Y/n's POV
I sat down and was thinking how things will go during the trip.
Someone sat next to me. I thought it was Lisa.
"Lisa, how am I gonna deal with this? The more I get away, someone or the other wants me to be with them, especially him. I don't know wh...." It was silent. I turned and to my surprise, I wish I got be pulled down by the earth.
It was Jimin, who sat next to me. I didn't realise it was him. Actually, I felt really bad saying it to him. Why? I gave up but why do I feel sorry?
"What were you talking about?" He asked.
"N-n-nothing!" I said.
"Then why do you stammer?"
"It's none of your business." I said and got up.
"Why in a hurry?" He said and pulled me down.
"Guys, let's start practice." The teacher said.
He let go of me finally. I got up as soon as possible and went towards the group.
We practiced a lot today.
After the practice finished, the teacher called me and Jimin. I already hated our partnering. And now I don't know what he's up to.
"Y/n and Jimin, there's more surprise for you both." He said.
I already felt like I could run away from there.
"What is it sir?" I asked.
"I've got you guys a scholarship for dance at the 1 million dance studio. You can ask the others to join too. But I would recommend you guys as you're very passionate about it." He said.
I really started hating that sir, at this moment. I wish I could just hit him nicely.
"Sure sir." Jimin said.
I gave him glares.
We left as we got a form from the teacher.
On the way out, he called me out, but I didn't respond to him.
He came in front of me and stopped me.
"You won't respond to your friend?" He said.
"Who is whose friend?" I asked.
"I'm your friend. Why any problem?" He asked.
"Yes I do have a problem. And it's all because of...." I paused and just ran in silence.
I went home and thought about what I was about to say to him. And what he had heard while I was sitting.
"No, he wouldn't have known." I said and started packing as there were still 4 days left and I can't rush the day before the trip.
I packed my outing dresses which were basically like the clothes I wear now.
*after 3 days
It was a holiday, as we needed some time to pack things. Luckily I packed few on hand before.
I just had to pack the basic necessities and some extra dresses.
I whole day, I kept packing and packing and rechecking things if everything was perfect.
I wanted to go, as it had classes with the best dance group, I've ever known. But at the same time, I didn't want to, cause I didn't wanna partnership with him.
But I have to focus on what I want. I've got to keep it up together and dance with him. I'll have to do my best, and try to keep my thoughts about him away for a while.
Why do I always keep thinking about him, even though I was troubled by him?
I felt tired and slept with the mess, all around me.
*next day
I woke up a bit tired. But I felt energetic. I couldn't wait for the day to meet them.
I did my morning routine and packed my brushes and I packed a camera. I also liked to take photos. But I never really gave that much importance to it. Cause dance was my passion.
I went down and said goodbye to my grandmother.
I finished everything and was ready to go. I took a cab to the school as I can't walk a long distance with this luggage. I went and it was pretty crowded. It was segregated class wise and had to stand with their partner.
There were 4 classes. So two buses were there. In each two classes as they were a bit bigger, more like a double-tucker.
I sighed and stood next to Jimin.
'Forget things and just focus.' I said to myself and calmed me down.
"Y/n, are you fine?" Lisa asked.
"Yeah I'm fine." I said looking to the ground.
"Okay, guys. Class A and D together and class B and C together. And you should only sit with your partners." A teacher shouted.
I was in class D. And the other thing was sharing a bus with class D where the other members were.
Is this all planned out or gradually happening? I asked myself.
We entered the bus. And as we entered first, we moved towards the back.
Actually we were pushed by the group of girls behind us.
Thank god I didn't fall on anyone.
We went to the extreme last and the other members joined us at the back.
I chose to sit by the window side as I didn't really wanted to have a conversation.
They kept talking. I don't really get involved nor did they ask me too.
They let me spend my time alone. I felt relieved as the breeze hit my face.
"Close your eyes and feel the breeze on your face. And think of the person you like or miss the most. The breeze you feel is like the person you think of. The person is someone who loves you a lot, relaxes you, keeps you safe and you feel comfortable around them. It can anyone."
My father used to say. I always remembered it. I thought of my dad, who kept me safe and comfortable and was more over a friend to me.
I smiled for the first time after all this problem.
I got a call, which distracted me. I took it out and saw it was my grandmother.
I happily attended it and said,
"ahjumma! Did you take your tablets?"
"Child, I took them. So how is it? You feel so happy."
"Ahjumma, nothing. Just thinking about abeoji."
"Y/n, don't worry over it. You're father will be happy to see how much you've grown."
"Ahjumma, abeoji always does. And he's with me wherever I go. But at a distance."
"Dear, promise me."
"Ahjumma, I know. I promise, I'll enjoy this trip and not worry over the past."
"Y/n, and you do have to follow it. And take care child."
"I will. And ahjumma, take tablets on time and don't go out that much. Take care. Bye!"
"Bye!"
*end of call.
I felt good for some reason, after talking with ahjumma.
I felt the breeze again. It felt calm and relaxing. It felt like heaven.
I just feel asleep.
*after sometime
The sunshine fell on my face which woke me up.
I rubbed my eyes and felt like I was sleeping on someone. I got up and saw it was Jimin.
I quickly got off from him and sat straight. I drank some water and just let me cool down.
I took a deep breath in and relaxed. 'Nothing happened now and don't think about it ever. Just hold it till the trip ends.'
I kept saying myself everything will be fine. But I knew it wouldn't.
But I have to, just for sometime. Just until everything gets over. I have to stay calm, relaxed and enjoy this trip how much ever I can. Try keeping away from them or mingle with them for now. Uhhhhh, I hate this. I can control myself. I can do it. Just this once.
To be continued......