" I am just hesitant to love someone again." Namjoon pitched his voice high.
"Life has given you another chance. Forget Mani. You and Y/n have the same damn feelings. Ignoring the feelings won't be good in long run. Stop considering each other as best friends and see the reality which everyone can see" Jin shouted back at him.
They were sitting in the living room at Namjoon's house. Of course with liquor loosening them to express themselves without any filter.
"How can I? I still have hopes from Mani. I know she will contact me someday or the other."
"You are provoking the rapper inside me." Jin said in a serious tone
"I am ready to hear what you wanna say" Namjoon replied
"You have loved Mani for 4 years nevertheless she crushed your heart. Not once cared about your feeling. Well..she even does not take an initiative to contact you. She is aware of the fact that you love her then also chasing other boys is what she is doing now. On top of that she never gave a shit about you. Why don't you understand motherfu...
Namjoon showed him the sign of stop through his hand.
"She is not running after other boys. She is pure."
"Oh really? Joon I thought you knew about this but you have garbage filled in your head. In high school my girlfriend was Mani's best friend"
"Yea I remember"
"She asked Mani about you. Her reply....."
"Don't stop"
"She said you are a good and sincere guy. You really love her furthermost something forever.This is not her type. She wants to have fun. A temporary one She said she has guys who are better than you.
Namjoon felt as if his heart has been taken out of his chest and torn fully apart.As if a volley of arrows are shot into him. He crumbled down and began to sob. "Namjoon control. She was not made for you.I know it hurt a lot now Get a hold on yourself. I am also here with you.
Namjoon clutched Jin in his arms. Last thing he did that day was only crying. To feel less pain he drank excessively.
NEXT DAY
NAMJOON'S POV
I woke up early. In the night only I planned what I had to do. Taking out my workout outfit my attention got diverted to a small rectangular box. Hidden in a corner with total maintenance. I opened it with 100% confusion. My clumsiness made it slip from my hands. The box fell on the ground. A printed blue shirt came out of it. It was the gift which Mani gave me on my birthday. I had kept it with so much care and never let a dot of dust lay on it. Finally the time has come. TO LET MYSELF FREE.
Morning is the best for exercise and clearly the shit out of life. Following the workout, I deleted Mani's number, her photos I had in my phone and laptop. Broke all the gift she gave me consequently
burnt
the
shirt.
"I will no longer be your dumb-ass doll. Always showed you my happy side covering my pain deep down. I don't even wanna see you. Neither your voice nor your texts, A new side of Namjoon will be revealed now."
"Most importantly I will discover myself more. The feelings I am ignoring I will pay them more attention as a whole I will give love to the people who deserve."
END OF NAMJOON POV