I cried and cried. I looked at my father's photo. "Wae, abeoji? Wae?"
"How many times should I give up people? First mom, then you and now, all the six, for one guy who has problem with girls." I said crying.
"Why can't I be happy?" I cried out aloud.
"Y/n, child. Is everything fine? Why are you crying?" My grandmother came and sat beside me.
I hugged her tightly. "Ahjumma, why can't I last long being with others? Why does things happen to me?" I cried.
"Y/n. See here." She lifted my head and wiped tears and said,"it's not only you, child. There might be someone else in the same situation as yours. Don't worry. I'll be with you, always." She said and comforted me.
I cried and cried. Being tired, I feel asleep on her laps.
*next day
I couldn't stop thinking about yesterday. "How am I going to avoid them?" I asked myself.
I took a shower, got ready and left the house. I walked thinking about it.
While I saw the school gate, I felt should I go in or not. But today I've got practice and I should kick that bitch out. So yeah, I can't go home.
I went as fast as I could, without even looking at anyone. I reached the class without seeing anyone. I entered the class and saw very few people sitting. I went to my Lisa's seat. I didn't wanna sit there. I wrote a note saying Lisa, please sit in my place.
I kept it and laid my head down.
*after few mins
I was fast asleep and someone woke me up. It was like Lisa. "Can you sit in my place please. I'll tell you everything later." I said and sat in my place.
The teacher entered and Lisa went and sat in my place, before she noticed.
She started the class. My concentration was not on the class, it was all about yesterday. I was thinking about it the whole day.
*bell rings
It was lunch break. I left to the cafeteria, and sat in a table, where no one were there.
I turned towards the wall and sat and started eating. I didn't want Lisa also to accompany me. I don't want anyone and I'll not be with anyone from now on. A tear fell from my eyes I wiped it. One by one, they kept falling.
I felt a hand on my shoulder. It was Lisa. I felt happy at first, but when I saw the person next to her, I turned.
It was jungkook.
"Y/n, can we sit with you?" Lisa asked.
"There are lots of seats here. You can sit anywhere you want, except here." I said and continued eating.
"Y/n, is everything fine?" She asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Why not you guys sit here, I'll shift." I said and got up, but jungkook pushed my shoulder down, making me sit down.
"Y/n, please will you sit with us? I want to talk to you." He said.
"Why do you ask her. Just sit." Lisa said. I gave her death glares.
They sat opposite to me. I didn't talk to them nor look at them. I only ate, looking at my plate.
"So y/n." Jungkook said. "How is it going?"
"Not any good enough, until I became friends with you guys." I said, got up and saw Jimin behind me. I acted like I didn't care and walked to the rooftop.
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Jungkook POV
The whole day, y/n didn't talk to us. She made her friend, Lisa sit in her place. Jimin hyung was okay with her cause she didn't trouble him that much.
*bell rings
It was lunch break. I saw y/n, walking alone to the cafeteria. We all too, went to the cafeteria.
Lisa asked me where she was. I saw someone sitting alone wearing the same dress as her. "I think she's there." I said and we approached her.
We went closer and saw, it was her.
Lisa asked her if we can sit with her. She looked happy seeing her face, but when she saw mine she turned. Maybe because of yesterday.
She was about to leave but I pushed her down and made her sit.
Lisa said we should sit.
We sat and it was dead silent for sometime. It was awkward. I asked,"so y/n. How is it going?"
"Not any good enough, until I became friends with you guys." She said and left. I saw Jimin hyung behind her.
She really wants to be our friends, she's talking like this to avoid us. But I won't leave.
"Kookie. I told you, she's different. How dare she treats you like this. She'll get it back." Jimin hyung said.
But I stopped him and said,"hyung it's fine. I'll take care of it." I said and told Lisa to go check on her.
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Y/n POV
I went to terrace and tears flowed through my eyes. I sat and thought about yesterday. Why did I need to tell that? What is wrong with me?
I kept thinking and thinking. I felt someone's hand on my shoulder,"y/n?" I turned and saw Lisa.
I got up and hugged her, really bad.
"Y/n! Is everything fine?" She asked.
I broke the hug and said,"I don't need anyone, anymore in my life."
"Hey. Tell me what happened." She looked concerned.
I sat down and told her everything. I trusted her and told her, cause she doesn't tell anyone.
"I gave up 6 guys for one guy. Why? Because he thought I would separate them from him." I said as I cried.
"Y/n, it's okay." She tried comforting me.
"In class, yeah I can. But I practice with them. How do I avoid them? It's been only few weeks, but I feel close with them." I said.
"Y/n, see here. I know after your father's death, how important these people are. But, I'll be there for you. By your side, always." She said and hugged me and patted my back, comforting me.
We got down back to class. I sat at her place. I was kinda fine during the class.
*bell rings
The period which I wanted but at the same I didn't want to. I came, so I have to go.
