There was an awkward pause for what seemed like eternity. I was starting to sweat thinking that maybe I really made a girl feel uncomfortable. I looked up at her face and I am pretty sure I saw her eyes het moist for a second.
"What will you take to keep it a secret?" she asked with a stren voice.
"What secret? Why would I need anything to keep a secret? I mean I am not getting what you are saying exactly" I said being a little annoyed at her absurd question.
I was really confused, I didn't see what could be a secret about a girl buying girly stuff or me knowing her name. Mostly I felt like a bad person who is blackmailing her to get something in order to keep her secrets a secret.
"I asked that what will you take to keep your mouth shut?" she asked getting a little nervous but kept her voice stren.
"Excuse me?.....mam what do you think I am some kind of creep that I will blackmail you to get something, and neither am I crazy like you that buying some products or someone knowing my name has to be a secret. You just think the world revolves around you? Well sorry to break it out to you, that it dosen't. So get over your self obsession Ahana and am not at all interested in gossiping about you to anyone " I said almost shouting at her as I stood up in front of her in frustration.
"Namchan, I-" she tried to say something as her voice started to shake, but I cut her off, took my belongings from the desk and left from the library saying her an angry 'goodbye' and I maybe saw her eyes getting filled with tears.
Was she crying, because i shouted on her? or is she still scared that I will discuss about her personal life to people. I questioned myself as I walked through the hall way feeling anger fuming inside me.
I came back home straight from the library. I didn't attended any classes that day. Anger was still pretty evident as I felt bad that someone can think about me like that and also that I missed my classes.
Although missing my class was not Ahana's fault but surely it was my anger that took control of me and I was stupid enough to be that angry to skip classes.
As I reached home, I opened the door and went straight to my room banging the door closed. I knew Yewean wouldn't be home at that time.
I sat on my desk throwing my bag on the bed. I kept my head down on the desk and thought about the day trying to calm myself down.
But my stupid anger was rising with each memory of the incident took place in the university. Each and every word was clearly ringing in my ears even now that Ahana said.
I felt a mixed emotion of anger because of her words, guilty because I made a girl feel uncomfortable, and also confused as there were a pile of questions unanswered in my head.
I felt awful in word and my head was bursting with all these negative emotions,
Untill one of Ahana's last words ringed in my ears 'Namchan, I-' and I sat up straight instantly with eyes wide and...