That moment, I just want to fall asleep in peace. My wish really happened, even without realize I found myself was already in Ryan's car which had been parked in front of the house.
"Why I am here?" I asked Ryan when I just realised the oddity.
How could I end up in his car, whereas previously I fell asleep in Aunty's office room. I glanced irritably at Ryan.
I was pretty sure, 100%, this was his job. My guess was right, he continued laughing after his pranks were exposed.
"Your bad behavior hasn't changed at all, walking while sleeping," he said.
It's a shame, my habits haven't changed. Wait a minute, there was a strange question that must be asked. I wouldn't be sleepwalking if nobody told me to get up or move from my previous position.
"It must be Abang who ordered me to get up and walk by myself ?" I asked.
He laughed again after hearing my question. He will be very annoying when his nosiness recurs. Since we were young, teasing me while I was sleeping became his hobby and pleasure.
"Then, why you don't wake me up ?" I asked fussily.
"You sleep like a baby", he said.
I paused for a moment in a confused mess. He hasn't changed, he just considered me a little sister and always will be.
Turning his heart to see me as more than just a little sister seemed an impossibility. I can't change his heart, never.
He put me first and gave a special place in his heart, as a younger sister, not a lover.
Once in a while, I thought that Ryan was playing dumb despite knowing my true feeling towards him.
He purposely fooled me so as not to hurt me. Sometimes, I guessed there was no way he would notice.
"Please, my princess", He said after opening the door for me.
"How odd!", I said.
"I'll treat you like a princess once time", he answered.
"I wish you can do it more often", I said as I walked along.
In any case, Ryan is almost perfect, has no blemishes; physicality, intelligence, and manner, he is just perfect in every aspect.
However, his presence is torturous bliss because he will never be mine.
The longer I stay by his side, the deeper I will love him.
I didn't want to experience the inner turmoil which is confusing. I shouldn't have re-entered his world. I had thought, time will erase my feelings or change its direction.
Nothing has changed, he's still the same, his feelings haven't changed. Really, Ryan is my biggest dilemma.
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