My First love
It's been a month since Taehyung and I met. But he behaved weirdly different with me in a good way of course. He was being to sweet towards me. He always waited for me at the school entrance or sometime at front of my locker. He accompanying me through out the day after my class at lunch till he walked me home after school. I want to resist him and treated him like my other friends. I decided to stuck with Jungkook as he is also his friend and he didn't hurt him but that still didn't effect him to stuck with me like a leech. And trying his best to hit on me and calling me names but I always shut him down although I really so start to develop feelings for him but I don't want to get hurt. As I know he is a playboy and heard many rumors home being with many girls so he will end up cheated on me.
So I made my mind to dig my feelings for him as a matter of fact. It's hard as him being my first ever crush. I am not into boys and relationship although I held a personality of a badass girl in my previous Uni. But always get tease by my fake friends for being so called virgin. As if being virgin and securing your virtue is a crime now a days.
I distracted my mind with being around with my new friends who really are my friends as they were caring and made me feel safe around them. If I get in trouble they are ready beat asses of who caused that. I smiled to myself at the thought of it. That's the definition of real friends. But he was there all the time and being ass possessive over me. If someone try to approach me that would the worst decision of him cause he had a death wish if he does that and always end up with an broken arm or broken jaw.
I never thought Taehyung being like this before witnessing it with my own eyes. I understand that Taehyung is someone you will never get to mess with cause he being playful all the time doesn't meant you can mess with his bad side. I try my best to resist him and all the other boys in the University. And everything go with the flow and being alright. But today a boy tried to approach me and I shut him down politely but what happened next his before my imagination.
Taehyung came out of nowhere throwing a hard punch on the boy's jaw and beat the shit out of the poor boy he begged and cried to let go but it's like it he doesn't even heard any of his plea and when I saw Taehyung's expressions I was beyond shaking. Everyone surrounded us in the hallways gossiping and gasping at the scene. But Taehyung he could careless as he looked like a maniac when he was punching him and braking his bones. I gulped the lump formed into my throat as tears brimming into my eyes ready to fall. I make a run for fresh air as I couldn't handle the scene unfolded infront of me.
I heard Hoseok, Jungkook calling my name despite there callings I ran to the rooftop slamming the door opened so hard and ran to the railings holding them and letting my tears out. I put my hand over my mouth to control my sobbings. The earlier scene repeated in front of me as I closed my eyes to get rid of it.
Just then strong arms circled around me as someone back hugged me and put his head into crook of my neck. And a familiar manly scent hit my nostrils. I froze like a statue. Knowing very well who is the own of this scent. He noticed my stiffness and opened his mouth to speak.
"Are you okay baby?" He let go off the hug and turned me around I was looking down not wanting met his eyes. So he put his fingers under my chin making me looked at him. "Hey why are you crying? Did he hurt you? I will kill that bastard." He said looking at me as he was about to go downstairs I grabbed his hand and he turned to looked at me.
"N-no I am alright. H-he didn't do anything to me. Don't go. " I said with the fear laced voice as I didn't let go of his hand saying I am not afraid was a lie I was afraid. Looking down at out hand I looked at the blood which still there on his knuckles. I gulped.
He came and cupped my face joining our foreheads making me more afraid and frustrated. It's just been a month and he already made me tired of all this. He was good to me I know but what he does to others because of me I didn't want that. I know I started to like him but that's not stopping me from pushing him hard and yelling at him. So I did. "STOP. JUST FUCKING STOP. " I yelled and he stumble back a little and get shocked by my outburst but didn't said anything.
"JUST FUCKING STOP THIS. WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? HUH? WHO GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO THROW HANDS ON SOMEONE FOR ME. DID I ASKED YOU TO HUH? WHY? JUST FUCKING WHY DON'T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE ?WHY DON'T YOU JUST LET ME BE ON MY OWN HUH? WHY ARE YOU STUCK WITH ME LIKE A LEECH. JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. WHY ARE YOU DOING ALL THIS. JUST STOP ALREADY? I DON'T WANT YOU TO BE CLOSE TO ME. " I yelled at him and said all in one breath. I was breathing heavily looking everywhere but him. But when I did my breath caught into my throat.
