First, it was his dimples. And his great smile. Then it was his brown eyes. He was dressed in a white longsleeve polo and it looks like very professorial. Lahat ng babae dito nagtitilian na. It annoys me so much!
Kanina ko pa siya pinipigilan sa binabalak niya, but he won't listen to me. Nakaupo siya ngayon sa maliit na stage sa harap ng maraming tao like what he did before. I have no idea anong gagawin niya ngayon.
Syempre hindi nawawala ang kuryosidad at excitement ko habang tinatanaw siya sa harap.
"Hi everyone! It's me again. Hi to my baby out there." Pangunguna niya.
Nagulat naman ako sa huli niyang sinabi. Omygod, seth. This is so embarassing.
Puno ng hiyawan ang naririnig ko ngayon, kahit ang mga nagseserve dito nakikisali na rin.
"Something happened to me that changed my life completely. It started when I first saw her, when I fell in love with her. Now I am happy, really happy. Gusto kong malaman mo na mahal na mahal kita, trisha vin amora. I'll give you everything I have. And I know Angels brought me here because of you. Baby, this is for you."
The sincerity in his voice brought tears to my eyes. Umiwas ako ng tingin at agad na pinunas ang luha sa mukha. Damn you, seth! Bakit ka ganyan.
"It's been a long and winding journey
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces
And walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes"
Nakakainis ka seth!
"My dreams came true
When I found you
I found you
My miracle..
If you could see what I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel the tenderness I feel...
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here.."
Sobrang hinahangaan ko siya. Nothing fazes him to show how much he loves me. Kung gaano siya katapang sabihin sa lahat kung ano ang nararamdaman niya. But here I'am trying to deny and conceal my feelings for him. I won't deny the fact na may nararamdaman na talaga ako sakanya. Pero ito ako, tinatanggi ang lahat.
"Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again..
Every breath is your love
Every heartbeat speaks your name..
My dreams came true
Right here in front of you
My miracle.."
His voice brought tears to my eyes again.
"If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here..
Brought me here to be with you
I'll be forever grateful
Forever thankful..
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle.."
Hindi ko kaya. Natatakot akong makita niya ang mga luha ko. Tears spilled down my cheeks as I slipped away from my chair. Tumakbong umalis ako.
"That angels brought me he--fuck! Trisha?"
Iyon ang huli kong narinig bago tuluyan ng makalabas. Kahit anong pigil kong huwag umiyak, patuloy parin ang pag agos ng luha ko. Tangina!
Will you please stop crying!
"Trisha!"
Hindi ako lumingon at patuloy parin ang paglalakad ko. Alam kong malapit na siya saakin. Bago pa ako makatakbo ay nahawakan niya na ang pulsuhan ko.
"Pitiwan mo ako!"
"Baby, damn it! Look at me." He demanded.
Umiling-iling ako.
"Baby, please.."
My tears continued to seep down. Habang tumatagal lumalabas narin ang paghikbi ko. Shit!
"Trisha-fuck! Are you crying? Shit!"
I turned my head so that he would not see my tears.
"Baby, look at me..may nagawa ba ako? May hindi ka ba nagustuhan? Tell me..I'm fucking worried."
Dahil sa halo-halong emosyon matapang na hinarap ko siya. Nakita ko ang gulat sakanya nang makita niya ang itsura ko. Sinubukan niyang hawakan ako but I pushed his hands away.
"Nakakainis ka! Alam m-mo yun? I hate you! I hate you kasi madali lang para sa'yo lahat! Ang tapang-tapang mong sabihin sakanila lahat! Hindi ka ba nahihiya, huh?!"
Kita ko sa mga mata niya ang pag-alala. I tried to stop myself pero hindi ko na kaya. Ayoko ng itago ito.
"What are you talking about?"
"Bakit ang tapang-tapang mong sabihin sa lahat?!"
"Gusto mo ba talagang malaman, huh?"
I looked away
"Dahil iyon ang dapat, trisha. Ayokong may tinatago! Hangga't nabubuhay pa ako sa mundong ito, sasabihin ko sa lahat kung gaano kita ka mahal! I love you..sana maintindihan mo 'yon. Ayokong maging duwag sa isang tao. Kung anong nasa loob ng puso ko, sasabihin ko sa'yo lahat..because you deserve to know, baby.."
Hindi ako makasagot. Patuloy parin ang pagiyak ko. Ni hindi narin ako makatingin sakanya. Halos lahat yata ng sinabi niya ay tumatagos saakin. Tama siya..siguro nga duwag ako.
"I just want you to know, I love you. I didn't say that, so you would say it back. I said it to make sure you knew how much you mean to me..I have fallen head over heels in love with you, trisha amora. I want you to know how much I love you. That you've given a meaning to my life. Ikaw lang ang babaeng una at huli kong mamahalin."
Slowly I lifted my head to him. Nagulat din ako nang makitang may luha na pala sa mga mata niya. Umangat ang mga kamay ko sa magkabilang pisngi niya. Napapikit din siya saglit sa ginawa ko. I brushed it gently with my thumb. I looked at him with full of tears and in his look there was nothing but love for me. And again tears flowed from his eyes.
"At ikaw din ang lalaking una at huli kong mamahalin, sethrian fabella." Naiiyak na sabi ko.
Nakita ko ang gulat sa mga mata niya. Na puno ng katanungan ngayon. Yes, baby. I'm inlove with you.
"You love me?"
"Yes, baby." I said, trying to smile though tears were in my eyes.
"Fuck," mura niya.
Natawa nalang ako nang bigla niyang hinila ang baywang ko at idinikit sakanya para yakapin. For I realized what I had done, and for the first time I felt free. Ito pala ang pakiramdam kapag masaya ka sa isang bagay na nagpapalaya sa'yo. Sobrang saya ko ngayon at walang makakapantay nito.
"I'm sorry it took so long for me to catch up. I just got stuck." Natatawang sabi ko habang nakayakap parin kami sa isa't isa.
I love how he makes me feel, like anything's possible. And for me, falling inlove with him is possible.
"I love you, trisha." He murmured.
"Siguro kung hindi kita pinasok sa buhay ko, hindi ko malalaman kung sino talaga ang gusto kong makasama habang buhay. I love you, seth."
Humiwalay siya sa yakapan namin at tinignan ako.
"All I can say is that I am the luckiest person alive. I love you so much, baby.."
Slowly, for the first time I felt his lips on mine. There's something tickled on my stomach. Habang tumatagal ay lumalalim na ang halik niya saakin. I kissed him back passionately. He drawn me with his kisses. Na pakiramdam ko ay matutunaw na ang katawan ko. Kung hindi niya lang ako hinawakan, baka kanina pa ako natumba dito. Ilang sandali rin ay humiwalay na ang labi niya saakin.
Nahihiya ako sa ginawa ko. At parang nabitin pa nga ako sa mga halik niya.
"I love you, trisha.
"I love you too.."
Ayoko ng matapos ito.