For two days, I didn't met him. And I just find myself somewhere lost , I used to be alone for the whole day just locked myself in the room , I didn't want to meet anyone . I just thought for a second that I really have to stop loving him , I managed myself to say this sentence the full day but it didn't worked at all . I seriously love him so blindly that I can't believe that he loves anyone else but this bitter truth wasn't accepted by me.
Sometimes we meet some people that come to teach us that all things in the universe is temporary . I was in my balcony and suddenly Altaf came beside me and stood . I was not aware that he was standing by me , the moment I saw him I just jerked and said," Ohh, it's you .How you're doin ?"
He didn't said a little word for a while and just looked me so long that he really missed me for two days and he really does , but the only unfortunate thing is he don't know how and what to say , He finally took a long breathe and said," I've never seen a selfish girl like you . You have not met me since two days and now when I came to met you , you are giving me just a dump reaction ! I want to know that why you have not talked to your family for two days , why are you doing this ? What's your problem ?"
I was really thinking that why can't I ask him that why are you so possessive bout me ?Why you have a problem if I'm sad?Why can't you be straight forward with your feelings ?
But what's the use of my words , I was just destroyed by my feelings and so obsessed that I just shouted and asked him,"So what , I'm in a trouble ,Why you care bout me ?Why are you so possessive bout me ? Why are you doing it ? Leave me alone , just leave me."
He was just shocked and confused that how I can get that angry ...
He just grabbed my shoulders and put me closed to him and said," Because you are my special friend and I can't see you in trouble , I can't leave you alone and you the one who I can be myself , I can be free and you are so important that I'm really afraid of Losing you ."
I told him,"Please don't do this , it's not good for you and me . I want to be alone just go , go." He didn't agreed with me , he replied," I'll be here till you are not okay. I don't want you to become mad by staying in one room ."
He told me and went inside by bedroom and sat , I continued,"It's not like that ..."
He interrupted and said ," I don't know what's wrong with you but I can't see you like this ."
I was wondering that what is the thing that his hesitating to say me that he loves me ?
I told him by making a fake smile ,"Okay , fine . I'm good ,see. Now please don't worry about me ,I'll meet you soon, okay."
He turned and said," You're lying , I can't believe it ."I said , "No, Seriously . I'll be fine . I promise I'll meet you tomorrow."
He then finally agreed and stood up , came near me and hugged ,"I don't wanna lose you ever in my life, I literally gets mad when anything happens to you ,I'm really scared . Please take care, ohk. Bye."
I just don't understand that why can't he be practical and think that to whom he wants and not . He can't care bout me while he loves someone else.
Doing this he'll too be confused and frustrated about his doings .
I just want him to be practical and straight forward. There's only two choices I've got, whether to stop loving him or just say what I feel for him...........