His expression turned dark as he glared at me and he was fuming I can see that as he balled his fist his knuckles turned white. As if telling me that the words left my mouth didn't please him a bit. I gulped hard. And take a step back when I saw him taking steps forward to me. He continues what taking steps forward making me continue to backing away and stop when the railing halted my steps. And with a swift motion he caught my waist pulling me to him hard my hands landed on his hard chest as he is breathing heavily while clenching his jaw.
"Who do I think I am huh? Who give me the right to do what I am doing huh? Why am I stuck to you like a leech HUH? You want me to stop all this? You want me to leave you alone? You want don't want to be close to you? " He repeated the things I said to him in a dangerously calm voice which somehow scared me more. "Is this what you want huh? " He asked again. I nodded at him. And maybe I shouldn't have done that cause I think I pulled the string of his last straw.
"AGHHH FUCK. HOW CAN I DO THAT TELL ME. HOW CAN I LEAVE YOU ALONE? HOW CAN I NOT STUCK WITH YOU? HOW CAN I NOT GET CLOSE TO YOU? " He yelled at me I flinched making my eyes rounded and I clutched his shirt unconsciously in fear. "CAN'T YOU? CAN'T YOU SEE THAT I CAN'T ABLE TO DO THAT? CANT YOU SEE THAT I CAN'T SEE YOU WITH SOMEONE ELSE? HUH TELL ME CAN'T YOU SEE? " He growled loudly I closed my eyes shut in fear as tear flow down more than before.
"Y/N CAN'T YOU SEE I AM ROAMING AROUND YOU LIKE A PUPPY AND GETTING YOUR REJECTION EVERYTIME BUT I DIDN'T GIVE UP ON YOU. EVERY FUCKING GIRL IN THIS UNI IS GET READY TO BE ON HER KNEES FOR ME AND I DON'T GIVE A DAMM. BUT I WAS READY TO GET ON MY KNEES ONLY FOR YOU. ONLY YOU." He said still yelling but when I opened my eyes to looked into his own. There. There were indeed tears in his eyes. I didn't said anything so letting him continue. " YOU THINK I AM A PLAYBOY. YOU THINK I WILL BREAK YOUR HEART BUT DO YOU EVER THINK THAT DID YOU SAW ME WITH SOMEONE ELSE OTHER THAN YOU? I CAN GET WHOEVER I WANTED BUT THE ONE I AM LONGING FOR CAN'T SEE MY CARE AND LONGING FOR HER. " He smiled bitterly making guilt erupt into me. Cause as I think about what he said was right. He wiped my tears from my cheeks with his thumbs.
"You why I still didn't give up on you? " I shocked my head slowly. He smiled a little still trying hard not to cry. "It's because I Love you baby. I really do. I just can't control my emotions when it's come to you. From the day I saw you till now you become everything to me. I can't stand a day without you fuck i can't stand I second without you. If I let you go than there's nothing for me to live for. Gosh I am so in love with you Kim Y/N. " He finished as the tears started to stream down from his mesmerizing eyes. I cupped his face and wiped them. I was so wrong about him I was judging him on the spreading rumours. I didn't even try to get to know the reality I didn't even try to get to know him and saw the real him.
I pulled him into a warm hug listening to his rapid heart beat I smile knowing that I proved wrong. But I felt guilty for doing this to him even though I love him. I make him suffer this much and I don't even have any idea about all this. He put his hands on my back hugging like his life depends on it. We stayed in silence for a moment.
He pulled away and said the words I don't want to ever heard. "If this is what you want then I will leave you alone. I will not show up infront of you baby. It hurts so fucking much but i will ready to anything as long as it makes you happy. I don't want your petty love. I will give you some time but I will love you till my last breath so when you are ready just remember me and you will get me in your arms till then I don't bother you. I love you Y/N. " He said a kissed my forehead but before I could say anything or stop him he is already gone. I fall on my knees and cried harder.
