Selena's POV
I saw Jace run to the bathroom crying.
Fuck why did I say I didn't love him?
Maybe because I'm a fucking coward who can't even express her feelings to anyone else.
I ran towards him and heard Mom and Pattie behind me. He ran to the bathroom, I tried to open the door but he locked it.
Shit, what was I suppose to do now?
"Jace come out" Pattie shouted knocking on the door, I heard loud crashes inside the bathroom.
Fuck what the hell was he doing?
"Jace" I screamed banging on the door, I was about to knock down the door but I heard a crash.
Everything went quiet
I placed my ear against the door but I couldn't hear anything.
Was Jace alright?
"Mum do y-you have a spare key?" I said as my voice trembled.
She nodded and ran downstairs "Jace are you ok?" I choked out.
I felt hot tears on my face.
Pattie gripped onto me before I fell to the ground.
My mum ran towards me and he gave me the key. I unlocked the door. I opened it and saw Jace unconscious on the floor.
"Jace" I heard Pattie scream, I saw her run towards him, she kneeled down placing his head on top of her leg.
"I'm calling the ambulance" I heard my mom say. I looked at Jace's lifeless body on the floor, dried tears on his face.
What have I done?
Why couldn't I be honest with everyone?
Why?
Why didn't I say to everyone I loved him?
I slowly walked backwards away from Jace. I saw Pattie looking at me worried. "I-I'm gonna check w-when the ambulance is gonna come" I lies and ran out.
I ran it off the house and kept on running.
I can't believe I did that to Jace.
How could I be so stupid?
If something happened to him, I'd probably be able to forgive myself.
Ever.
I slow down to catch my breath.
Jace hated me now, he probably thinks that I was ashamed of him or something.
I wasn't, I just freaked out.
I've never felt this way about anyone before. Okay, I don't know how to deal with these sorts of emotions.
The people I've hung out with when I was younger always taught me that my emotions were my biggest weakness and to never show anyone I was weak.
But you know, yes I'm weak. But I'm okay with that. I don't have to be strong all the time, why the hell is that the desirable trait?
I couldn't bare Jace being away from me, not even a second.
That's why I lied, so he wouldn't be taken away from me.
I know my mum would think I'd be lying so she'd definitely take him away so I thought if I say I wasn't in love with him, she'd reconsider.
But all I did was hurt him, and that was the last thing I wanted to do.
I heard sirens from a distance, I turned my head and saw an ambulance pass me.
Was that for Jace?
I hoped it was, but I don't know whether to be there or not.
He won't want me there.
I took a deep breathe and hear my phone ringing making me jump up.
"Hello," I asked answering the phone.
I heard a breath of relief. "Selena where are you?" The voice was my mum.
I sighed. "I'm not sure but I'm fine," I said holding back the tears.
I could imagine her shaking her head. "Selena plz come here, I'm sorry for everything I said. I just thought you were going to break Jace's heart ok, Jace is different to the guys you've dated so I was just worried" mom said and I nodded.
Did she really mean it? I don't know what to do.
I sighed. "O-ok I'll meet you at the hospital," I said.
"We're going to St'Marks hospital, ok," she said.
"Ok," I said and I ended the call.
I got up from the bench and started walking there.
I had so many emotions running through me but all I could think about was Jace.
It's like I could hear him calling me, but I knew that was just me. I don't know how I'm gonna even face him.
I finally reached the hospital and went to the counter.
"Hi, what can I do to help," the nurse asked me.
"Erm d-do u know w-which room is Jace Knight?'" I choked out.
Ugh, why couldn't I speak properly?
"Yes he's in room 213," she said as she looked at me worried and I nodded turning around to find it.
After a couple of minutes, I found the door. It was slightly opened and I saw Pattie and mom standing there.
Pattie was the first person to see me, but she didn't look too happy.
Well, why would she? her son in the hospital.
And because of me.
She sighed, her breath shaky. "Selena, do you wanna meet him?" Pattie whispered as if her voice was passing out on her and I looked at her to see tears streaming down her face.
My mum Instantly went to her. "Shh Jace is fine," Mom said to Pattie, as she rubbed Pattie on the back trying to calm down.
I stood there silent but my feet started moving towards the room.
Jace sleeping on the bed.
He looked peaceful but I knew when he wakes up, he'll be screaming his head off.
I opened the door fully and walked to Jace's bed. I sat on the chair and stroked his cheek with my thumb.
I felt him twitch a little as soon as my thumb made contact with his face.
I kissed him lightly on the lips then I pulled apart from him.
"I love you" I whispered to him and placed my head on his shoulder.
I don't know if our mum's heard it but at the moment, I didn't care.
I wanted him to know.
That's the only one that matters.
I felt my eyes getting heavy but I tried to stay awake.
I looked behind to see Pattie and my mum sitting on the chairs outside.
I looked at Jace one last time and laid back in my chair. I closed my eyes letting sleep overcome me.
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