*SAYURI SCHREIBER *
I heard Yusari's voice outside, when I opened the door, I saw her running passed me, crying....
"Yusari?..." I went after her, when I reached the corner were she ran towards, she was gone. Just disappeared..."Where are you?"
We weren't supposed to be here, this area of our floor is restricted to students, so I was afraid of getting caught. Until, I heard someone whimper. I went passed the elevator and behind the wall, was Yusari bent on her knees, and crying.
"Yusari... what's wrong?"
"...Nothing..." She snuffled.
You wouldn't have been crying if it was nothing. ..
I sat down beside her and hugged her. She cried in my arms. I didn't know what happened to her that made her so sad, but I know she can't bottle it up inside...
"...I can't help it...I've fallen in love with the wrong person... It's not fair..." She's referring to Mr Shintaru, but why?
"Yusari...what did you do?"
*TOSHIRO SHINTARU *
I closed the door and entered into my room.
"What just happened?..." I mumbled to myself.
"Lucky! You got confessed to by a highschooler!" Takahashi exclaimed, he sat on his bed, throwing the book away from his hands.
"How is that lucky...?" I almost forgot he was here... now I get it...
Everything she did...was because she had a crush on me... but why confess? She knows about my past love... I just can't accept her feelings... I'm the teacher and she's the student, can't she understand that?... For goodness sake!
*MITSURU FUKUYAMA *
"People living deeply have no fear of death.." I decided to go out for a walk instead of sleeping... I know, crazy!
That's when I found Maehara...
"What do you want?" He asked. He was sitting on a bench with his head lowered.
"I couldn't sleep because everyone was screaming around about bullshit... and I thought, well, that's interesting. 'Let me get out there and give 'em a piece of hell!'... Instead, everyone came to me and asked if I was alright, I didn't think anyone would care... Shit... I caused alot of commotion last night..."
"You've got no idea." Maehara said, half smirking.
"Then, I went back in my room and changed into some black clothes. But they didn't get the idea... I hate people..." I sighed.
"Why black?"
"So, that they realise that I'm already dressed for their funeral, duh?!..." I sat down next to him, with my hands in my pockets.
Maehara simply scoffed at my remark. He didn't seem happy...
"Were people talking about me?.." Maehara asked with smile across his face. This guy doesn't ever frown when he's depressed.
"Why?"
"Just... wondering."
"Heh. Don't worry what other people think, they don't do it much often..." I paused since I realised Maehara wasn't saying anything in response. "Hey... what's wrong with you?..." I asked.
"Nothing..." His smile disappeared.
"Of course there isn't... just a few hours ago, you wanted to kill yourself... now there's absolutely nothing wrong with you."
"There is nothing wrong.... but there's nothing right either..." Now I can tell that something happened after we last talked. "I feel like a hypocrite."
"That's stupid!" I blurted out.
"Why?" He looked at me in a different reaction, he was confused but upset.
"Because hypocrites are stupid! They're the definition of idiots!"
"Are you dissing me?" He scoffed up a smile.
"Ha! Yeah!... If you don't want to be treated in a horrible way but you're ok with inflicting the same pain to others... It's just ridiculous...!"
"That's exactly what I've done..." he buried his head in his hands. I looked at him with concern.
"What did you do...?"
Maehara took a long sigh... then spoke, "I hate that feeling when you love someone that doesn't love you back... And I just inflicted the same thing onto her..." He didn't mention who. "I'm a hypocrite... I don't deserve to live.."
At least he's being honest... "What exactly did you do that's so unforgivable?... Why would you think that you don't deserve to live?..." I asked.
"I... Uh..." It looked like he was chocking on the words he wanted to say. "I made...Yusari.. confess to someone who doesn't love her..."
"Who?" I had no idea who she confessed to.
"Come on! You know, her crush?.."
I am completely stumped... I have no idea what he's talking about?!... How can anyone like Yusari?! She's so annoying!
With one look at my complete confused face, he got the idea. He took a sigh, "Shintaru!.."
"Oh!~ Shintaru!..." That name sounds familiar... "Who's that?"
Maehara immediately slapped his forehead. "Oh!~ MR SHINTARU?!!!" I finally realised. She has a crush on him?! Why?! He's also annoying!!
Ah...!~ Must be a pair in paradise...
"Didn't you know?!
"No! Why would I?!"
"It looked so obvious!... Wow... After all this time... you only found out now..."
I feel proud of myself! It's like I've discovered that I'm the first who has realised that I'm on planet earth!...
"Well, nobody told me..." Now I needed to gather my thoughts together... what has been going on with him and Yusari? "Wait!... It's a love triangle!"
"What?! No. It's not like that... Heh, you've been watching way too many soap operas." HA!
"Yeah... I guess..." Not like I like that! Watching dramas are just too cringe! And it's dramatic!
So, what is it like?... Yusari likes Mr Shintaru, he doesn't like her... and.. "Wait... You like Yusari?!... Right?"
