My hand caressing his hair stopped as my whole body went rigid. My first instinct was to pull back as if scalded, but I paused, reminding myself that it was normal. We were not babies just born into this world. He had history like I did. The shock subsided, and I put my other hand on his shoulder. Kawashita took both, wrapping it around his neck.
"She was my first serious girlfriend, and we experimented a lot until she found what she liked. It was a whole different level." He laughed, shaking his head. "It's kinda weird recalling it now. She hadn't crossed my mind in ages. You know she made me use a lot of toys and a whip one time."
"A whip?" I repeated then gulped. "Please tell me you're not into that."
"I'm not and even if I am, I don't ever want to see you bleed." His voice was hard. "That's no longer bondage. I only like to see you crave to touch me more while you're unable."
"You succeeded in that." I nodded.
He made an affirming sound. "Do you have any more questions?"
"Are you still going to answer?"
"Try. I might." There was a smile on his voice.
"Hmm." A question that wasn't too personal but probing enough to know more of him.
"Don't think too hard." Kawashita chuckled.
"Then can I ask why did you break up?" I fumbled for words when he didn't answer. "I mean you were—you seemed to be pretty serious."
He tilted his head, and our eyes met. "We went into different universities. We were supposed to go into the same school in Yokohama, but I encountered something here in Tokyo. I tried and got accepted here. It was a mutual decision, and sex was the only thing we were serious about."
Like us, I wanted to add, hating myself for letting something like this sour my mood.
"Anything else, Reiko-senpai?" he asked. I shook my head. He grinned, his teeth showing. "It's my turn then."
"Go on." I swallowed. "I'll answer one personal question."
"Two."
I considered, steeling myself. "Okay. Two."
His gaze turned soft yet serious, almost searching which made me look away. I asked, "What?"
"Do you have something that turns you on? A secret fetish or anything."
I sighed and propped my arms on top of his head. I couldn't believe he made me nervous for something trivial. Breathing in, I smirked. "Why? Are you willing to try?"
"Hey, it's my turn to ask." Kawashita tried to swivel in his seat, but I pressed harder, giggling until he gave up and grabbed my legs. He wrapped it around his chest, leaning back his head on my stomach, then looking up. "But why not? What can be more brutal than bondage? I'm quite certain you're not into Sub and Dom."
I blinked at him blankly as the wide grin on my face started to fade, the question dawning on me. It was a secret—no, just something I never told anyone. The question was sex-related, but it was still invading. But a promise was a promise. I should be fair.
A soft stroke on my feet and kneading on my toes snapped me out of my hesitation. I looked at Kawashita who had a small smile, his black orbs were gleaming. Biting my lips and shaking my head—this guy—I placed my hands on his shoulders and bent down until my chin was on the crack between his shoulder and neck.
I blew softly, making him shuddered. I whispered. "Cosplay sex and a little role play."
I buried my face into his shoulder, expecting his body to vibrate with laughter. Nothing came. I turned my head to the right and peeked at him in the corner of my eyes. Kawashita's lips were curled into a smile that I read as a bemused one. He nodded his head knowingly as if he approved.
Grinning, I tightened my legs around him. "Aren't you going home? It's almost 2:00."
He tilted his head to meet mine before leaning in and planting a kiss on my lips. "You agreed to give me two questions."
I straightened, bracing myself. "What's the next one?"
"It's not a question." He turned around and pursed his lips. "I wanted to clear earlier."
"It's not a question, though." Frowning, I crossed my arms.
"Okay, fine. I'll turn it into one," he said as he sat comfortably, slouching and pausing. "Did you really enjoy sucking your ex-boyfriend's…dick?"
"Good job, Kawashita-kun." I patted his head.
"I'm serious." He scowled.
I cleared my throat and leaned back. "I wasn't going to tell you since you might never let me lick yours."
"A deal is a deal." He touched my knee.
"I know." I rolled my eyes before looking at him. "He said I was terrible at it. I only did it twice and never again."
Kawashita stood and sat beside me, throwing his arms around my shoulder. "I'm a good teacher, aren't I? Didn't you enjoy when we had phone sex?"
My cheeks heated when I remembered our little tryst. I stared at him. He nodded and said, "We'll explore it. You don't have to worry about being bad. I'm a beginner as well. I didn't want you to think low of me because yours was the first one I've ever eaten."