I pretended to not take any notice of whatever he said.
"What work do you have from me?" I asked
"I was missing your voice. I was freaking missing you"
Please stop. Somebody please stop him. I am trying to control myself. Either I will say everything or I will hang up --- (I thought to myself)
I said in very low tone. "Good you called me"
"You are not feeling good? I guess you don't..."
I cut him in the middle of the sentence
"I am feeling alright. I know Namjoon you are very expressive. You can't contain your emotions in a jar. What you feel you say, what you feel you do. I know I know everything." I realized I said this in a loud manner.
"You are definitely not okay. You sound so tired. Moreover you are really high temperatured. Let me tell you a story. In I was in school once a boy commented ridiculous about Mani. I went to him asked was the comment true. He nodded. With all the power and strength I punched him into his face. His nose broke and he went to the hospital."
"Oh. Love for Mani made you do this"
"Yeah you can say this"
At this point I couldn't bear anything else. One more anecdote related to her and I would lose my patience.
"Why are you silent."
"Nothing"
"Great time was spent with her in school. Everyday we would side beside each other. Even I went to school in 101 fever only to see Mani. Yesterday I realised Navi one of my closest friends is in your class..."
At this point I was done. I was done with everything. How can Navi be close to her. I am also close to him he never talked about it. Every time Mani Mani Mani. I am done with this. His talks were exasperating me and I lost my patience
"You know what Namjoon" I said in a high pitched tone "You hurt me a lot Namjoon. You literally hurt me a lot."
" I know Y/n. I know all this talks hurt but what else can I do. If we get together then in the end you will be the one who will get hurt " he said sadly
"Most of our conversation is either Mani or any other best friend of yours. You never value me. You just don't understand. "
" I do. I really do. But what else you need my time, my love. I am giving you all this"
I remained silent because I was busy controlling my tears. The pain I was feeling was the worst feeling ever I felt. I could neither deny it nor accept it. I kept my head on my arms on the bed. Still I was listening him
"Y/n I cannot match your standard. You are .. what should I say...I am not getting the words...you are pure. In this world relationships are only based on condom. People use one another. But you are not like that. You act cold and sarcastic in front of everyone simply not to get attached to anyone. Deep down you are full of love, kindness"."Okay. Now Y/n you only tell me what should I do. Tell me. I am ready to give my time, love, care. I will give 100℅ in our relationship if you give us a chance. Tell me what do you want to do. "Relax Y/n. I have feelings for you. I admit this. I am...."
I was not in a condition to talk to anyone. My tears and my distress was not allowing even my voice to come out. I hanged up.