Dahil yata sa ilang buwan na kaming nakalockdown, wala na akong ibang ginawa kundi magcellphone, fb, insta, twitter pero ang mas kinakaadikan ko talaga ang ang magpuyat kakabasa sa WATTPAD, putangena bangenge na utak ko pero sige lang.
Ang gaganda kasi ng binabasa ko, actually ilang taon na silang nakatambak sa library ko at ngayon, ngayon lang ako ulit nakapagbasa ng wala ng tulugan.
Yung halos mamaga na ang mata mo sa kakatutok sa cellphone, yong pinagkakamalan ka ng nababaliw ng kapamilya mo dahil, punyeta nakakatawa talaga eh!
Yong naranasan kong magpost sa TL ko tapos sasabihan akong:
Okay lang yan at may iba pa naman, huwag na daw ako iiyak pero tangeners, basag ang puso ko sa binabasa ko, hindi sa kung sinong poncio pilato.
Peste! Damang dama ko ang pagpilipit ng puso ko, ang kirot pagnaghiwalay na ang stinastan kong bida, punyemas ang sakit pre sa dibdib.
Tapos yong feeling na pagtayo mo palang, nafeel mo talaga na umiikot ang earth around the axis, yong nagbublurry pa ang paningin mo? Habang naglalakad?
Feel niyo yon? Well, ako kasi araw araw eh. Sus basic, strong strong ako, no! Ilang balde ng kape ang nilalaklak ko araw at gabi.
Wala ng kainan basta matapos mo lang ang nakakakilig na chapter, yong sasabihin mo sa sarili mong awat na pero sheets, isang chapter ka pa ulit hanggang bukang liwayway na pala.
Haaah, Amazing!
Ganoon, gaanon ako ka hooked sa wattpad, sa lahat ng fave fic. character na asawa ko, hindi lang nila alam author. Hindi lang nila alam na sobra sobra ko silang pinagnanasaan, ang standard ko sa lalaking mala- Ezekiel, Knight, Valerian, Lance, Cloud, Sebastian- ang datingan. Inosente pa po ako!🤣
Kaya tingnan mo hanggang ngayon ala ako jowa, ala ako mahal!
Ang pili eh, wala ng papasa sa levelan ng mga asawa ko. Mga ha, mga! Madami sila, ayokong mamili.
Mahaba-habang pilihan muna bago nila ma achieve ang mga katangiang gusto ko, though hindi ko naman sinisi ang mga otor na sobrang nelevel up ang standards naten gorls pero tangina parang ganon na nga, talaga!
May exclamation point para mas intense, mas may impact.
Pero SHOUT OUT din nga pala diyan sa mga ISPOILER, hoooh, yong tipong namamalikmata ka nalang bigla kung fb ba talaga ang nabuksan, oh ang wattpad acct. ko kase tangena men, ang mga ispoiler nakapost na agad!
Punyeta! Alam ko namang malakas WIFI niyo pero nakakainis talaga promise! Hello, inaabangan ko ang story'ng yan tapos makikita ko, ikaw pinost mo lang, ginigigil mo ako ghorl, sobra!
Asar, hindi ako nainfrorm na tied-up na pala ang wattpad sa FB, putchaaa-.
Ayaw ko mang magrant pero READERS, capslock para maemphasize. READERS HUWAG TOXIC HA!
SUPPORT THE WATTPAD AUTHOR'S NALANG, HUWAG NG MANGBASH OR COMPARE!
Iba-iba sila ng way of writings, iba sila magtwist ng story. Huwag tayong masyadong judgerist ha? Nakakamatay!
Enjoy lang, huwag ng magcause sa stress ng mga fave author's natin, estress napo sila kong paano magsulat, paano tayo pakiligin, paano tayo maiinlab tapos dagdag pa kayo sa iisipin nila? Kalma lang kasi, basa lang tayo saka vote. Natuwa pa sila sa atin, mas maapreciate nila tayo, promise.
Lab you mga author's, sa lahat ng manunulat diyan, bilib ako sa inyo, super! Kung papano kayo kaimaginative at kagaling para makabuo ng mga kakaiba at nakakainlab na stories, salamats ng much po.
