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Chapter 14 - Chapter 13

James POV:

I carried Alice in my arms. She was so petite and timid. Her body was completing shaking against me and she was completely covered with bruises. Her face and cheeks were having handprints of Nick as if he had hit her many times.

Her ribs were aching because when I started moving with long strides, she was whining and grunting in pain. There was pure terror and helplessness on her face. I maybe hated her for what she did to Eliza but I never wanted anything like that to happen with her.

How can a person be so inhumane to rape a girl?! I wonder what kind of brought they have in their childhood that made them animals and how easy is it for them to destroy a girl life by taking her against her will?

As soon as I reached that building, I started having bad vibes that something bad gonna happen and I entered the building and I heard the screams of a girl who was asking for help. I started moving towards the direction of voice and recognised it as Alice's voice.

When I reached there, I saw that a man's body was over her and he was trying to rape her?!

I got so angry and yanked him away from Alice and beat him to pulp. I could never let this happen to even the worst of my enemies. To save the dignity of woman is what I've learned in my life.

When she hugged me, I felt sparks in my body. She clung to me like her life was dependent on me. She was shivering against me and All I wanted was to soothe her. She was right about what she told me about her life, her family and past. However I couldn't hug her and pretend like nothing happened. I struggled against her and she understood that I was uncomfortable in that hugging situation.

She immediately broke the hug and the warmth that I was feeling when she was near me quickly vanished and I so wanted it back. 

I took the hold of her arm and started moving out of the place. I couldn't leave her in that place anymore. But she was so tired and worn out to even move. I never thought of doing it, nevertheless seeing her in that condition made me pity her. I quickly scooped her in my arms and I felt her being stiffened. She was not expecting it from me either.

The route seems so long when she was in my arms because her stare was making me feel something else and whenever she used to look at me, I avert my eyes. She was so petite and exceptionally calm. She was not ranting like a spoiled brat.

I made her sit in passenger seat of my car and gave her water. She immediately took the bottle and drank water in one gulp. I didn't know how long she's been enduring this molestation. This thought  gave me a cold shiver down my spine.

After a few seconds, her breathes got normal and she looked way better than before. She looked at me and then tightly hugged my jacket that was covering her body. She was embarrassed to face me. Of course which girl would be proud after being almost raped!

"I'll drop you at your apartment where you'll safe and I'll call the cops which will take your statement and you can register FIR against Nick." I cleared my throat and said to her.

She nodded. Her eyes welled with tears and she started weeping silently. She kept her hands in her laps and looked down.

What happened to that girl who stood strongly at court room? What happened to that girl who used to be the front cover of every magazine?  She was the different Alice that I was seeing. Seeing her like this, my heart felt bad.

I should be happy seeing her condition, right?

However, I started driving towards her apartment. I tried to ignore her cries but I'm human and every human should empathise with other human. I took tissue and gave it to her.

She looked at tissue and then at the giver that was me. Her big, hazel eyes that were worthy to be die for were filled with tears and her smooth and fair cheeks which were made to be caressed were having bruises. Her lips that were made to be kissed smoothly were tore by the slaps of that inhuman creature.

Oh so I wanted to kill Nick for causing her this pain. But after a few seconds I regained my senses. I should take reigns of my senses.

What the hell was I even thinking!? This is not what I should be thinking.

She slowly took tissue from me with her trembling hands and whispered a quick thank you. I nodded and continued driving. I needed to take a quick shower because her presence was messing with me. Her scent was driving me insane for her. I should drop her earliest! And I need to have a grip at my emotions.

The place where Nick took Alice was far from the city so it was taking time to reach her apartment. Nobody would have helped her because that building was in countryside and that must be the reason for him to choose that far sight place.

I was driving for about half an hour when Alice cleared her throat and I got that she was going to say something and I made myself ready for this. I don't know why I was feeling this way with Alice. She is supposed to be my enemy. I should loathe her presence. I took a sharp breathe and tried to control my senses which were bubbling inside me.

"Um— James?" She called my name. I stiffened! This was the first time she was taking my name so casually and with so many emotions.

I looked at her and nodded for her to continue.

"I want to thank you." She was speaking with such a low voice tone that I had to pay more attention to her. "Despite our issues, you saved me from being... being—raped." She whispered that horrid word: rape.

"No problem." I replied after a second. I gave her a brief and curt reply because I didn't want her to think that I was melting for her or have saved her with any other motive or feeling other than humanity. 

She got quiet after that. And the ride was quite awkward for both of us. I never thought that I would be saving my enemy! The killer of my beloved Eliza yet She was here in my car, under my protection.

"James, I want to apologise to you." She said after a long pause.

"For what?" I said however I knew what she was speaking about.

"About Eliza's accident. I didn't kill her intentionally I swear." She looked at me and tears started to roll down her cheeks.

