"What would you do if Henry doesn't want to let you go?" The question made Min Jun raise his eyebrow at Young Jae. 'Is he anxious or jealous?' Min Jun threw the thought away as fast as it popped on his head.
"I can't do anything."
"Huh?"
"What do expect me to do, Hyung? A heart desires what it wants, and no one can control it. All I could say was to let him know that I will never love him and make my point clear. Whatever Henry wants to do, he can do as he wishes. As long as it does not bother me, I don't care." Min Jun's apathetic words left Young Jae speechless.
"Heartless!" Young Jae said even without thinking.
Min Jun laughed out on the remark.
Young Jae started fidgeting because of the rude word slipped through his mouth without any thought.
Min Jun's eyes softened at the sight of the tensed man who was worried unnecessarily. "Relax Hyung. You are not the first one to call me heartless, and you will not be the last one as well."
"I did not mean like that. You are not heartless. It's just... you... I meant you are just rude to him. But he loves you." The words elicit a humorous chuckle only.
"Being kind here will only give him hope. And I only show my kindness and care towards the people whom I intend to keep in life. For others, I will be a heartless jerk, who was nothing but a hell-hound." Min Jun said the words softly. His hand moved as if it has a mind of its own and cupped the fragile man's bony cheeks.
"Remember Hyung! Not everyone deserves your kindness. Not everyone needs to know who you are. Be choosy. No one has a say in the way you live your life. Live your life the way you want." Min Jun spoke in trance even without knowing why he was saying that.
The warm hand on the cheeks made Young Jae's breathe to hitch. The tender touch flipped his stomach. Young Jae leaned in on the warmth without even realising it.
"Why do you say that?" Young Jae whispered.
The whisper put Min Jun under a spell drawing him closer to the man.
"Yesterday, you were trying way too hard to hide your emotion from me. Do you remember that? Even when there was no point in doing as you failed miserably. Why?" Min Jun answered the question with a question.
"Others can hurt me when they know what I am feeling" the answer came naturally without any thought or hesitation.
"Others can hurt you when you disregard yourself and give them the power to hurt you. They get the upper hand only when you don't own yourself. Have the confidence in everything you, like how you will be kicking their ass even before you start it. Having confidence in yourself will drag you halfway to the victory." Min Jun voice was soothing to Young Jae's turbulent heart.
"Why are you telling me?"
"Because I care for you. Because I want you in my life." Min Jun let his heart spoke before his brain starts to question everything.
For the first time, he let his heart have upper hand over his brain for someone who was not his family… not yet. Maybe one day. The thought of having Young Jae as a family, as someone who he can care for and cherish sent a giddy thrill all over his body. It's way too early to call it 'love' but Min Jun felt he would be pleased with it if it happens in the future.
Young Jae felt something warm on his forehead. He could feel the breath of Min Jun fanning over his face mingling with his very own breath. The warmth on his forehead was because of Min Jun's head pressing against him. He didn't feel uncomfortable. Letting Min Jun invade his personal space felt normal and natural.
The thought and closeness sent shivers to Young Jae's spine, but he did not have an opinion to retreat from the warmth.
Min Jun held Young Jae's both the cheeks in his hand.
His heart wants to take more than what it has at the moment. At that moment, a war was waged between Min Jun's heart and brain.
Min Jun let out a soft chuckle making Young Jae melt in his hand.
Young Jae felt the breath becoming closer and Min Jun moving near his face.
The thought of Min Jun Kissing him made him anxious and scared. But he did not mind being kissed by the man whose face he did not even know yet.
'If I let Min Jun Kiss me, would he call me sweet names as he did with Henry?' the thought was appealing to Young Jae at the moment more than anything in his life.