at me, then looks to dad "what was it like for you?"
Dad brings over the food, turns off the bbq, and quickly goes inside for drinks and an album, grabs the chair next to Amber and opens the album and starts to tell Amber his love story.
I have heard it before, Mom loved him going through the album telling her that the love grew deeper and thanking him for the life he has had with her, I watch now as everyone looks at him and listens, Amber holding on to my hand and sometimes looking at me instead of dad, Tony and his wife are the same holding each other's hands and looking at each other then back to dad, the girls just watch him and eat quietly.
He speaks with so much heartfelt passion it's hard not to be drawn in, he holds their attention, and rightfully so, I know forsure I want Tony as best man but Dad as MC.
Every one is smiling, including Dad he still glows when he talks about Mom, the girls and I seem to be the only ones done eating, dad's only part way through how they met, starting dating, just getting to their engagement.
It always gives me hope hearing about my parents love and now having my own love that I enjoy holding, I feel strength to face whatever comes our way because we will face it together.
When dad finishes about the engagement and their wedding, the reception and a little of the honey moon, he smiles and starts to eat.
"Did it give you too any ideas or should I tell our story too?" Tony asked in what seemed a semi joking yet serious tone.
"Yes please" replied Amber, I noticed the girls being antsy, I wonder how often has told them that story.
When he finished about his love story, I noticed Amber looking at the girls, " I know for I would love you two lovely ladies to be my flower girls, would you like that?"
My nieces smile and shyly asked in unison "what doe that mean? what do we do?" their mom explains about pretty dresses and walking down the aisle dropping flower pedals for the bride to follow, they both started to jump up and down still in unison "yes please, mommy can we?", every one is smiling and of course mom said yes.
" Hey bro, do I need to officially ask or do you know your my best man?", Tony laughs "No bro I assumed I was, but I will consider that the official ask".
Seems some plans are happening naturally I know everything will fall into place, I am a lot less worried.