I walked alone. Lisa went to discuss somethings with the new joinees.
I walked slowly and entered the room. I looked around and saw everyone were there. The teacher was absent, but still we had practice.
I kept my bag down and turned and saw Lisa standing.
"What the heck are you doing? You scared the heck out of me." I said.
"I'm sorry. We are going to practice. The boys called you for practice." She said.
I walked towards the girls, first. "Soo? Can you stand with these girls?" I said and she moved to the girls.
"Thank you. Okay, let me come straight to the point. Hyun-ae and gang, you're kicked out of the cheerleader team." I said.
"What?" She shouted.
"Oh, I'm sorry. Was I not clear enough? Or were you deaf?" I asked.
"I heard you. Who are you to kick me out?" She asked, angrily.
"The head girl. Instead of wasting everyone's time, better leave." I said and turned.
She got really pissed and held my hand and tried to twist it. But I held her hand and twisted it back.
"Told ya to leave." I said and left her hand. She got angry and left without looking back.
I turned towards Lisa and said,"Lisa, you'll be incharge of the group."
"What?" She looked surprised.
"Yeah. I know nothing about cheerleading. I trust you. And if you want to kick out anyone or anyone hurts you, tell me, I'll take care." I said and went to practice. I kept silent and practiced. I finished and hurried out fast lay. Others looked at me, shocked.
*5 weeks-a month passed
I somehow tried not to talk. The others looked worried about me.
I didn't talk at all. Namjoon and Jin tried, but jungkook stopped them.
I couldn't. Being with them, I can't be with them like this anymore.
I picked up my bag and left in between the practice. But I got stopped by Taehyung and Hoseok.
"Y/n, is everything fine? You haven't talked to us past few weeks. Is everything okay?" Hoseok asked.
I didn't say anything and moved forward, but Taehyung held my hand and said,"is anything wrong? Tell us please."
"Nothing! Just leave me." I said and walked fast. Again I got stopped, but by someone else. For whom I left all of them.
"How dare you. Better apologise, or else you'll face it." Jimin said.
Lisa stepped forward and said,"just leave her, Jimin."
"Hyung, we don't need problem." Jungkook said.
"I'm sorry." I said and ran in tears.
I stopped near the locker, sat down and cried.
"Y/n!" I heard a voice. It was jungkook.
"What do you want?" I asked him.
"Y/n, why did you make that decision? Why did you wanna do it for him? Why?" He asked.
"C-c-cause I-I-I know how it feels to be lonely. I too have faced it. It's really hard. And I don't want anyone else to witness it." I said, in tears.
He sat next to me and said,"but you too need us. You have faced an issue just 2-3 years before. Y/n, please don't do this." He said.
"Jungkook, what's happening here?" We both looked up and saw Jimin standing there.
"Hyung, please tell y/n. Please tell her to talk with us. Please tell her to stay." He said, very sad.
"Kookie, is everything fine? Is something wrong?" He asked.
"It's better to not have contact. And I won't be, from now on. I'll delete your contacts too." I said and left.
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Jungkook's POV
I ran behind her, when she left. I asked her why. Why she took this decision and what is it. I begged her. I heard Jimin hyungs voice. I asked him to stop her.
But he showed his grudge on her. "It's better to not have contact. And I won't be from now on. I'll delete your contacts too." She said and left. I looked at hyung and saw him confused, but worried. I've never seen this expression after that day she left.
"Hyung, do you know why she's not talking with us?" I said in anger.
"How do I know?" He said.
"You won't understand if I tell you also." I said and went back.
He came behind me and asked,"Tell me."
"Why do you even care? You don't trust her, cause you think she's like others. But she's not, hyung. Hyung, just give her a chance." I said and walked.
"But why is she acting like this? Is something wrong between you guys?" He asked.
"No. Between you and her." I said and went to practice.
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Jimin's POV
I went in search of jungkook. I saw him sitting down next to y/n. I walked towards him. He asked me to stop y/n.
I couldn't understand why. I have also noticed, the members were worried and she also hasn't talked with them.
She said she won't have contact with them and left.
Jungkook felt angry at me. I asked him what happened. He said I won't understand. Until and unless he tells how am I supposed to know.
I asked is there any problem between them both.
He said it was between her and me. I got shocked. I didn't understand. I went behind him and asked him,"kookie just tell me."
He kept saying,"why do you even care about her?"
What he said was true. I don't like her. But why do I care about her. Why do I feel she's important to us, to me. Stop thinking about her. I said and went to practice.
*after sometime
We finished and went to our dorm. I went to my room and laid down. I thought about her. Why does she come to my mind all of a sudden. After that day, I've never been like this. No! No! No! I shouldn't think about her.
Jungkook entered my room. "Hyung, there's something I need to tell you."
I sat up straight and waited for him to say something.
He sat next to me and said,"I would like you to know why y/n's behaviour is different. At least, I hope, you'll change after it."
To be continued...