April 4.
Jason is a total asshole. I swear, it feels like as though we've been fighting all weekend. Ok this boyfriend shit, sucks.
Saturday we got into a fight, but he apologized later. Sunday I didn't talk to him once. Then today he didn't call me at all. Well he did, but I wasn't home. So then he called me tonight after work. We were okay, he still didn't understand why I was so mad on Saturday. God, he was being so rude to me! It was disgusting. He was putting me down every chance he got. I know he was trying to be cool in front of his friends. Like please, I'm not gonna sit there and take it. Okay, so he did apologize but like right before we were leaving. What an ass.
Then tonite we fought again! I'm telling you, this is why I hate relationships. He told me my friends were all dumb and that they see their boyfriends way too much. Like, okay! All his friends are my friends boyfriends, oh fuck. It's actually kind of ridiculous. Me, Jolene, Jules and Liz all dating a group of friends we randomly met. But okay, I was like, so, they are enjoying themselves leave them alone. And then he got all mad and said all this shit about me not giving him a ride home on Friday night. God, it wasn't my car, what does he want me to do? Then I got all mad and we sat on the phone not saying anything until he let me go and said he'd call me tomorrow.
FUCK! I like him so much, why does he have to be like this?
Fucking Geek.
God, maybe I was being a bitch tonite. I just fucking like him so much. I just hate how he is so negative about everyone and everything. It seems as though he doesn't want to even go out with me.
I fucking hate my life. Every time something great happens, I screw it up.
Fuck.
I hope we make up tomorrow. I'll tell you what happens next time. I just really like Jason and I know he's not perfect. Still, he could treat me a little better. I don't know maybe he just had a bad weekend. I know I did.
But I do know I deserve some fucking respect.
Later.