So I may have or not have been a super creep this week.
But I couldn't get Stars out of my head
I wanted to know her
Take her out
Idk why I am so intrigued by her
And why she is so interesting to me
But I want to
I finally get enough courage again
And don't sound so fucking pathetic
But I ask her out again
This time she is actually okay with going
I meet her for pizza in time square
After we just walk around
"I wish you could see the stars here"
Her voice sounds lost into a night sky
Me too, in Australia the stars are so bright you feel like you can grab them from the sky and hold them
A million diamonds or souls in the sky
"I fell the stars may be our gardians watching over us" she says smiling with bright hazel eyes
I lean in and kiss her
And I kiss her in away that I have only kissed two people in my entire life like
I really like her
I walk her to her apartment and give her a hug and kiss on the cheek
As I'm walking home I feel this urge to go back
To fuck her
But if I really want something or it to mean anything to here
I need to be patient
I finally get home
Take a hot shower
And I can feel myself throbbing
I try to look up Stars social media
But nothing
Nothing at all
Does she not care about me
I'm grabbing the tequila
And put on Marianas Trench by now
I'm really listening to the lyrics
I'm 4 shots in and I know I'm a little more then buzz now
I can't stop thinking of Star
I turn on my phone
Look up porn
Find two girls ducking so hard
I slide my boxers off
And I start to touch myself I incision stars body
Her soft golden skin
Colliding into mine
I feel her bare chest nipple grazing again my chest above my breast
I cum so hard
Then I cry like a fucking baby
What the fuck are you doing Ash
You want to be with someone else
But you go and fuck your self over your ex
How pathetic can you be
My phone goes off
And Stass is calling me
I answer the phone
And of the bat I say hey I'm drunk right now I might not be the best to talk to.
"I don't mind at all I was actually going to see if you wanted to go to a club tomorrow. I love dancing"
Sure I am down
She giggles we talk for three hours
But she has to get off when her roommate comes home
I feel like her roommate may be a bitch for her to get off the phone
But oh well at least she called right
I now know she is 29
She like bright and dark colors
She isn't big on reading
But she is very great at flirting
To good that she is a tease
A very big tease
The one that will get me in-trouble