After all the mess, I can't even blame Altaf or Aftab. They both don't know anything. Altaf was going to say all the stuffs happened but coz of Aftab he got angry but what did I do? Can't even say to Aftab that I love Altaf not him, his really possessive bout me. And Altaf don't even know what to do ? His least bothering me now, what all happened before he should made himself clear but he didn't do that and even I told him to meet he denied, so the point is that ,Where the corner of our relation has got down ? Why we both are not accepting the reality ? Why there is a lack of understanding?.......
Two days continuosly, Aftab didn't move, he apologized me again and again but I was frustrated coz I'm not getting my time, I wanna talk to Altaf, wanna make him understand but he's least bothered......
Again When I was having my lunch in the canteen,Aftab came and sat beside me.
Aftab," Listen, please......"
I just made a tired face and nodded.
Aftab ," I wanna apologize. I am sorry. Actually, I wanna say that I came to propose you that morning but...( I actually frost but it didn't made me feel in that way , it's like please not again , yaahh...) when I saw that .....that.....boy, was coming near you I really acted mad. And I said whatever I thought. I actually love you and maybe it's just a few days but I can't change my feelings for you. No...no... I'm not asking you to say yes or no, I'm just saying my feelings to you . You think what you want , it's not infatuation."
I said nothing, cause my whole heart are hoping and loving Altaf not Aftab .......
I want him, I want him badly.........
I thought before Altaf looses his believe on me, I've have to meet him. I caught the train , went to meet him directly.
Whole way I was thinking what I'll say to him? But .........
I knock. Waiting that he'll open. He just opened the door, having a glass of coffee or tea in his hand and seeing me he directly went inside, and said," Now what's there new to explain, uhh?"
It was embarrassing but I didn't get in, just continued at the door, "I ...I.... it was all a misunderstanding. Please let me explain."
He said from inside," You are not new here, step in."
I was getting anger but I've to say. I stepped in and stood by the wall ,"Honestly......."( He interuppted and said)
" What , honestly......means you were hiding something."
"No... Altaf . Its not the way you are thinking. Aftab came ..........."(He screamed)
"Then what you wanna say....."
I just shouted and said,"Please let me say, Please...........What do you think ahh? You'll see me with anyone and think that I'm having a kind of relation.....I can't understand that why the hell you are angry with me . You are just my friend , right....Then why you are angry if anyone comes to me. You are just treating me like Sufiana did to you. Im the same the way I was but I think you've changed. Yahh, he came to propose me but you know what I didn't said yes cause I don't love anyone."
Altaf," So, you didn't said anything to me and obviously I'll think anything."
"You need to have patience for that. Leave bout patience you don't even trust me anymore. You believed that boy who just said that I'm his girl and what about me did you listened to me?"
Altaf took a while and sat down on the sofa, thinking for a moment, realising his mistakes, started crying over," I'm so sorry..... I didn't Mean that. I now realised that what Sufiana did to me I'm doing the same to you. I have behaved wrong. I'm not changed but was possessive coz many days I was away from you and suddenly Aftab came near to you ..... I'm sorry. Please forgive me .I'll never do it again."
I said by taking my bag. Turning back.
" It's ohk. I just wanna make things right.And I think it's done . I'm leaving."
" Rosh, no....no.... It's not done yet. You have to make me sure that you've forgive me....."
Whatever happened not he can stay away from me or neither me....
I said by smiling ," Let's have a night walk...!!!!!"
He came and hugged me. That was the best feeling, I had after many day's and finally feeling relief...
We left and while we were walking and talking around...... Feelin' each other's company and the whole time made me relaxed.
Altaf," I need a hand . If there's any situation like this please don't hesitate to say I'm kinda crazy person but I need of your hand the most....."
For me being with him is enough.................