your eyes would never met mine
you would always act as if i was never there
talking to me only when you feel like it
always trying to draw my attention
but then dismiss it once you have had enough
how is it that because of you i have to suffer
with all these mixed emotions that i never wanted
i see you as someone close to me
a person who could deliver the finishing blow
a person who fitted perfectly with my little bubble of a world
now even the thought of me near you , makes me want to erase my very existence
it was you who first showed me the warmth of being accepted by people
i was not used to being cared for by people other than my family
i was always alone , even if i smiled and spoke to countless of people
i never told any of them my pains , past memories nor any of the things that keep me up at night
it was you whose vibes seemed to change mine
but nothing ever lasts
so all those good vibes have now turned into
something words will never beable to describe
~A.