She was looking a victim to me few seconds ago but when she started talking about Alice, all the hatred and rage that I had for her returned. She seemed culprit to me rather than victim.

She's a murderer. Murderer of my fiancé. I lost the love of my life because of her! 

"Don't say anything, Alice!" I seethed. I gave a muffled growl.

How can she even speak about Eliza? Does she do that to make me a monster?

"Why don't you trust me, James!? I swear it was an accident. I'm sorry that you lost your love because of me." She yelled while crying.

I stopped the car abruptly and she in a swift movement moved forward towards the dashboard. She regained her balance and became shocked. I left the car immediacy and saw that we were in middle of nowhere. There was dark everywhere and I was certain that we were far from city.

My chest became so heavy thinking about Eliza. I heard the opening and then shutting of car door. I felt her presence behind me. She came and held my hand in hers. Her hand was so smooth, small and soft against my rough and big one. I was shocked at first  but I didn't pulled my hand away.

"James, you're a good human. Please try to understand me. Even I'm a human. I've been through a lot from my childhood. I was born as a result of rape." She whispered. Her face became red as she said that.

"What!?" I said after a few seconds.

"This is truth. This is why my mother never loved me. During my last stay she confronted me and told this harsh reality. She used me to have all luxuries and her husband Nick he always had bad intentions about me." She told me. Her eyes were void of any emotion. She seems broken.

I was quiet. I had no words to say anything.

"Nick tried to rape me when I was there but I escaped him and then he manipulated my mother. My mother disclosed this truth about me being a rapist child. My biological father raped her and nick said that a rapist daughter needs to be raped!" She said with emotionless voice.

"Now you tell me, the person who's been going through a lot in life from her childhood, why would she want to kill your fiancé!?" She whispered. She wanted me to understand her.

I was quiet for a minute but what about me?! Because of her I lost my happiness. If she had a bad life, it doesn't become a reason for justifying a murder. I felt rage inside my body.

She was trying to manipulate me by telling me her past so that I felt her pain and forgive her easily! No way! What does she think of herself!

"I hate you, Alice Miller. You killed my beautiful fiancé Alice. With her, my goodness and my happiness died. And now you want me to forgive you." I said with red eyes and she was taken back by seeing hatred in my irises for her! "You'll never have happiness in your own life. I'll never forgive you. You'll never have happiness in your life and you'll yearn for joy and peace. What if you have been through a lot? That was in your fate but what about me? Why am I suffering? I have no regard about your past, Alice. I only know this that I'm suffering because of you." I gritted my teeth and pointed my hand towards her. She was shocked by what I said and she stumbled back. There were many emotions swirling in her eyes. She never expected me to lash out at her after today's incident.

I went back to my car and started car engine with promise of never seeing her face again. I despise and loathe her.

But all of sudden she came in front of my car and I could not press brakes. I hit Alice. I hit her with my car. It was the same way Eliza was hit by Alice's car. I became shocked. This was not supposed to happen. I couldn't kill Alice.

I ran out of car and rushed towards her. I saw her lying with pool of blood. This scene reminded me of Eliza's and Alice reminded me of Eliza. Blood was dripping from her head. She had blood all over her face. Her condition terrified me. Her body was trembling.

Her breathe were slowly fainting. She was trying to speak. I kept her head on my lap and told her that she would be okay.

"See, Now..you believe h-how guilty..i was.." She was trying hard to speak. I tried to shush her but she was reluctant to hear me. "You did not hear me..Nobody did..i ple-pleaded you.. See you wanted me to go through the pain Eliza gone th-through. See I am dying. I hope it will cool down your quest of revenge" She said this with blood coughs. I was hyperventilating seeing her condition.

What did I do? She was right. It was accident like right now I hit her. She cannot die. I cannot be her killer. Was this the same that Alice had gone through?

It is rightly said that the person we hate so much, one day we become same like them and that's what I will become; a killer.

"Please. Do not say this. I am sorry. You will not die. You will survive." I shouted for help. I held her hand and tried to soothe her. She was coughing and her eyes were slowly shutting.

"My..Guilty conscience kill-killed my spi..spirit slowly and gradually. I cried daily. You left me no way but to die. All humans disappointed me.. you, my mother... Nick.. my friends.." she was saying with gaps as it was becoming difficult for her to speak. I couldn't let her die. I was panicking

"I am sorry but It was an accident.. I will tell God how his human beings treated me." saying this her hand slipped out of my hand. Her breathes became stagnant and her eyelids began to close. I patted her cheeks, shouted her to open her eyes but she did not.

I was no more a human. I treated her inhumanely. I became a beast. Rage of revenge blinded my senses. I was no more a human!

Such a lengthy chapter.

Wohoo! So do you guys think that Alice is dead? This is how James will realise that what Alice was going through.

Are you with team Alice or team James?

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Aleeza❤️