I am so embarrassed. Why did I cry? Why couldn't I just hold it in? Why did I even let his words bother me? I knew he didn't like me. We are just friends. I'm practically a sister to him. He is with Stella. So why am I so upset?
I'm never going to be able to face him now.
I got myself to stop crying as I didn't want anyone to see me like this on campus and I ran to my room.
As soon as I got to the apartment I went straight to my bed and sobbed. I shouldn't be upset. He never gave me any reason to think he liked me. I have a date with Jake. The quarter back. He's gorgeous. I should be happy.
But I just want Zeke for some stupid reason. Maybe I don't like him that much? Maybe I just thought I liked him because I was comfortable around him. Because he gave me attention and wasn't just one of my teammates.
I fell asleep by 8:00PM
My alarm went off at 7:30 and I just turned it off. Maggie came into my room to see why I hadnt gotten up.
"Hey! Don't you have an 8AM?" She asked.
"Yeah, but I'm not going today."
She looked so confused "babe, you've never missed a lecture unless it's for a meet. What's up?"
"I was just stupid and got my hopes up and let myself get worked up over Zeke"
My phone buzzed and my expression does a 180°.
"Livi, you can't just go crying over lover boy to having the biggest grin on your face. Spill!!"
I show her my phone
"Good morning gorgeous! Is it pushy for me to text you already? Oh well! I hope you have a great day! T-3 days till practice! -Coach"
"Hmm who is Coach?" I hadn't yet saved Jake's number one my phone.
"Ummm, Jake Gradden"
"WHAT?! What are you and Jake Gradden practicing on Thursday?!"
"Well yesterday Zeke was late to let me into his dorm and Jake saw me and let me in and we got to talking and he was teasing me for being afraid of ball sports and now we kinda have a date Thursday."
"Oh my god! What are you going to wear?! You basically own business professional clothes or your running stuff?!"
"Ha idk. I don't have time to go shopping. I can probably make strong work."
"Well you're not going to your lecture anyways so we are going shopping"