'Wha!? Where am I? Angel? What she is doing here? What place is this anyway?
So many questions no answers.'
''Hey! What are you doing here?'' I shouted.
She said "Huh, oh it's you.'' and pointed at something at a distance, ''my parents they are leaving me.''
It's a boat, two couples are on that, it's going away from us. For some reason I had tears on my eyes and then, then– Argh, everything is so fuzzy after that. 'anyways I'm awake now. We should be departing after an hour. I should make some preparation for now.'
I caught some fish. This time I got lucky, in just 10 minute I caught 7 edible fish. I cooked them by the camp fire as I always do for cooking them, and then I put them on a pouch I found from here. 'Now we need to store water, my water purifier won't do. Let's see the trash a little more.'
I found some water bottle 'we can now store 40 litre of water, not that bad.'
'30 minutes left.' I should now get the truck ready for driving, everything fit fine at the back. Though I needed to bind the oil tank up at the roof of it, it's not much a problem.
I tied them up by the vines of the trees. It was holding it prety tight.
'Just 5 minutes left now.' I layed down for a bit looking at the sky, but the thought of that dream didn't let me relax. It was such an odd dream.
'Now that I think about it, I don't see dreams much often.' Almost all the time I just see 3–4 minutes of darkness and then I wake up.
I see dreams once a week, month or even an year.
But those dreams were always normal. This one was too odd. I didn't had a dream like this in a long time. Well, not after my sister died.
She, I miss her. I miss my sister alot.
She was so indifferent from everything. Her voice was so cold and dead. She couldn't express emotions properly.
she always looked like an empty husk, but she had so much more to her. Angel really makes me remember her. Angel is too similar to her, to my sister.
Whenever I slept with her, holding hand I always had a dream, and everytime it was an odd one, just like the one I saw today holding Angel's hand.
Those memories with her is my happiest memories.
She was born when I was six.
A month after her birth our parents died in a horrible accident, just like the one Angel had been in when she was 4 or 5 years old.
Anyways, after that, not knowing what to do I asked a truck driver to take me where he is going, and I explained everything to him and said that I want to save my sister, and let her do everything that normal children do.
He didn't took me where he lived. He took me to the city of riches, and there I was able to get a job of loading unloading trucks.
After two or three months a military major noticed us, to help us he at first tried to adopt us, and asked me if I want to be adopted and also said he will take good care of me.
I still declined. I said I want to take care of her myself. I didn't wanted any help.
Before that there hadn't been any war in about 10 years, so he proposed this idea '' Then you should join the military, they will give you two more than enough money to go on. you will just need to be in the practice, that's all.''
I joined the military immediately. The job I was doing wasn't enough for both of us.
Even after a year there wasn't a war, at this point she had learnt walking, and can talk barely.
but then near the middle of the year a war started, it was thirteen years before the nuclear war.
The military higher ups told the major to make me a part of his group. They said that I was great at the training and I would be able to get this country a victory.
In the war field 17 of the 20 soldiers who went there died, only three including me and the major survived. It was very hard for me to recover from that mental trauma.
After that the major was trying to get me into some other work. One day when it was break time he saw me read some text book. Then he asked about it, I simply told him that I wanted to study, but I couldn't.
So he got an idea and after many requests he made from the military, at last he was able to let me study. The government would take responsibility. but after ten years when my studies were over the government didn't let me get into any work. The major almost had a fight with one of the higher ups because of this. anyways he thought submarine would be safer, and so he made preparation for the submarine examination for me, I toped it.
So the major gave me choice, whether I want to go to submarine and stay there for 6 months every year or would I be just part of military.
If my sister wouldn't had left me I wouldn't had went to the submarine.
Only a month after my major had made that offer, a terrorist group attacked my locality, I took the gun that was for my self-defense and killed almost all of them one by one, but one was able to get in my house sneakily.
... I don't want to think about the rest, right now tears are showering from my eyes like fountain.
After I had cleaned my eyes I went to wake angel up.
''Hey, wake up we need to go now'' I said while shaking her, she woke up at once as she do every day.
We went in the car I inserted the key, and twisted it, it made a huge sound but didn't start. I twisted it again, another huge sound, nothing happened.
After two more tries it started while driving I asked her, ''So, how was your dream today, angel?''
''It wasn't like everyday'' she explained with her usual sound 'those bad guys was coming near me, trying to hurt me, but you came and saved me. And then we were walking, and we met with my mother and father, but then you left me with my parents, and didn't came back. You will not leave me, will you?''
What the, why can't she see a normal dream for once, why does she always sees somthing that may make a child cry, or be afraid or sad. I said "No! Why would I?'' ''really'' she sounded a bit delighted for once.
It is the first time she looked happy, she looks even more like her when she smiles.
'It made me happy, it is so much like those days... No. I shouldn't think like that. She shouldn't get attached to me, even though I don't know, I feel like I'll be dying before her. If that really happens she won't be able to survive if she is too attached to me.'
But even after that I couldn't help but smile.