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Chapter 3 - Never Wanting To Part From Him

Never Wanting To Part From Him

What was to be come of me as the voices eho in my mind,I try to run and hide however I'm always followed from behind.

The being don't seem to want to stop, they mock me with a kick and slur I have no choice to clean up my bloody self on the floor with a mop.

Sometimes I wounder when this well ever end, sometimes I wounder is all of this is just in my head? But when I wake up and get off my bed, I can't help but to notice red. The ice cold eyes filled with rage infront of me is a monster, inside of me is hollow and meek even if I bleach myself I'll never be free from the sorrow.

I try to hide to run to scream but the shadows follow, so how do I face them alone can you see them to?

Walking, more like trudging through the empty field filled to the brim with wheat, I can't help but pray to find my way back home. But then again, where have I ever belonged? Tears stain my cheeks as I look up at the sky filled with clouds, the sky is just as empty as me yet somehow it has found its whole.

Wiping my tears I tell myself I will find myself, I will find my other half and be one again. Continuing to walk through the wheat field, I can feel the hot sun burn my skin yet I don't feel warm I feel frozen. Without realizing, it I tripped into a goffer hole and twisted my ankle. No squeak left my mouth, just the bleak sound of silenceness rung out in the air.

Laying down in the field, I again stare up at the sky and notice the clouds forming a shape of a handsome man. I reach my hands for him calling his name, oh I long for him yet no matter how far I reach I won't be able to get to him all I do is yearn.

Turning to my side, I close my eyes and pray for the day I'll be able to remain by his side. In the next life I'll always be by his side, but only continue in this life to never forget him.

The next day I find myself floating on water, cigarette burns on my skin and blisters on my feet. I had lost my memory, and had no place to go. Then i found him, his beautiful long silver hair dripping with water his pail milky white skin, and his blue eyes looking towards me. I couldn't help but burst out into tears, but for some reason no water came out of my eyes. I tried to get up to run to him, yet when I say tried I had faild many attempt yet I continued to try as hard as I could to reach him until I fell into his arms.

"Are you alright miss?" He asked me, I tried to speak but only a squeak was heard. Not only had I thought I lost my mind, but I have lost my voice to.

His arms lifting my weightless body, his warmth calming me making me feel at peace. I couldn't help but want to cling to him, I have finally found my other half I finally feel whole again. Not just that, but I feel safe as well.

Something however just doesn't feel right, I feel as if I will lose him again and the world will split us apart. Taking a deep breath I grasp his hand, as he placed it on my cheek filled to the brim with stains of tears.

"You have been crying" he spoke, it wasn't a question for he knew I was. His voice calm he continued to speak, however this time he asked me a question that I thought would never be asked. "What made you so upset and fill you with battle scar's?" I could've answered him, but I just couldn't I felt as if I were to tell him he would walk away. It seems he knew what I feared and instead of leaving, he held me closer to his hard chest. "No matter it's all from the past, now that you are with me I'll always keep you safe. No matter what you suffer before, I'm always going to be here for you"  That's when I knew, I couldn't ever live on if he and I were to ever part again.