MUCHAS GRACIAS!
Dahil narin sa kaadikan ko dati sa ebook, oh gurang na ako, naabutan ko pa ang era na kailangan mong maghanap ng phone namay may ebook reader para lang makapagbasa ka.
Yong iiyak ka sa classroom niyo kasi may namatay na bida, yong kikiligin ka dahil gangster ang lalaking mababasa mo. Pero meron din naman sagad bones ang kakiligan at hindi pa uso ang rated spg na scene noon. Puro kakiligan, kacheesihan, banat at kaokrayan lang ang mafefeel mo.
Hay, I miss that era!
So I made these poems, Sadist lover at 3W8L, Say it again and I'm yours theme, wala lang namiss ko lang si Bah Lance Mariano, saka sila CC at Padua.
*****
SADISTANG PARCO!
MIYUKI
Everybody say I'm a slut
For having the man that they want
But his attention was just for me
That puts my heart contended with glee
Everything maybe has its reasons
For it happened so fast without oblivion
The man that i love just gave me up
And just like that. Our whirlwind romance ended up.
But I pleaded my heart out
Plead for you to take me back
And ill pretend that im not a rebound
Its sad but so true that i only reminded you of her
The one that you always love and loving still.
Im a martyr as they say
But fuck off their words, I love you still
Maybe now Im just nobody to you
But you, your my everything, my man in this world so indifinite and cruel.
Out of nowhere i met this man
The man i never thought to be so unique yet blunt
An idea pop out like a mushroom
We started a deal that so absurb, unsure yet we both agreed out of desperation.
As time passes by,
gradually the pain his causing actually subside
And realization hit me
That yes, in no time i could fall hardly inlove with this guy.
Being with you was my happiest yet nostalgic piece
You brought me to places i never knew and lies emotion i never felt
You will always be my warrior when Im in war
My protector, my shelter, and my man i can always count when I am down.
I found a man who knows my flaws,
My insecurities and my uncertainties
But he still found me beautiful and worth it to be owned.
Love that unexpectedly happened out of desperate reason
But now we both still hanging and loving each other with no further explanation.
You knew Im a brat
And surely your one hell of a snob
A girl you fought to be yours was undeniable masochist
Yet your a man with words.
A warrior but diffinitely my softy sadist.
And thats what we are "The sadist lover"
A love we both found sadistic yet real
Cruel heartbreak that leads us together
And hand in hand we started believing in forever.
We both found a complicated love
Many hindrances to falter the bind we have
Maybe we somehow let ourselves be weak Situations out off hand get serious
that cause our heart-clenching break.
Leaving you was the easiest way for me
To mend my broken soul and my undying pleas
That somehow maybe your there beside me
When I needed you the most, crucially Cause Ive been in one of a hell place when I knew we lost our baby.
But three years fastly passed
And here am I, Finally I am back
Back to the place where most of my memories where made
But most of it I want my head to forget and reset
Its where the place I have maybe the happiest yet saddest part of my life.
The pain, pleas and heartbreak that cause my deepest downfall
where I let myself be in cause im a failure
Failed to be yours and a mother of an unborn angel in my body
How unlucky i am for being a greatest coward that everybody thinks of me.
Cause I am nobody, I cant see my worth And so why am i breathing, pleading and still living?
When all i want was to end my life so this heart will stop beating
And stop looking for a man who abondoned me
Never ever heard my agonies and my painful pleas
That for him to come back,
wipe my misery, calm my heart
Cause hes the only one who knows me more that I myself
Ive lost myself when i started loving him
Hes just a man. However, a man,
i never thought would be the destroyer of my reality.
And now out of nowhere, you just barge in my life again
Im not ready but life sucks me to be with you again and again
Ive thought of countless things to have my revenge
To let you feel how disgusting it is to be played and left without a single trace.
Ive rendered my heart and tell never ever fall for this man
Restrain myself to be fooled twice that will surely cause my mental breakdown
A man whos still sweet yet snob.
A man with few words yet I believed it with no hesitation.
And in no time here I am again. Falling!
