After Maghrib Praying (7 PM), Ryan asked me to get ready because Irham and Ilham asked him out. The four of us left, while others chose staying at home.
If I refused, my disappointment will be too obvious. Besides, tomorrow morning he will return to Malaysia. Although, the distance which is lies between us isn't too far, I considered it as a farewell.
"You're not being very well, so don't come home late", Auntie Lusi said before my two siblings arrived.
We stopped by the mall for dinner. Actually, food hunting wasn't their vision, but shopping. Since a month ago, Irham and Ilham have requested the latest shoes of their favorite brand which were distributed to Aceh Province a few days ago.
Before that, we stopped by the café for dinner. Ryan sat right next to me because my two younger brothers chose to sit together.
What a confusing atmosphere, he was too close but I couldn't reach him. He is real and virtual even as, but he still the HOME I want to stay to.
"I'm curious, what's Bang Ryan's ideal type ?", Irham said suddenly.
[Abang or Bang is the title for an older brother, similar to the term of "오빠" or "Oppa" for Korean & "哥哥" or "Gēgē" for Chinese]
"It's simple, a woman wearing hijab and has good manners", he answered spontaneously.
"Seriously ? For both of us, beauty is a must", Irham said and asking for justification from his twin.
Ilham only responded with a nod before refocusing on his food.
"You're a big liar", I thought by myself.
Ryan doesn't really mean what he says, the proof is that he's not interested in me at all even though I meet those criteria.
"Ara ?", Ryan asked me suddenly.
"Hmm... ?", I answered him by pretending don't understand the orientation of the question.
"Kak Ara, a cold-hearted woman who has never been interested in anyone. That's why we're worried that she doesn't have any intention of marrying someone, Ilham replied.
[Kakak or Kak is the title for an older sister, similar to the term of "언니" or "Eonni" for Korean & "姐姐" or "Jiějiě" for Chinese]
Ryan stared at me asking for an explanation, but I didn't respond. I let him end up with his own thoughts, I'm tired hoping someone who will break my heart in two, three, four, five, six, seven, and so on at the end.
After eating, we headed for the twins' main destination. It only took a few minutes, they already found the shoes they had been eyeing on the screen for a long time ago.
Even so, they still wanted to have a look, I followed them with no enthusiasm. They grabbed white sweaters and t-shirts while asking for my approval. I just nodded and they showed off the brightest smile.
We headed for the cashier afterwards. Ryan immediately took out his credit card, but I got it a way since I was supposed to settle the bill. Besides, he had already paid for dinner.
"Don't! I'm the one who promised them", I replied with a stern look that made him immediately moved the card.
In some cases, he understands me so well, except for my feeling. I have no idea, he either didn't notice or was pretending to be blind.
These questions often crossed my mind, but I never get an answer for them.
Irham and Ilham still want some ice creams before going home. Ryan accompanied them to the ice cream café, while I stopped by buying something they shouldn't see.
Afterwards, I returned but there was only Ryan waiting in front of the café.
"They're in the toilet", Ryan said before I asked him.
"Hand it for me", I said, then handing a watch inside a small bag on his hand.
He raised his eyebrows before grabbing the bag from my hand, then smiled.
I also wrote down a note, "A GOOD DOCTOR MUST BE IN TIME", then tucked it inside. No, it wasn't my intention. In fact, I just wanted to be someone who crossed his mind even if it was only 1 out 86,400 seconds of his daily routine.
Ilham and Irham returned a few minutes later. We decided to go home and arrived around 10.30 PM. The house atmosphere was as quiet as a mouse, it seemed they were all asleep. I immediately went to my bedroom, cleaned my face, changed clothes, then went to the bed, and slept.
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