It was almost time for me to leave for my second job. Yewean had been home for hours now and was setting the table for dinner. He was done with my tantrum today. I was really stubborn as hell today. First it was the anger and then the realization and then guilt these three feelings just killed me so bad today that I even refused to go out of my room and shouted at Yewean.
I was regretting each and every thing I did. I went down to the kitchen atleast to apologize to Yewean. I knew that I probably have hurt him but I wanted to make up for my mistakes atleast to one person when I had the chance.
"Huyng, I-I am-"
"There you are, little ungrateful brat. Have your dinner and just go out for your job, i dont have the energy to put on with your melodrama right now" Yewean said with a clam but strong voice.
I was feeling my heart beat increasing and my eyes become hazy due to the presence of newly formed tears.
"Okay" I said trying my best to control my shaky voice.
"What did you messed up again?" Yewean said with a voice much more soft and soothing this time, turning around to look at me.
I looked up to see him standing tilting on the kitchen counter, now facing me and his hand on his forehead covering his forehead and one eye. He looked at me with a frustrated and disappointed look.
My tears no more remained constricted inside my eyes. "Huyng, I-I am really s-sorry, I-I never wa-wanted to...-" I tried to apologize almost stammering the heck out of it.
"Stop, Namchan. You know I didn't mind you when I know how much you love and respect me. So I dont need the 'sorry' but I am pretty sure someone else dose needs it, so I want to know what's wrong" Yewean said again trying to hide the supportive and concern ton in his voice.
I paused for a moment and looked at the watch hanging in the dining room and I almost shouted as I realized that I already missed the bus I took and the next bust was 15mins later which meant I will be 30mins late to work and I cant afford to do that as this hob paid me the most for my needs.
Soon after my phone rang. I snapped from the clock to my phone to see Haneul calling me. "Yeah?" I answered the phone.
"Did, you took your bus?"
"luckily you called, so no I haven't can you please, please, please give me a ride." I asked with an expectation.
"Sure, I will be there in 2 mins" Haneul hung up the phone after saying.
"Huyng, I will tell you everything after I return, but now I am too late, so I will be get going"
"Haneul will come to drop you off right?" Yewean asked turning around probably to hide his red cheeks as it was evident that he was blushing in his voice.
I smiled to myself with happiness and contentment as I said "Yes"
"I swear to god, Namchan, if you just got a little more close you could have earned so much more" Haneul said as we sat in our green room getting ready for the place to open.
" I know that Haneul, but I am not comfortable and more over its enough for the month that I earn now." I said smiling awkwardly as I was not comfortable talking on that topic.
"Okay, today's theme is lace...such an interesting theme" said Haneul handing me my belongings.
As soon as the word lace struck my ear. my smile fad away and my head dropped. I could once again feel my heart getting filled with guilt.
"What's wrong, Namchan?" Haneul asked in a concerned voice.