I practically screamed at myself for again staring at an unknown girl like a creep. The rest of the day went well without any problems. But surely I saw her in the other classes I attended and it made me kind off happy dont know why.
I was studying in my room after I came back from university. It was 6:30pm currently and I had to report at my second job at around 9:30 pm. This was the time of my studies.
Yewean was in the kitchen preparing dinner, while I complete my university works. I wonder what I would do without him, i was grateful to have a roommate like him.
My phone suddenly rang, it was around 7pm. I looked at my phone to see who was calling.
"Hyung, how are you doing?" I heard the voice from other side and immediately my lips curved to form a huge smile as I said "I am fine tannie, how have you been doing?"
"I am great as always" said my younger brother Taebeong.
"How is mom doing?"
"she is also doing good, her health has been better than before." her replied.
I sighed with content on the good news. "listen, go to the bank tomorrow and withdraw the money that I will be transferring to mom's bank account today."
"okay hyung,....I miss you" Taebeong said with a brief pause and he sounded sad.
"I miss you too, tannie" I said realizing my eyes starting to become moist.
We had some more conversation for 10 mins and then I had to hang up as Yewean was calling me down stairs to have dinner.
I got up from my dest with a heavy yet happy heart and went down to have dinner. Yewean always served dinner at 8:30 pm sharp as he knew otherwise I might skip dinner to hurry to my job.
Taebeong was my younger brother who was still in high school, mom could not afford to pay up his whole fees so I decided to help rather than make him drop out, i wanted my brother to have a bright future and never to have a life I am leading. My dad was dead or so I thought when I was 6 years old and Taebeong was just 2 years old. Mom was a strong, independent women always since I remember so she took care of us pretty easily but when I graduated my high school and wanted to go to university I understood how hard it was for my mom to support us both as my brother was starting high school. My mom had health issues that was slowly sucking the life out of her. So I had to have this life I hate the most to help mom and fulfill tannie and my dreams.
Taebeong loved to be called tannie as he grew up, caz since his birth I could not pronounce his name as I was small child too so I mispronounced it as Tannie and since then he loved to be called that way by me. Tannie never really knew what father means. He never experienced the love and care and protection of a father. But growing up my mom was my role model and I was his. I tried my best to be the shelter he needed, and that's why we never had a touch relationship unlike other siblings we were very close since the beginning.
"Are you alright Namchan?" asked Yewean trying to hide his concern in his voice as much as possible.
"yes" I replied being a bit sad. "It will be fine, you have grown up now, you have to let go of your family to help them, you can not always stay with them" Yewean said without looking up from his food.
This was the thing about him, he would console someone in the worst way by speaking the bitter truth on their face but I somehow felt comfort in those harsh words. Growing up I was always the one to be responsible and act as an elder brother, an elder son with lot of responsibilities. But being with Yewean it felt like I had an elder brother to be a shelter when I needed and I knew it didn't have to have a blood relation for someone to be a brother and take care of others. Simply Yewean was a brother from different mother.
As much as I hated my life, i was somewhat lucky to have these people in my life.