Before the evening , I got a call from unknown number, I casually took the call, " Hello , who's this?" The person replied, "I'm Sufiana. Please can you help me ?" Her call and her pleading was flustered . I said ,"I'm not gonna get trapped again ,ohkay and why you need my help, isn't your lover available now...?"
She told me crying,"Please don't shut me up ,I'm sorry for my deeds but please can you help me out?" I told reluctantly," What's your problem?"
She replied ,"I can't say you now on the call please can you meet me in the afternoon at the centre park ?" I told ," Ohkay."
Afternoon when I went to meet her, she just came across me by crying and hugged me and I was like, the person who used to catch my choler, today she's hugging me , something is weird !!!
I made her back , calm and slowly when she stopped crying, I asked her ,"Are you ok? What happened and why do you need my help?"
She told me,"I'm extremely sorry for my behaviour and attitude but you was right I just wanted him but I didn't loved him. "
I was stunned," Ohh, is this a new way to trick me?" she just made a tired face and said," No, I'm not tricking you ,I want say that I and Altaf had a really big fight and I'm sure that he is going to tell you and maybe he will come to you ." I just said ,"So what ? It's my look out ." She continued ,"Actually, we had a fight on your topic so he really got angry on me and he said that he wanted to leave me and now I think that he'll never talked to me again."
I asked her,"What you had a fight cause of me?"She said feelin' ashamed,
"Yes, actually I just doubted on him that he is having a relationship with you so he got angry and left...."
I was so shocked and I didn't replied her then she pleaded me ,"Roshni, I know that I'm wrong but please can you convince him to come back to me ,I really can't imagine my life without him , please just do me a favour and I'll be yours , please ."
I really felt sad for her but why I should do this for her ,means she is so selfish , and how can I do this ?
To have Altaf in my life it's itself is a purpose for me, how I can sacrifice him to her ?
She pleased me so much that I can't even say her no but how and what I'll talk to him ...
While we were talking Altaf came behind us , Sufiana just said me please in eye contact then I just went with her .
He arrived and he was extremely angry and said,"Roshni ,why are you with her ? Is she forcing you ?Come let's go I wanna have a talk with you ."
He just grabbed my hand and pulled towards him, I just pushed him back and said,"Altaf , please ! What are you doing ? You know you are just out of your mind and please stop behaving like a nerd and think what to do now ,let's have a sit there."
We just sat quietly and Sufiana she didn't stopped crying ,that time I felt that my love is nothing in front of her . I really need to help her . My heart was really filled up ,throat was tighten and I was like " I can't control anymore."
They was really thinking to talk to each other but they were hesitating to talk then , I started my conversation, "See, guys I just wanted to say that day before yesterday you to were so happy to be with each other and now how you can behave stranger to each other...Is your love over? You both actually have to understand each other no matter how much you guys fight it's you both in relation and I can only give you an advise ,you really need to look after ,ohkay!!!!" Altaf replied ,"I totally agree with you but how you trust me, how you understand me, how you care and be with me ,I want to be with her but you know what she don't deserve it. Every relation is successful only on trust but she don't trust me , means how can you do Sufiana ?Don't you love me ? "
This really made me pessimistic and how can one go through a situation that the person to whom you love doesn't confess to you , he wants you, but don't know the reason WHY?? Oh, god how is this possible. Sufiana , her shoulder was down ,her eyes were shining cause of tears and her chin was trembled while she was crying , atlast ,she stood up ,took Altaf's hand and she told him," I'm really sorry ,Altaf . I'm not gonna do it again , please don't leave me . I'll never doubt on you please forgive me . Just because of my mistakes I don't let you go please ???I'm really sorry....
There was tear ball rolling down my eyes but I didn't let it go ...I was really confused that What m I doin ? I came here for another purpose , I want him but I help someone else to get him, he wants me but never says me, I want him but Why can't I get him ,God!!!????
The situation was so awkward like anything . He got up ,he just cuddle her in his arm and said ," It's ohk. But Don't do it again . I love you .?"
Hearing this Sufiana was so happy and she really can't find a way to express her feelings and she just thrown her to himself .She said,"Roshni ,I just wanna thank you ,I don't even deserve your forgiveness but that the only thing I can do . Please , forgive me?
I just hided all my feelings , my love for him and said her by wiping my tears ," Hey, don't need to be so formal ,it's ohk .Now ,I just wanna leave you guys Alone,ohkay .Bye."
Why does he do like this , He again grabbed my hand and said,"You don't need to leave , why and where are you going ,and you wanted to say me something right?"
I just make his hand back and told,"Actually ,I wanted to go back to home ,I have some work to do .So ,you guys carry on and don't often fight ,ohkay .Bye."
There I took leave but my heart was all with him. I don't know why I helped her ? My heart just wanted him so badly that while going I just sat on a bus stop and cried so much .......
When we get to know that we are not going to have the person who we love ,at the same time the love for them increases extremely....A person can't have want he want all the time , but I just want him.......
Again I can't say him anything , I can't ask him anything ,I didn't explain him anything ,....But I just sacrificed him for anything ......I am selfish but I can sacrifice anything , I love unconditionally but can't be loved, I love him but can't make him love me,
I DOES EVERYTHING BUT GETS NOTHING..........