Ahana:-
I was devastated. I still dont know if it is the fear that he might say everything he knows about to everyone or was it because I was genuinely feeling guilty of judging him to be someone who would blackmail a vulnerable person.
I was hella confuse even after 7 hours of the incident happening. I was also angry on my brother for disclosing my identity to a stranger.
I haven't attended any classes after Namchan left. I didn't had the energy to stay in university and attended classes so I came back home. It has been 7 hours since i locked myself in my room and refused to come out.
It's not like I come out of my room often when I am in home, but I still do come out to grab food or snacks or something but today I even refuse to look up from my desk since I buried my face in my arms resting on the desk let alone going out of the room.
Jahoon had came twice to check upon on me but I shouted on him which made him worried, because generally when he calls me or checks on me I either ignore him or I reply a simple and short "Hmm" in a cold ton.
But today I shouted at him and even was on the verge of cursing him but luckily he left. I never have been so affected by any problems I faced in life since I realized that probably that's how my life is gonna be, but today it was affecting me so much worse than I could have imagined.
I finally decided to look up as I saw my phone ringing.
"Hey sweetie " said the person from the other side as I received the call.
"Cut the crap and come straight to the point" I said being annoyed.
"Actually I had some clothes for you, so I was wondering if I should drop them off at your place"
"Is it your old clothes or my clothes?" I asked lowering my voice so that Jahoon doesn't hear me by chance.
"Both, I had some old clothes of mine and also your package arrived today."
"Then ofcourse you are not dropping my clothes off at my place, because Jahoon will be in the living room you dumbhead. Meet me at the bust stop tomorrow morning at 11am sharp with the cloths" I said and hung up the phone.
I was too tired due to the emotional roller coaster I was going through. For the first time I actually wanted to atleast say sorry to my Jahoon even if I hated admitting it.
This was the first time I was triggered enough by something to react so much and I was scared about that fact. Although I wanted to apologize so bad but I couldn't bring myself to do it rather I was hoping to avoid him. I thought it was too much from my side to judge someone like that.
It was first time that I wanted to run away from my problems since I did this on the first day of my middle school.
But somehow I decided to make things better and not avoided or run away from my emotions this time.