"What's wrong Lily? You've been looking so down and not your normal self since you got to work this morning". Mia asked in a voice full of concern.
I just smiled weakly at her and said, "I'm fine Mia, just a little bit tired".
After I had that nightmare, I stayed awake until this morning. I couldn't go back to sleep even if I wanted to.
"It's just 12noon and you're tired, are you sure you don't already have a little Ziko growing in you?"
This caused me to laugh. Mia was sure doing a good job cheering me up. I haven't even slept with Ziko and wasn't even planning on doing so anytime soon. I don't know what gave her that idea. And she kind of just reminded me that I needed to go talk to Ziko. We still haven't had that talk yet.
"You are crazy to even think about that, Mia" I laughed
"Now, keep that smile on your face and cheer up" she said and left my table to hers. I just rolled my eyes playfully at her.
She was becoming a really good friend.
It was 3.00pm and I had no much work left. I haven't been to Milo's office today. He didn't call me in for any reason, and I felt kind of disappointed.
I stood up and walked into Ziko's office that was opposite Milo's. It was time to have that talk. I won't keep up with this act of procrastination.
After knocking twice, he asked me to come in. He was busy with some files so I asked, "Hope I'm not interrupting anything?"
"No, of course not. I was just packing up"
I went in and sat on the empty chair in his office. He doesn't share this office with anyone, like we do in the general office. I think it's safe to talk here.
"Errrhm, so what is it you wanted to talk about yesterday?"
"So you're just going to go straight to the point and not even give your boyfriend a kiss?"
"Come on Ziko, we are in the office premises"
"When are we ever not in the office premises, Lily? You have refused to go out on proper dates with me. You keep giving me excuses that you are busy. You don't want people to know about our relationship. I can't even hold your hands in public. So yes Lily, this is what we need to talk about. Don't you feel the same way I feel about you, for me? I really like you Lily, a lot. Just give me the opportunity to show you how I feel about you. Let me love you, Lily" he looked hurt and his eyes were glistening like he wanted to cry.
I didn't deserve this guy. He was too good for me. He doesn't deserve to be treated this way.
So the 'talk' he was talking about wasn't about me staring at Milo in the meeting hall?
I didn't even know what to say about all this. He looked as if he was in pain. And here I was, sitting and looking at him without knowing what to say to him.
I felt bad for doing this. I felt bad for leading him on in the first place when I knew I wasn't capable of loving. I wasn't the type to fall in love. I wasn't a romantic person. I get tired of these things.
Just as I was about to open my mouth to say something, anything at all, we heard a knock on the door.
Thank goodness, this person is my saviour. I don't have anything to say to Ziko right now. I came in here prepared to apologize to Ziko for staring at Milo, but I wasn't prepared for this. This wasn't what I expected to happen.
"You can come in" Ziko answered, his voice cracking a bit. He had to clear his throat.
"Yes sir, what can I do for you?" Ziko asked professionally.
"I want to speak with Miss Adams please"
That voice, it was Milo.
I had some funny feelings in my stomach.
How did he know I was here?
How is he the one to always interrupt me and Ziko while we were talking?
Was he the man in my dreams? If he was, where the hell was he last night when I was having that terrible nightmare?
Okay, Lily. You are getting ahead of yourself.
I turned back and quickly stood up when I realized I had spaced out again.
"Will be in your office in a minute Sir" I said to him.
I don't know why I felt like I needed to use Sir and didn't use his name in Ziko's presence. It just felt weird to.
I turned back to look at Ziko, but he was glaring at Milo. What was going on. Turning back again to look at Milo, he had the same glare on his face just like Ziko.
Was I mistaken? Milo's face was always expressionless. So, what exactly was happening here?