Chapter 4
"Are they both were fling each other ..!" Am I the only one who notices about them? I can guess, their body languanges. Although, not clear. They are more than friendly. I stole a look, Najmi who was next to me.
I wouldn't be surprised if I could predict Najmi's reaction right now. But..why needed, the same person. There are many other women out there ... why !! I mumbled slowly. These eyes, watch her. Yes, I admit it. Tonight, she looks different and looks beautiful in my eyes. Why..why I haven't seen all that in her from the beginning.
"Hey, Zaid called you." Najmi, said.
"What ?!" I asked him in a harsh voice, shocked by his sudden rebuke. It sounds rough. And, suddenly I started to realize my harsh reaction. "Sorry." That's spontaneous. I apologize. I quickly turned to Zaid who gave a hint, to go out to the lobby.
Bored with opening ceremony. Not like the atmosphere full of speeches and conversations. Even, my best friend needed privacy.
In fact, I'm not in the good mood. 'Okay', I replied from my seat. Zaid nodded, and each of us got up and walked out. I moved into the lobby, across the table occupied by her.
I don't know why I felt angry when I saw her embarrassed face when she exchanged glances with Najmi. She's not mine, or anyone's. But, this heart… my heart ... to be honest, I feel for no reason to feel like this. I was foolish, before! And regret old things.
Ohh..she's looking at me! I noded, and give her a smile.
She returned my gaze, with a bright smile. I fall in love, once again.
I'm amazed. She's beautiful .. her smile .. her eyes .. everything, perfect in my eyes. I want her ..
"Hey!" Zaid who was already in the back, at the entrance. Called me.
I lifted my hand, as a sign to him to wait a moment. Then i across to go out. I can't afford to explain how I feel now. I 'm mad! I'm crazy! How can I, imagine to want to hug her? Arghhh .. I'm crazy! My face turned red. I felt my body temperature rise.
I loosened the collar of my shirt so that a thin white shirt appeared inside. I flicked my dark blue shirt inside out to down my temperature. I think the clothes I'm wearing are as thickness as the clothes of an Eskimo. My ears, which felt hot and redness.
Zaid, who saw my lameness, was already smiling at the end. "You're just like a kid that sees a toy" he laughed, even though I had already arrived at him who was waited at the lounge. His laughter still wouldn't stop.
""Shut up!" I said with my annoying look. After, the throbbing began to subside. I fell relieve.
"I don't want to say more. We're not young. If you're pleased with her, hurry up and make her your wife." Zaid said, "Besides, it looks very ..." Zaid stopped in half. He raised his hand, to the waiter in front of him.
"How did you know." i asked. My question, not answered directly.
"You want some coffee ??" Zaid asked, after the waiter they called, approach them. I just nodded, without much to said. A two -finger gesture was shown to the waiter before, the man passed by with the order they had ordered. "You asked me, or did you not know. Everyone got it when you approached her near the beach this afternoon." Zaid says, after he finished ordering.
My eyebrows are lifted. "Obvious??!" I asked back. My hair, which was dangling in front, was ruffled with the fingers back. It's really ashame!
"It's not obvious. Even before, I saw you, it's like I'm about to swallow her alive. Your's luck because I was in there, otherwise. I don't know what will happen to her." Zaid simply replied.
My face, flushed. Seeing me unable to respond to his words, made him laugh out loud. "Oh !! The lobsters are on fire !!" he laughed amused. I can't afford to answer, or reply to his words. A very clear fact, I really like her so much. It clearly write on my face.
"I like her..but .." I does't have the courage, to confront her. I want to confess at her. If you want laugh at me, I don't care.
I personally felt what I felt and in three days at a time, I could not sleep well. Feelings of indeterminate heart. Sometimes, I get anxious when I don't see her for a moment. I miss her so much. In fact, I get mad when I see some boy, talking to her. "I falling in love with her, Zaid." My sigh, heavy.
Zaid patting my shoulder "Go tell her. I thought you liked living single." The drinks ordered, have arrived.
I looked at him. "Easy you said." The coffee I ordered, I put on the table.
"What's so hard. You just need to tell her. You haven't been rejected, or you don't even know if she rejects you." He said. I sighed. It's easy, if before this, I did not reject her's confession.
"Unless you reject him" Zaid added, then. Coffee, inhaled thinly. The sweet fat from the aroma of coffee, is really immersive. Zaid joked, adding. He had time to look at his friend.
"How do you know .." I question. Surprised by the spontaneous expression from Zaid.
Zaid was also shocked. "You, reject her? How? When ??;" the supposedly to be joking, but apparently it was thrue. "God..You're done. How can you reject her? Can you tell me?" asked Zaid, curious.
I lost a word, patting my forehead. I sighed again. I don't know how many times I've complained. "It was a past." I'm a fool. It's not that I reject her, it's okay, but I despised her so much. Arghhh !! You stupid !. The word i make, nonsense.
"Last year's?" He guessed.
I shook my head, raising my eyebrows. If that had happened last year, maybe I wouldn't have done something stupid.
"While in camp?" He guessed again.
"Yeah." I answer, shortly. Complaints on the lips are still heard. Annoyed, when I think back. Because the confession coming from women, make me reject her directly even know i regret about it. If he follows the custom, he must reject it outright. After thats, she didn't seem to mad t me. Why?
Zaid patted his forehead. Maybe, he's also aware of my stupidity. "That' why, you're not interested into blind date." He said, with a laugh. "You're in love with our school friends."
"Hey, guys. Our member asked to come inside. The ceremony gave a gift." Shafiqah who, then in the lobby area, came approaching. Our conversation, paused.
I was almost shocked, immediately got up from sitting. Zaid, act like casual when Shafiqah came closer. Involvement of her who was there, continues to be my observation. Although, from afar. I can see her clearly. Zaid cleared his throat, little. Signal to me.
"There asked you guys, to come in." Shafiqah said, gesturing with her hand.
"Where are you three going?" Zaid asked, when his eyes saw the three of them coming out. If you want to find the others members, it's not nessassary all of you come out together?
"Search for the restroom." Answer Syafikah, before she left. Her steps were a bit hurried.
Zaid nodded, then looking at me. His eyebrows rose.
"What?" I'm talking, spontaneously.
Zaid wondered and shook his head. "I know you're just looking at her. It's not like you're unaware of the man's presence next to the woman."
"Whose? Najmi?" My blood is rushing. Najmi was there? I feel like I'm blindfolded. Unconsciously, I moved after them. But, not having had time to do so, Zaid resisted.
"You're mad!" hold Zaid, spoke slowly.
I was startled. This is a feeling of jealousy. My face is burning. Feeling angry, at the moment. "Hmmm." I mutter, shortly. I just realize, two couples in matching clothes walking side by side. Zaid. Pat me on the shoulder.
He hope me to be patient, guessed me unconfirm.
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