"I also love you Taehyung. Please don't go come back. " I said sobbing.
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3 months later
I didn't saw him for three months in the row. The day when he confessed to me was the last day when I saw him. I cried everyday and asked everyone to where he was but they always said that they don't know. I know they know but he made them say that. I can't even gets the glimpse of him I feel empty without him. I lost my every interest I lost my appetite the day he leave me. I sighed as I made my way to home.
"I missed you Tae. I missed you so much please come back. I want you i need you. I love you so much that it hurts to know that I was the reason of your disappearance. Please come back. " I said as a tear rolled down my cheek. Just as I was walk past an alley someone grabbed me into it and pinned to the wall. He was wearing a mask so I can't saw his face. I screamed in fear as but the person put his palm over my mouth.
"Hush baby." He said in his deep voice. The voice I longed to hear for so many months. He pulled his mask down revealing his handsome face. And that's it I pulled him into a bone crushing hug. He yelped but hugged me back. He put his head in the crook of my neck and he sniffed. "Ah baby missed your scent. I missed you so much." He said getting me back to reality as lost into him. I pushed him away.
"Get away from me. Where were you all this time? Why did you leave me. Why did you leave me without giving me a chance to explain myself. Why? " I yelled at him as the tears flowing down my eyes again. He try to embrace me again but I hit his chest with my small fist. He embraced me into a hug again as if it doesn't affect him a bit. He chuckled and kissed my head. I sniff and sob into his chest. I missed him so much.
"Why are angry baby. Didn't it is what you want I told you when you missed me you will get me into your arms so here I am. " He voice lovingly. As he tightened his grip on me.
"Why did you leave me Tae. Do you even know how worried I was for you. Do you even know how much i missed you. " I sobbed and tell him the truth. As I don't wanna lose him again. " I love you Tae. I really do i was just afraid that you leave me one day. But after listening to you I proved wrong and I am glad but you just disappear with listening to me. And that broke me apart. " I cried harder confessing to him the truth.
He pulled away and cupped my face as his joined our foreheads. As I close my eyes. " I can never leave you baby. I was here all the time it's just that i didn't show up infront of you. And I am sorry for not listening to you. I love you too baby. And I missed you so much. " I can hear sincerity in his words. I opened my eyes only for me too saw him already staring back at me. His eyes held so many emotions but one can be seen clearly which is 'Love'.
We stared into each other's eyes for God knows how long. There is only an inch of a distance between us. " I love you baby." He said as he leaned forward attaching our lips into a passionate kiss filling the distance between us. He kissed my with all he got and I tried my best to do the same. But being a first timer I can't match his pace. As his suck at my bottom lip I moaned. He sensed my nervousness. He pulled away. " Is this you first kiss baby? " He asked me slyly. I nodded and get embarrass. " I proud of you baby. And I am glad I am your first kiss. As I want to be the first in everything of you. " He said smirking as he squeezed my waist. I yelped and that give the chance to enter my mouth He captured my lips again kissing me hungrily. As I can see the both love and lust building into him. My hands going into his silky locks. The kiss become I moaned into the kiss his hands made his ways from my waist down to my butt as he squeezed them and pulled me into him more.
I panicked as we are going to fast for my liking and he sensed it. Pulling away we were breathing heavily as we are out of breath. He kissed my forehead and embrace me again.
"T-Tae i-i am- " I started but get cut off by him.
"I love you baby. Don't worry I will not going to do anything which you don't want me to." He said with a calm voice "I don't wanna push you I want you to be comfortable around me and when you were ready we will think about that alright. I want you and I know that but I want you to feel the same for me. So I will wait for you baby. For now just let me be like this a little more. " He added as he put his chin on my head melting me into his secure arms. I am glad I proved wrong. I put my arms around him as he makes me feel safe and secure. I sighed in relief.