"Actually,..... The moment I stop stumbling, he definately got sure that I lied to him...
He angrily caught me , his eyes got broader and he tightened his teeth and asked me," What are you hiding? Tell me , why did you do this?...."
I started crying and stumbled, my chin starting Trumbling , my crying didn't make him bothered and he became totally angry , I said,"I .....I...was going ...." he shouted," Tell me the reason...."
I said in a track," Actually , the day when I was coming to meet you , Kim and Sufiana met me on the way, they followed me.........
I told all the things ," Please Altaf , don't be angry I was scared that you'll go and beat him again.....please ,...
I'm sorry , I'm extremely sorry....."
Altaf got really angry but he didn't said a word to me , he straightly walked out of the room ....
I was not in a condition to walk , I tried but fall down and started crying........ Calling him but he went ......
Regreting myself the whole night , I slept on the floor....
At morning , when I woke up , I found myself in the bed , I got an inkling that he only might have put me on the bed.
Grandma arrived in the room for cleaning , I asked ,"Grandma , where is Altaf ? I've not seen him since morning. Where is he?"
"He , he went early in the morning I don't know where ...Okay you get up and go fresh yourself . I'm waiting for you in the dinning room."
I instantly got ready and went out to search him , the moment I left , he was sitting in the park, I silently went towards him and sat beside him,"Why you left early without informing grandma ? And now come on we'll have our breakfast....."
He slammed by hand and said,"What do you have to do with that ? You don't need to care about me ,okay.
Just go ahead. And now I'm going to Sufiana and Kim to let them know what they have done...."
I grabbed his hand and said ," No way, you are not going to do anything. Please , it's over . And because Sufiana loved you a lot then definitely she has a right to think about you."
He said by catching my shoulder,"Sufiana, she's just mad . I don't know why can't she stop doing this all. I don't why she's jealous of you and how can she think that I love you ?? I've never thought about your relation with me . You are just my special person to whom I don't wanna leave any way , ohh god, why can't she understands this...?"
Hearing this my heart really feel like ," Is this he thinks about me? He don't know if there is your special person in your life it can be your soulmate and no one... "Now I think I have to tell him," Altaf , I wanna say and ask you something..?
He replied being tensed," Yah , what? But I'm going there , okay."
I ,"Yahh, but after answering me."
Altaf," Yahh , okay. Say."
I asked,"Listen, You care me as a special person, you protect me as a special person , you stay with me as a special person and you get possessive about me as a special person....So please say WHY I'M SPECIAL FOR YOU ?????? please and don't say again cause you are my friend ..."I started crying and my heart actually skipped beating..... Just waiting what he's gonna say.....
Altaf," I ...I ....don't know....."
Me," Are you mad? Doing all this kinda stuff , being protective , having a fear to lose me it's another than LOVE....If you don't love me than Why the hell you bother me anytime, anywhere ??????? It's not like that you confesses your love to someone else and does all the responsibility for me . You fight for me and still ready to move forward for me ...Is this a joke or something???????" I thought for a while when there was a awkward moment, " No , no I should not tell him that I love him cause, he already said that he can't love me and if I do this he'll definitely will not be the same he is now , yes I should not convey my feelings , I'll rotate the words again , after thinking this all stuffs I was really regretting myself that why I told him this all????
He asked," Means Sufiana thinks that I love you ? And because of this misunderstanding she broke up with me , ......."
I said ," Yes , offcourse. Actually , we both are just friends , right?" I really felt that I should say but he doesn't feel anything for me just a special person..........."
Altaf said in a heavy voice, "Yahh, ....we are just friends . But I'm not gonna say anything to Sufiana cause whatever she and Kim did to you , I'm not gonna tolerate that and if she thinks that I love you ,I don't care. Lossing her is fine that you."
My all patience got lost , that how can he be so damp bout to make a decision about his feeling , he can't even think that he loves me actually and this all things we'll again come in future.
Altaf then continued,"Actually I wanna say you something ? Can I?"
I was just hoping that please atleast now he can ask me.
Altaf," Actually, Sufiana is the one I wanted her to be my soulmate but because of her habits at this age she don't deserve it , but I can't forget her cause she've been with me since childhood and I was not hoping I would end up with her so badly , but Because it's over I can't stick with the past and I hope we both be together like this the whole life.The place that I give to a person in my life will never change even you can't be in her place."
I was all broken , just a more sentence my heart will just blast like anything but because I don't wanna loose him , I've have to be with him . Being close to him is better to be far....................