Everything was fine. I was happy with my friends and her. We had so sweet moments, without talking with each other, meeting each other. Just by looking at each other and just feeling the love. Our love story came to the track now. But like every Bollywood movie, a shocking news was waiting for us. Which ruined our happiness.
That was Saturday. We were busy in parade practice. I was the commander of our troop, and was just sitting under the tree. Just commanding and making fun of those who were not so perfect in parade, with my friends.
Suddenly our peon came to the field, and called my name loudly. He was serious, and called my name again so loudly. I was afraid, as I was passing comments to both boys and girls. Had anybody complaint against me? Will the principal punish me, call my father? With this confusion, fear, I ran to the principal's chamber.
My father was also there. He was looking so serious, also the principal was looking at me in a very strange manner. My fear was at the top level now. Suddenly our principal started scolding me. ''what are you doing? Did your father sent you to school to do this." I was just standing with my head down.
I was just going to say sorry, when both of them started laughing at me. Principal sir came to me and hugged me tight. And asked me for sweets. He told me that I had qualified the lateral entry test. I was selected for JNV. Immediately he called all the staffs, and told them the news. All staffs were so happy, including my father. But I was not.
I was unable to judge whether it was a good news or bad. In one way it was an opportunity for me to fulfill my dreams, my parents dreams. But in another way it was taking me away from my dream, my life, my love.
I was lost in these thoughts, when the bell rang. All students came out of there classes.
Among them she was also there. Smilling as usual. Looking at me. Playing with her hair, gesturing. The smile that was making my heart full of joy, making my day colouful, made me cry that day.
She was unaware of the news. So, was confused that why I had not smiled back. Instead hidden my eyes from her. She was standing outside the school, as usual. But I had not looked at her. I just moved towards my village, with my head down, avoiding eye contact. That night I had not a sound sleep. whole night passed just by recollecting the memories.
The next day I was standing on the road with my friends, waiting for her. She came by her cycle, smilling, as usual. I smiled back at her. But it was not a smile of happiness, it was just to make her comfortable. In the school, I was just looking at her through the window. She was also looking at me, by gossiping with her friends, smiling at me. I smiled back to her. I had tried to send the message to her, but non of my friends had the courage to pass the message that, I was going to leave her.
Then the time came for prayer. All of us gathered in the field. I was standing at the front. As school captain, for the last time. The prayer was sang. News was read out. Thought was dictated, National anthem was sang. I was just looking her. She was also looking at me from the end of her line. But I was just avoiding eye contact. Just stopping my tears to come out.
After the prayer all the students went to their respective classes. As usual she came to take the chalk, and kept a chalk, on which she printed the 3 magical words, I love you. She also kept a rose flower in the box. Then she looked at me, smiled and went back to her class.
That day principal sir ordered all the class teachers annouce the news in there respective classes before starting classes. So all the class teachers announced the news in there classes, that I was selected for JNV. Our class teacher also announced the news, and congratulated me, wishing my bright future.
I just went to the last bench, and looked at her. She was not there in her place. I searched for her, but had not found her. I was just waiting for the short break. But the time was not going at all. The 2 hours were just 2 years for me. At last the bell rang I came out of the class hurriedly. I was just standing in front of her class, all girls came out smilling at me, congratulating at me. But she had not came out.
I asked her friend, why she did not come out of the class. Her friend replied me that, after listening to the news, she moved to the last bench, and was just crying. And disagreed to came out of the class. I requested her, to bring her out of the classroom.
She entered the classroom, after sometime came out with her. Her eyes were red. She was just stopping her tears. She tried her best to hide her tear, and smile at me. But failed. She ran away from there to the washroom.
The moment was so horrible for me. Looking my love in pain, crying. I was just standing there, helplessly. Time passed and the bell rang. All students returned to there classes. She also returned to her class. Crossed me with her head down, avoiding eye contact from me, and entered her class.
I also came back to my class. Just waiting for the launch break. The time became slower again. The waiting was so horrible for me. At last the bell rang. She came out of the class, this time smiling at me. I relaxed a bit, looking her smiling. Then she went to the hotel. I also went there after few minutes, but she was not there. I searched for her, but she was not there. I searched everywhere. But she was just disappeared from school. Her friend was also absent.
The launch break was over, all students were entering into there classes. But she was not there. Suddenly she came running, with her friend. I got relief by seeing her again. Hurriedly she entered her classroom. I was just confused, what she was happening? Where was she, during the launch break?
After 2 periods one of my friend infomed me that, she told me to stay back after the school. I was just waiting eagerly for the last bell. The time became the slowest. I became mad, waiting for the last bell. At last the bell rang. I came out of the class. She also came out, with her head down. Her friend gestured me to meet her behind sushil sir's room.
I ran to that place. And was just stopped by looking at her. Her eyes were red, full of tears. My angel, my love was crying, so badly. She hadn't told me anything, just hidden her tears. But was failed. Again a drop of tear rolled down from her eyes. I was just standing speechlessly. Then her friend handed me a gift with a letter. At that time, one of my friend came running and told me that, my father was coming towards the school.
So I ran away with fear. Without talking with her, without making her comfortable. She was just standing there, crying. I would have talked with her. Would have taken her hands on mine and assured her that, I will come back. Just wait for me. But I had not done that. Just ran away, like a coward. How immature I was. It was the biggest mistake of my life. For which I can't forgive myself throughout my life.
I was quite happy by opening the gift, there was the symbol of love, the Taj, and a pen. Indicating her love and wish for my bright future. But became furious by opening the letter. In that letter it was written that.
"Dear Tanmaya you are a so nice guy, intelligent. I am not perfect for you. You deserve a better girl than me. So please forget me as one of your bad dreams, and move on. Choose a nice girl and marry her. Be happy. Don't remember me.
Byyy..forever. "