Did he really just say that he wasn't ever going to stop liking me? I love how easy things are going with him. I love how I'm not questioning how he feels or if I'm enough.
We sit down at the table and I look up and he is just admiring me.
"This place is very cute!"
"Call me cheesy, but is is not as cute as you" he gushed.
"Haha stop it!"
"So what're you getting? Have you been her before?" I asked
"Yeah plenty of times! Not sure what I'll get this time."
"Oh so this is your usual date spot?" I teased. But why. Why did I mention that. I'm such an idiot. He looks mortified that I said that. I'm so dumb!
"Well no, I used to come here with my sister when she would come visit me. Didn't know you thought I was such a player." He seems genuinely offended and sad.
"I'm so sorry, I was only teasing. I mean kind of. Your Jake Gradden. Girls fall over you all the time. I just assumed. I'm sorry. I didn't mean it offensively. You're just you. And you go on more dates than me because people like you. People don't like me like that so going on lots of dates isnt something I know about. And I don't know why I said that. And now I'm just rambli-" he put his hand on mine causing me to stop and furrowed his eyebrows at me. He looked so cute when he did that.
"It's okay Olivia, really. I think you're really great and just don't want you to think those negative things about me. And people like you. A lot of guys do. I hate to even think about it, because I like you, and I don't want those other guys to like you because you might pick them."
Guys don't like me? I'm so take back but what he said. He's so sweet even when I'm a jerk.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to put my foot in my mouth. You come here with your sister?"
"You're okay, really" he laughed. But then he demeanor changed, "came here with her, not anymore"
"oh did she move?"
"No, she had leukemia and passed away last year."
I'm such an asshole. I making him talk about his dead sister on our first date. Why didn't I know this.
"You don't have to feel bad, or sorry for me. Please don't. She was in a lot of pain, and it was better for her to go" he said before I could get any words in. I felt so awful.
"What was she like?" Oh my god. Why did I say that? Why am I having him talk more about this more? Shut up Olivia Madison! You're ruining the date.
He smiled at me "Oh she was great! She had the most contagious laugh and she loved soccer."
We continued to talk about his sister until our food came. Once it arrived we went to wrap up the conversation. I learned she was only 17 when she died, she was diagnosed at 14 and fought for a long time.
"Thank you Olivia"
"For what?" I asked
"For letting me talk about Carly. No one every asks about her. Everyone acts like she never existed because they don't want to make me sad. But she did exist. Was was very real and she was my best friend. She would have really liked you." He started to tear up and I didn't notice that I was crying until he reached forward to wipe the tears off my cheeks.
"I'm so sorry. I don't know why I'm crying."
"It's okay haha, don't be sad. Thai food looks great. We should eat!"