Maehara looked down in shame. It seemed like he really screwed up big time. "Yeah, I guess..."
I don't understand... Why am I the one having this conversation with him? I know nothing about love...
"And Yusari doesn't like you...?" He nodded. "So what if she doesn't like you! Just forget about her!"
"I can't!" Maehara bursted, his devastating face froze in shock. "She... means so much to me..."
"Why?..." I was being both concerned and optimistic.
"I... promised her that u would make her dream come true..."
You shouldn't keep too many promises... "Why?" I said surprisingly. But that's not right, it doesn't matter what you're doing it for, you're just gonna be used in the end.
"Because... I wanted to make her happy... by making her dream come true."
"What's her dream exactly?..."
"She wanted to walk down the aisle with her father... but he's suffering with cancer..."
"That's impossible!" I yelled out in surprise. "You can't save anyone who has deaths fingerprints all over it!" He looked at me, his eyes glaring at me. Does he really think that her father won't die?...
"It's possible... I've already sent 500 million to the cancer research center."
FIVE HUNDRED MILLION?!!
"WHAT?!!"
"I'm rich... so what...? It's not a big deal." How can you be so casual?
"So, you've already committed to it...?"
"Yeah..." He looked down unsatisfied, yet it didn't seem like he regretted the choice.
"Why? She doesn't like you?..."
He lowered his head down to his knees, his head buried in his hands. Now I understand... He can't stop loving her... But if he knows he was gonna get hurt, why didn't he just distance himself away from her...?
Maehara remained still, covering his face down low. I was worried...
Honestly... I've never been able to feel this way... It's been so long since I've actually cared about someone else... For some reason, I just want everyone around me to be fine and I want to be the only one to suffer.
After a while, I heard a sniffle. His body was shaking, I can hear his lips whimpering. He's crying...For a girl...
"... I want to stop...! But I can't!... I love her so much!"
I was amazed... The size of his love for Yusari is greater than the moon missing the sun at night.
"I've seen this many times... However, it's usually the girl who cries for a guy, and that's normal... But when a guy cries for a girl... He'll never love another girl like her..." I spoke.
Maehara looked up with tears flowing down his cheeks. The day he'll stop crying for her... will be the day Yusari's dream comes true... She'll get married to someone else... and he'll have to stand there. Instead of crying for her... he will smile for her...
"Your soul is so pure that Yusari would be so lucky to be with you... but you don't realise it... The great never do... The great never know how special they really are..."
*SAYURI SCHREIBER *
I sat here, beside her, patiently listening to everything she said. I was surprised that she actually confessed to Mr Shintaru! Now, she's broken by the heartache, which Maehara caused.
"But... It's not Maehara's fault." I said.
"Yes it is! He's so selfish, all the time!... Why doesn't he let me love whoever I want?!"
I could've made this alot easier by telling her the truth... But I don't want Maehara to spill the beans about my feelings for Misturu. So I have to withhold his promise so that he can withhold mine.
"Maybe it's because he's afraid of you getting hurt.."
Yusari looked up and glared at me through her watered eyes, I felt frightened by what she was going to say, "Why does anyone need to care if I get hurt or not?!" Her voice made her rhetorical question forever more daring... how could you reply to that?... "... I shouldn't have told you... that day, when I first met him... I wish I never told him!" She said while putting her head down to her knees, in regret.
This isn't how today was supposed to go! We were supposed to be delighted today! But... Even if we try... We can't make anyone happy in this world... when all it takes... is to rip ourselves to make others feel whole...
"It would've been better... If we never met..."
"Don't say that!" I gasped. "... Even if he did hurt you... he has done so much for you! Right?..." I wasn't sure if my statement was at all correct... I don't know if he's done anything at all for her...
Yet... We don't always know how far the sun is... and it still shines for us... But we still need to be reminded, that even in our pain, suffering or darkness... look up.. and appreciate the light that brightens our path...
"He... he was there..when I was crying... he is a good friend... He.. knows his mistakes, and comes back for forgiveness... No matter how many mistakes he makes... I will always.. I mean always forgive him... only... If he comes back..." Yusari spoke gently with a completely change of heart.
She realised that Maehara really is a special person for her. I know it... She appreciates everything he has done for her, no matter how small it may be. Being by her side... is what she needs the most and she can't risk to lose that...
"But, he hasn't come back... He hasn't asked for forgiveness yet... Even though I'm hurting... I feel like... I've hurt him. That's why he isn't coming back..."
"If that's how you feel... shouldn't you go and talk to him..?" I suggested.
"But... wouldn't he get angry?" I shook my head, beckoning a 'no'. "But what if he doesn't accept me?!... and he won't forgive me! What if he hates me?!..."
I held her arm firmly, I stared at her soft, teary face and smiled, "It's ok... Take your time... be enough for yourself first, the rest of the world can wait..."
To be continued. . .