July 23, 2020
I woke up, thinking that I cried myself to sleep last night, this the first time...I've been heartbroken, but, I'm trying to be strong and all...for just for one girl, after all...
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Half of what I say is meaningless,
but I say it just to reach you, Julia...
The first verses of Julia are the one that always gets me, it's like, I'm flying into the light of the dark black night. I just want to be free from these thoughts. these thoughts have been breaking me down piece by piece, waiting for me to lose my mind. but I won't give up that easy. just because, I got rejected doesn't mean I shouldn't lose faith in life. that's the challenge. it means don't give up easily...that's our mission and our sole purpose. To live in this world.
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I always think that all my troubles are so far away...but now, I am feeling fine, by the sight of Shino's beautiful eyes...as we were sitting next to each other at lunchtime, her beautiful words, the way she speaks, and the way she looks like...to me, she's an angel...a beautiful angel that is here...to be with me, in the paths I take in life. I've asked her if she can meet me in the hallway
"Yeah, sure," Shino said while going out of the cafeteria, both of us walking, hands nearly held onto each other.
"This is fine, now...here, I have something to give you. It's a letter, I know, that...you like me, and I like you...Shino Lucy Kobayashi...I like you."
"Oh, wow. I was actually thinking of giving this letter to you a while ago, but...oh, and by the way, sorry for not calling yesterday. I've had a Hard Day's Night, yesterday. I'm sorry."
"It's fine." She said, smiling then suddenly, her smile disappeared, "Why are you so gloomy...lately?"
"It's nothing, I just don't know how to confess to you..."
"Oh, arigato gozaimasu, John-Kun! Thank you..." she said, smiling, then hugging me,"
"Woah, there!" I hugged her back, kissing her forehead. I whisper under my breath, "Thank you... I'm thankful that I have you. Arigato, Shino-Chan." I guess I am lucky after all...all those times I've thought that I don't have hope left. at least there is a girl out there, that is still willing to be with me...
(To my dear Shino Lucy,
Hmm, where should I start this? Oh, yeah. Hi,
My name is John Gabriel Harrison. I made this letter for you because I like you. Kenneth said to me that... You were making it obvious that you like me, I want someone to be by my side forever, and I chose you... Shino.
Love, John Gabriel
July 20, 2021)
I made that letter to her three days ago, but I was a coward to not give it to her. But I have built the courage to give it to her. But, I decided that I should read the letter Shino gave to me...
(To my dear, John.
Hi, my name is Shino Lucy Kobayashi, I am the one Japanese transferee. I made this letter for you because I like you. I know that I have been making it obvious that I like you, I want someone to be by my side, this is why I made this letter...
Love, Shino Lucy
July 19, 2021)
My face was becoming red, My thoughts are wanting me to go to Shino and hug her so much...but I shouldn't yet, we're still new to this relationship thing. But I should be thankful, that someone is there for me, or else I'll be the only one left that doesn't have a significant other in my friends' group. I was blushing until Kenneth noticed me, asking when the trip to Japan will happen.
"Yo, bro! When will the trip to Japan happen?"
"Next week," I say "Why? Don't tell me it's your "Otaku Instincts" again..."
"Nah, bro! I'm just excited, oh and why are you blushing? Did you ask Shino out?"
"Quiet down. I don't want anybody knowing this except you guys," I say, blushing really hard, thinking about Shino.
"Bro...are you serious right now?"
"Of course I'm serious, what makes you think that, dumbass?"
"My senses tell me your capping* (*lying) right now,"
"Oh, yeah? Lemme prove it, I'm going to kiss Shino on her forehead and make her blush,"
"Yeah, sure go ahead. Lemme see it."
I went to Shino and kissed her forehead, she blushed immediately, Both of us blushed and are embarrassed in front of the whole class, luckily, our teacher wasn't there. As I turned around, I saw Kenneth recording the whole thing, it turns out, he just lied in order for me to do, what a dumbass move, not gonna lie. I'm gonna joke later about Michaella later. But for now, it's time to think about the thoughts in my head. The only thoughts in my head are...always thanking Shino for that moment, it was a once in a lifetime opportunity, I've experienced rejects, break ups, but that...that moment is a once in a lifetime opportunity for me, it was the first time I've experienced a successful confession...and the whole thing that is in my mind is...
Arigato Gozaimasu, my dear, Shino Lucy Kobayashi... Arigato.