"Sometimes...I'd lie awake in the
dark, right before dawn, and
wonder if I'd ever be glad to see
morning again. If I'd ever really
come out on the other side.
--------Justine Davis.
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Angus
Fifteen years back. (With Edward having the Amnesia)
With due respect to all my stars,I had a fair share of suffering myself,nonetheless I never hoped to come across such a mess.
I had passed my 48th birthday last month.15 years of solitude and remorse.Why loneliness?Well,l lost my wife ,whom I loved or rather worshipped like a priest. She was my light ,who in all those years taught me invaluable things. Things beyond my apprehension. She taught me to love and to respect those who truely deserved it .She had been my forbidden sanctuary.
When I lost her,I was confused and devasted ,misguided to an certain extent but amongst all this chaos I was sure enough to hold onto Edward. My instinct in regards to him was propitious so I stuck to him.Remiscing all the bad days is painstaking tough, yet somehow even in the darkness I watched Edward dance,dodge and play with fire mesmerizingly.He had always been far-sighted, thinking and planning beforehand.
A true strategist and a damn good fighter.One doesn't flinch but makes others shy away from his proximity. Such an excellent potential.... now it matters not.
Not emotionless I must tell you just that he hides it well.He wores a cloak of darkness marred with imaginable sins like shimmering diamonds yet he is too great to be a saint.A devilishly charming man with an ferociously loyal boy in the core.
And the most fascinating amongst all was to watch him open up to Blue and eventually fall for her,which ofcourse he never confided to himself even.A stubborn fool.
Frankly my conscience bleeds for me.Two souls inseparable, yearning for each other but unable to succumb to each other's passion.
Observing the twist of life's cycle.It seems mockery.Even after the amnesia,Edward kept recalling Blue unconsciously. So when our heart strings are fastened together, we can't resist its call.A home of acceptance and warmth.That's what Edward had found. He needed it.Yet I was helpless as I was bound by promise never to speak or unfold the past to Edward.Whose promise?
Well ofcourse, Blue's.
She believes that it was sign of nature to indicate that she was harmful and utterly wrong for him. Silly girl.Its just the opposite. Damned men like us don't deserve pious souls like hers.
Okay so now back to present scenario.
After Edward visited Blue to her house....asking who she was and if they knew each other...blah,blah...
Blue was astounded and after a minute or two of staring marathon,Edward got dizzy and fainted.
Later I dragged him back to the hotel and from there we were back to the penthouse. All while Blue's words kept echoing in my mind, "Keep him safe and away from me. Each time he will try to come back,I will keep breaking.I can't handle this long enough....I can't be the cause of his grief and sorrow. He had already done so much that I would always be indebted to him but not at this cost.Not at the cost of his safety."
A tear had slided down her wheatish cheeks. A palpable heart break . Me being helpless.Word bound.A mere spectator.
Day in and out I had witnessed Edward getting confused and irritated with his new personal developments, tumbling on his way.These days,he had slept well and the grumpiness was notable. With all this in motion,even The Evil had got restless, and anyday soon he would make a move.And seriously that I dreaded.
What was to come this come?
What was the Evil to bring in his wake??