"Do you know that pain of leaving when you look back expecting to see a face waving goodbye at you but all you see is a dark abandoned corner?
There won't be any reason to return then.
All you can do is look ahead and not to stumble and fall on the pit ahead waiting for you."
-Sanhita Baruah.
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Edward
Thirteen years back...(continued)
This hand-tailored cherry red suit was obnoxiously stifling me out.Hence again and again I tried to the loosen the noose-like tie.Shit.Simply a futile effort.
Irritated more,I made out to the corner of my spacious office, right where my beautiful wet bar resided.Let me enrich you with the fact,that it had been eyesore to many of my evil green-eyed rivals.Bastards...
Striding with long steps,I soon reached in front of my expansive alcohol shelf.After a bit deliberation,I decided for my favorite bourbon.Clutching it in one hand,I unscrewed the cork lid with my teeth and indifferently grabbed a crystal tumbler.I didn't have the patience to savor it slowly.I required it now,so that it could work its wonder swiftly. And just as I had chugged my first glass down,a knock resounded across my tinted glass chamber.
"Crap..",Edward muttered.
It repeated thrice,in coded language stating its messenger's name.Scott,my genius and competent assistant was it. This was our secret code of acknowledgement,which of course succoured its cryptic purpose.
"Come in",I commanded as I again poured myself a second round.
"Mr.Hart,there is something important that I thought of acquainting you with...",Scott paused mid-sentence and eyed me nervously as he tried but failed to figure my vexed mood out .He would have nailed it in the past but things altered. I wasn't myself anymore.No longer was I able to recognize myself, how would he even then...
My personal life had gone downhill so fast that I didn't even got the chance to rein it under my damn control.
First,it had been my sudden marriage with Elena,then that ridiculous episodes of amnesia that robbed my entirety. Everything or rather the one thing that had mattered the most to me.Blue....
Well,now guys must be wondering if I had been able to recall everything.Yes,I did and I regret the most of it.
I still repent and try to reflect myself for my odious sins but I do this more so for my inability to express my feelings for Blue.I had been the greatest halfwit.To add on with all this,I don't know how but I started cherishing Elena's kids like my own.They feel more like my own than even Elena's,of which I have no contrition for.
To be honest she was a shitty,lousy mother to those two year old children. How come she even mothered these two little angels was beyond me.
Chastising myself again for pondering this nonsense,I again put on my game face and glared at Scott fiercely.As if on cue,Scott swallowed his fear, straightened further and in an unswerving fashion looked at me and answered my unvoiced query.
"Sir,past week we sent out The Empire Biotech and Pharma conditional summer internship mails to the shortlisted candidates. All were accepted by the students,but...."
Raising my eyebrows, I asked,"But what?Moreover, why the hell are you screening such a insignificant matter through me,Scott."I screamed.
Retracing his few steps back to the door,Scott gulped and sighingly responded,"Amongst the students who accepted our offer was Blue as well and in my knowledge she would coming here today for the initiation program ."
"Shit",I dropped the tumbler in my consternation.
Perplexed,I enquired Scott,"As in Blue Priest you mean."
"Mmmhmm..",Scott nodded in confirmation.
"Leave me",was all I retorted.
As Scott left,I stood up and carried my wretched self towards the floor to ceiling windows.Wretched because of my terrible action.I felt spooked even.She might not be aware that I recovered from amnesia but if she gets to know about my martial status,she would break for sure.
Last week only Angus recounted me of my misadventures during my amnesia phase.How badly I hounded her for answers,what a ridiculous jerk I had been when I insulted Blue by calling her with preposterous names.
I made an ass of myself and I was gravely ashamed of my misconduct.
To make matters worse,what if Blue came to me sniffing for answers.Would I be able to steer her off by claiming not to being committed to her.Awful would it be.I won't hurt more.Neither will I be able to explain my critical situation nor my sentiment.
"How will I make Pige apprehend that my own wicked biological mother married me off to Elena when I had no recollection of not even myself,lying that Elena had been my long-lost love whom I abandoned in my fit of ambition and success",mused Edward.
"I can't believe I got played in the hands of my own sly deceiving mother."
"Dammit",Edward cursed as a tear rolled down his beautiful sculpted cheeks.