"How?" I screamed crying hysterically. "How can you help me? How can you save me when I am already dead on the inside?" I screamed again.
Now I was in severe pains, my chest felt so heavy and my eyes threatened to shut down from too much crying.
I felt like my heart was going to explode anytime soon
"Come down Lora I beg of you, please lora, I am not asking you to save your life, I am asking you to save mine. If you die__ Gosh, please just? come down!" he begged. He wiped the tears and sweat from his face with the back of his palm. All I wanted to do then was kiss him.
"No! I am not going to come down. I am not going to change my mind!
This is the sacrifice I am Willing to make for those I love, so they don't have to leave with a disease like me."
"And I'm doing this for you too even though you won't realize it now, you are blinded by sympathy Adam. You know the truth, you know that the world would be a better place without me. In the future you would appreciate this sacrifice that I'm making. If Christ can die for us then I can. For what greater love is there than dying for your brethren?" I asked throwing his question back at him.
"Live for them do not die for them, " he replied still pleading
"But Christ died__
"Damn it Lora! You are not Christ, you are Lora!" he snapped.
"I die today, leave me alone!" I snapped back closing my eyes, ready to jump.
His voice again startled me pulling me out of my peace. Why won't he let me be?
"Then we die together." He said.
Before I could process anything, before I could even blink, he was already at the top of the second tree.
He climbed so swiftly I was challenged, even my cousin Tarzan would be challenged. I thought I was the best city tree climber, he proved me wrong.
Urgency made us gods.
"What the hell are you doing!" I exclaimed staring at him in bewilderment.
"If you jump I jump, if you die I die. I will not live with the thought that I couldn't save you, it is worse than death, I will not live a life worse than death. If you choose to die then i will die with you Lora, If you choose to? live so would I. So go on make your choice knowing that whatever you choose happens to the both of us. If you choose death then we both die and there is no two ways about it." He said all this while he staring at me with so much seriousness I almost believed.
Almost.
Almost.
Goddammit jump already you silly girl! Stop letting him interrupt you. He is only doing this to feel good about himself and to add to his already glistening reputation. He wants to answer the hero, the one who stopped a girl from committing suicide. He doesn't care about you, can't you see that. Stop being silly and jump. Jump already. Silly girl! Pain screams at me.
I believed pain.
There was no way in seven hells that Adam was doing all this because he cared for me. There was equally no truth in him saying he would die if I did.
He only wanted me as one of his trophies. How silly of me, for a moment there I almost believed me. That was why Pain was important, he always told me the truth unlike Adam who kept lying to me.
Pain tells me that no one cares about me but Adam tells me that people care. Adam is a liar.
Come to think of it, could anyone think of a reason why Adam would care for me? Like Amaya so rightly put it we were from different worlds.
"You are kidding me right, " I snorted staring at him with a mixture of anger and bewilderment. He has to be joking right, why won't he leave me alone just like everyone has? He was hellbent on saving me and it was pissing me of so bad! "Just go, shit! let me be."
"No, I am not kidding! if you choose to jump then you die knowing you took someone else with you. Common take the leap then so we can find out if I am faking it or not. The only problem is that if you do take the leap, it would be too late then for both you and for me."
"I have nothing you have everything, why will you want to die with me? Are your village people after you? Are you crazy? Are you possessed?" I asked furiously.
He snickered. "You know it's funny how people look at me and assume that I have everything when they might even have more than I do. It's really funny you know."
"Lora you should know that nobody has everything and nobody has nothing. Those who you feel have everything might even be suffering more than those who you feel have nothing. Sometimes people who you think have everything figured out usually do not have a thing figured out."
"Lora you are very smart and absolutely beautiful. You have a family, you have people and friends who love you. Some people have none yet they survive because they know that as long as there is life there is hope. But should you lose life then all hope is lost."
"Lora think about your parents do you think that they would ever recover from your death, what about your siblings, your family, your friends. You only want to pass the pain in triple folds to the ones you love. Are you that selfish? Do you want freedom so much that you are willing to chain others with it?"
"But it hurts, it hurts so much. I am so tired." I sobbed
"Then let me help you, take my hand." he said outstretching his hands.
I exhaled.
I immediately took his hands and he pulled me over to his tree whilst holding my waist. He wiped the tears of my cheek and kissed it. Then he brushed my hair back with his hands so that he could gaze into my eyes. "There is still hope for you. You can still be saved baby girl."
I nodded.
He pulled me into his arms and embraced me.