i was scared of letting people in , scared to call someone a friend .
sometimes life does this to a person , where they feel like they are not enough
and will never come out of these feelings of heavy emotions that weigh down on their hearts
i understand , i was there to once , maybe am feeling those emotions right now
maybe crying myself to sleep every night or
wishing that the day would end
i felt as if nobody understood this pain that i was feeling
sometimes i would sit for hours on end
letting my emotions wash over me
and try to smile
because no parent wants an unhappy child
i try to speak my mind , but am always cut off by others
then was ask if i was okay
its laughable really
i cry my tears alone , thinking that maybe if i had a lover things would be different
but they never really change , they only add on to the responsibilities that weigh down on these shoulders of mine
so being scared and not letting people in
can you really blame me ?
tell me can you blame me for crying and screaming my pain , when there was no one there?
can you blame me?
~A.