Falling deep with your promises and love
Love you still have for me after years of seperation
Cant help myself, I admit I still love you Even the pain still lingers in my heart
Ive given you the last chance
To prove your love and worth being my man.
Maybe were too young to be inlove that time
That god has different plan and situation we never seen coming
That brought our heartbreaking part
That the two of us will be apart.
Maybe life sucks hard when you feel your in bubbles
Thats why we both have our broken souls
That only be mended with our forgiveness and selflove before any others
Thats what Ive learned, things will go smoothly when you forgive yet never forgets
Take it as a lesson and put it in your head.
That somehow things happened for you to be strong
You love a man, you should know when to hold and how to move on.
Your still the 'BAH' that I always love
Yes mature, but still the gentleman i always love and adore
You, who always have the naughty thoughts in your head
The Lance Mariano I always bullied yet have his ways to gets what he bids
I so love you even still your calling me rabbit.
The petname your using cause your a tease
I love a complicated man yet always be my sweet sadist
And Im your Miyuki, the pretty masochist.
A love we both found that has a unique beggining
A complicated love situation in the middle of these love so undying
and unending for us to have a diffinitely sadist love story.
Yet here we loving each other still
Creating new memories of our unending tommorows
Love we both feel and fought at the same time
That God has always that perfect timing for us to reunite
Now we have our happily ever after and finally, sanctity vows us to forever.
*****
3W8L, SAY IT AGAIN AND I AM YOURS
CHANNEL
Bago pa kita makilala
Meron nakong mahal na iba
Konteto ako para sa kanya
At perpekto na sana ang aming pagsasama...
Ngunit noong nagkita na tayo
Bakit ginulo mo ang aking pagkatao?
Iniwan ako ng sinabi kong ako'y sineseryoso
Ngunit ikaw pala ang papalit at seseryosohin ko ng todo...
Ngunit pagsubok laging nadiyan
Sinubok kung gaano katibay ang pundasyon ng ating samahan
Ikaw palay may iba nang pakakasalan
At itoy sa huliy naging sanhi ng ating magulong hiwalayan...
Pero pandalian lamang, di kita kaya mawala sakin ng tuluyan
Dahil sa ngayon sa pusoy koy ikaw na ang syang laman at syay sakin wala ng puwang.
Tinanggap kita at nagbulag-bulagan...
Nagkukunwaring okay lang pero ang sakit2x na sayoy may kahati na sa hangganan
Iisipin ko palang ang walang kasiguraduhan nating pagmamahalan
Nangangamba na ang pusong iyoy akoy iiwanan
Dahil hindi ko yata kakayanin ang makita kang masaya ngunit hindi ako ang iyong kasakasama.
Kaya mas pinili kong isekreto ang ating relasyon
Mas mabuting ganito, mamahalin parin kita
at kahit may kahati na Okay lang.
basta sakin meron kapa ring atensyon.
Oo kahit kakarampot pa yan. Manghihingi ako.
Kasi ikaw lang ang gusto ko at ikaw lang ang tanging mamahalin ko...
Ngunit ang akala nating madali
Ito palay isang pagkakamali
Nasasaktan sa bawat sandali
Dahil tayoy nagkukunwari sa bawat sengundong nalalabi....
Kapwa tayo sumuko at hindi kinaya
Di kinayang hindi ka ipagsigawan sa iba.
Mahal na mahal kita at hindi ka dapat ikahiya
Dahil kapwa mahal natin ang isat isa ang oras ang tutol sa pag sasama nating dalawa....
Pero hangang sa huli pala'y di parin tayo pede
Dahil ang ina mo na ang humiling at hiningi
Ang makasama ka muli at kalimutan na ang ating bawat sandali....
Kahit tutol ang loob koy binigay kita sa kanya
Kahit ang sakit tiniis ko kasi mahal na mahal kita.
Pero sobrang sakit ang akiy dinulot nya
Dahil sa araw na sinabi ko sayong
'tama na at di ko na kaya'
Ay siya namang araw na dapat ako ang babaeng pinakamasaya
Dahil ito sana ang araw na hinihingin mo ang kamay ko
at habang buhay na tayong legal na magsasama...
*****
ENDS HERE!