I woke up today, February 14, 2021, after crying last night. And I thought to myself when I stood up. and looked at my phone:
"At last, the Battle of the Bands is here. But I am sad and happy at the same time, Reason why I'm sad? Zelda is not here to hear me sing. The reason why I'm happy? Battle of the Bands is already here. But I'm sad all the way. I just can't control my emotions right now. With her being in the Hospital and all... They say If you don't prioritize your life, someone else will... I just- I just can't- I just can't stop thinking about those things that happened in the last few days... I just- I just can't accept it..." All my thoughts, So ist es immer... (It's always like that...)
10 minutes later; 5 minutes before the bell will ring for homeroom
I went to my locker getting my guitar pick and I hallucinated; seeing Zelda, except the person I ran up to is Jesmery and while I was hugging her, she asked what I am doing:
"J-John..? Wh- What are you doing? Why are you hugging me..? Uhh-"
"Oh- U-Uhh, I'm- I'm sorry about that, Jes. I-"
"It's fine," she said as she poked my nose
When I heard that voice, I knew it was Jesmery. Everybody was looking at us. And I was Embarrassed, I mean- The both of us were. I suddenly remembered that- I used to have a crush on her in the 4th and 5th grades. Which made me more embarrassed.
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After that embarrassing moment 5 minutes ago. It was so embarrassing that I actually poked Jes back. We both laugh, then I saw Ronald took a picture of me hugging Jes and poking her back. He went up to me and said:
"I'm glad I took a picture of that" he said while laughing...Nonstop.
Ronald walked away and I wipe my hand on his back (nothing was there of course.)
"Hey! What did you wipe on me?"
"...My trust in others..."