Though I'm lonley I can't lose sight treading on the life I've walked over a thousand times I've wounderd about myself why am I never good enough why do I always rely on others when I want them to depend on me why do I make excuses after excuses wishing I never existed I hate myself more then anything else in the world I want a new life but what will make a difference if not being able to fight battle's on my own to be betrayed so what it happens to be loved so what I don't deserve them