"Your dignity can be mocked, abused, compromised, toyed with, lowered and even badmouthed, but it can never be taken from you. You have the power today to reset your boundaries, restore your image, start fresh with renewed values and rebuild what has happened to you in the past."
----- Shannon L. Alder.
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Fifteen years before(continued)....
Commemorating those pitiful yet remarkable years,I still feel giddy.Then I had been so half-witted but often times I mesmerized myself by acting so maturely that were beyond my petty years.
That day,after departing from Ani's house I started my slow jog back to home,all the while pondering vigorously as to what might be wrong.I knew from the commencement of our friendship that there were things about Edward that were way too much fishy but it was none of my business.Most of the times even I tried to console myself that in the denouement we will only remain as mere acquaintances.
A glitchy casual past.
Not that have I any right yet even if I collected enough courage to persuade him to open up, will he?Moreover,what would be my explanation for such sudden query and curiosity?Nothing. We were friends at the best,never more.How was even I gonna ambush him for the truth?
And if I think of the ensuing consequences, he would leave this place and leave me in the same,never looking back.
Good Lord,I started to have a headache.
Still suspended in that thought, I kind of misstepped and struck my sneakers hard on to the park bench...
Aahh..."Dammit",I cursed. "Can't I be less clumsy?",I groaned in pain.That hurt like a helluva.
Still grimacing I suddenly felt uncomfortable.The hairs on my neck stood as and it seemed like someone was spying on me. I got super annoyed as a result.What the hell!
Hence to disclose the creep,I straightened up stifling my painful hiss,only to find out that it's the greatest moronic oppressor of my crazy life.My elder cousin,Ader."Ader,the oaf"(nickname)
Some might regard him as an abnormal but to me his is a one of the most horrendous prick and a pervert one could have encountered. He always perceived himself as handsome but in reality a five feet man who sweats like stinking dog,is no better.Sorry for the language but he deserves it.
When searching for the stalker,I found Ader standing by a tree in shades and was taking me in from toes to my chest.A libertine.
"For God's sake couldn't he stop checking me out.Its creepy and nasty.",I screamed inwardly. Therefore I being self conscious, crossed my arms and glared at him annoyingly .Fuck him.
"What do you want,cousin?"I asked coldly.
To this he smiled brightly showcasing his filthy.Really he had a mental issue.
"Well,hello to you too,sis...my my I must say though you have grown up and in a man's perspective you are quite a juicy meat..."
Gritting my teeth and clenching my fist tight,I tried my best to withstand his rubbish.I could have snapped back at him but it would cause more mess.Only if I got the chance to cast a hole in his head with a drill.It would have been lovely.
Yet I knew better.So to shake him off,I needed to play well.Therefore,beaming in a girly saccharine way and I batted my eyes and toned my voice husky.
"Thanks cousin,I am really flattered with your compliment. But I request you to kindly felicitate me as to why I owe you a visit?"
Being satisfied with the answer,Ader shifted closer to me,circled me twice and if I am being honest I once felt him even sniffing me.Yucks....definitely a nutcase.
Nevermind, swallowing my disdain I looked straight at him only to find him sneering at the magazine he was holding.What's so special about it?
"What's wrong?",I inquired.
"Wanna know what a slut you are?",he roared like a predator.
"What?"
"Don't act all foolish and innocent sis,for I am quite aware how nasty slut you are like your bloody mother.Always spreading their legs to their fine preys....And to be honest my mother always wondered how your mother attained the skills and now you...Tsk,tsk,such a shame.Such a beauty tainted. "
Baam!
I just slapped him hard on his face.How dare he to insult my mother. I could tolerate anything and everything but insulting my parents would be the last straw to my patience.It was his mother who was so,a whore.Sorry but wasn't he the best example for his mother's adultery.He was his paternal uncle's offspring.
And if you guys are wondering what Ader did later,well after receiving the slap,he simply started laughing hysterically and just threw off the magazine at me and fled.A coward and dickhead.
Cursing I tried to normalize my composure.
"Was he for real?",I muttered to myself as I uncurled the magazine and read the headlines.
Thud!
As soon as I peered at the magazine, I was jolted by a shiver of unfamiliarity and doubt.What's this?
There in the cover page was Edward,whose exclusive interview was attached in and ironically he was one of the most eligible bachelor and a billionaire.
"What the fuck,Ed..."