After joining the school. Within very little time I became so popular. I had topped the exam. Won all speech, debate, essay, quiz competition. Became the class captain and school vice-captain.
I was just feeling like a celebrity of the school. As I was always moving with a gang, doing everything I want to do. I made a lot of friends. Now I was not unkown to anyone.
As days were passing, my attraction towards her was increasing, my feelings towards her was increasing. I was just spending most of my time looking at her. And avoiding acting so strangely when was caught by her. It was so childish but was pleasurable for me. My one sided love.
As she was the most beautiful girl. Many boys were behind her. Following her, proposing her. My friend Bishal was also one of them. I was not so good looking, Bishal was loving her. So I decided to leave her. i stopped looking at her. Stopped following her. But was unable to stop loving her.
I got completely addicted to her. She had become a part of my daily routine. Without looking at her, I became upset, calm, lost interest in everything. I changed a lot, sitting silently in the classroom. Not answering the questions. Not moving with my gang. Just sitting alone, I resigned from the captaincy. Everyone were just confused. Thinking, what happened to me?
I hadn't shared my feelings about her to anybody, not to even my friends. One day, while I was sitting in the class alone. One of my friend, Sanat came to me. And told me that don't be so depressed, just observe Roji for some days. He told me that, he had observed that Roji was looking at me, most of the times in the classroom. I laughed a lot and told him, stop making fun of me. Just look at my face ans then tell. He requested me to observe once. And took me to the field.
We went to the field, found her sitting under the tree. Under which I used to sit everyday. Both of us were just standing near the tube well. We were just waiting for her. I was just looking at her. She was also looking at me, smiling. After some time, she stood up and started coming towards us. My heart was beating so fast. My angel was coming towards me.
I was unable to decide, what to do. She was coming closer and closer. My heart beat was becoming faster and faster. At last she reached the tube well, drank water. I was just looking at her, while she was drinking water. Her lips were so sweet. I was lost in my thoughts again. When she looked at me, I couldn't control myself. I ran away from there, like a child. My friend was shouting to stop. But I reached our classroom in one breath.
I was dancing like a mad boy, with joy. Everyone who were watching me dancing, were just ashamed of my action. Suddenly my friend came running, and slapped me. He spoiled my mood. I looked at him angrily. Then he took me to outside, and scolded me a lot. He told me that, I should have talked with her. She was giving chance to me, but I had missed it. Ran away from there. He told me that I was a coward.
I was not listening to his words at all, I was just thinking about her eyes, smile, lips. I hugged my friend hugged, and thanked him. And took him to the hotel. We had a small party. He was not happy with the party at all. He was just scolding me. Suddenly I closed his mouth, looking outside the hotel. She came there, with her friend. She looked at me and smiled. Her smile just made me fly high above the sky. My thoughts were seeming to become reality. I thanked God again, for being so pleased to me.
I was not sure, what she thinks about me? At the same time, her friends were not sure that wheather really I like her or not. So, one day her best friend, Sumitra, one of our senior. Came to my friend, Linkan. She asked him to, tell her the name, who loves her friend. Linkan replied jokingly that he was unable to count, as nearly one-third of the boys had crush on her. Then she asked him seriously, to tell the name, which she wants to listen. My friend told his name, laughing badly. She got so angry and asked him seriously to tell the name.
At that time I was crossing them running, I just smiled at him. And entered principal's chamber. Then, my friend told her that, the boy who crossed them was the one. She smiled and replied that her friend was right, and looked back. Behind her Roji came out smiling. Then both of them left smiling. My friend came to me running and told me the total story happened. I was so happy.
After the school, when she was going, she smiled at me in a different way. I was confused by her smile. Was not getting the intention of that smile, which was so different. I had not a sound sleep that night. Was just lost in the thought that, wheather it was the beginning of our relationship or the end of my sweet imagination. I managed by heart, by saying "All is well.. All is well", and slept.
The next day she was not there in the classroom. I searched for her, but had not found her. she was absent. I was scared. In my imagination the second option was coming as reality. I was so scared. I just want to see her. So after the attendance, I bunked class. It was for the first time, that I had bunked the class. And came out of the school towards her village.
I was on the way towards her village. When I heard a very familiar voice, shouting my name. I looked back, my father was standing on the road. I was caught by my father. I had no words to explain. He took me to home, and inquired me. I was keeping quite. But my mother was aware of the whole thing. So, she told the whole story to him. He looked at me angrily, as I was so small. He told me to don't get distracted, concentrate on studies. He only asked me for a promise. I promised her that, I will not talk with her, will maintain distance from her. And will concentrate on studies. I relaxed, as my father had not scolded me, or beaten me. He had faith on me.
I had never gone through this kind of madness, had never done such adventure. And had not gone through such awkward moment, at home. Which was just to see her. She her face, her smile.