Here I was, welcomed. Not really. It's always been like this. But again, here I was. Snapped back to reality though it seems like an unimaginable fantasy. But I have to accept this torture. "Nathan! What's taking so long?" Aunt shouted from the living room.
I didn't really know how long I was stuck in my own "realm". But the shower was still hissing, the water was still cold. Then I looked down and looked at my fingertips. Pruney. "Almost done!" I shouted back.
I turned the shower off and wiped me dry then on I went towards my bedroom. I'm getting really tense and I don't really know why.
"Is it because today is our exam day?" I thought.
"No, it can't be it. Or is it because of..." I thought but something caught me.
"Ah... Kian!" I let out a big sigh and laid down while I was still in my damp towel.
A thousand thoughts crept up in my head and didn't want to leave, in fact, it was there a couple of months. "No, it's not him. There's no frickin' way..." I thought then I brushed my fingers through my hair and clenched them.
"Ahh!! No!" I mumbled to myself.
Then I just kept on wondering, asking, needing an answer to all my questions but one prevailed.
"Are my feelings to Kian coming back?" I silently said. Then that just got me worse and worse by the minute. "No! You've already got Cathryn. No need for another one!" I thought as I stood up and saw the wet bed. "Oh no." I said and quickly changed to my school uniform.
After that's done, me and my little brother went off to school. We rode a cab and I just thought by myself at the side. "Does he have feelings for me? Or did he even have feelings for me in the first place?" I thought and closed my eyes for a bit after a sighed.
"Flick!" I heard a gentle sound above me. "Flick" One more could be heard in the same spot. I opened my eyes and I noticed the 2 fortune cookies right beside my lap as I was squatting under the Tree of Thoughts. I took them and cracked them open.
"I wonder if Kian actually consider liking me? Or maybe even liked me? What if Cathryn broke up with me last 2 weeks? Would I end up being with Kian? Or would I end up killing myself?"
"Stop overthinking." "Think only about what makes you happier." They read.
Well, reading that definitely gave me a boost of confidence but enough to consider it being near to adequate. I don't know why the heck things are coming back to me. Is there something bad that I made? At least that's what I always like to think, a big, unending, enigmatic maze that keeps on surrounding me, forcing me to make mistakes and when I do, I go back to the very start of it all.
I sighed as I looked at the yellow skies that turned to violet, the world became darker and soon an apple fell snug to my palm.
"Wake up." It said.
Then soon enough I felt my little brother's finger poking on my belly. "Nate, Nate. Wake up Nate!" He said.
" Excuse me, Sir, we have arrived." The driver said.
"Oh, I'm sorry!" I said then handed the cash to the driver and left the cab.
I opened the door and went out, held the door open for my little brother and helped him out. "Thank you!" we said then closed the door. It took me several steps before I reached to the point of realization that we had arrived at school. But I don't know why but I just forgot about my fear and went on in the building.
"Bye Nate!" My little brother said waving to me as he was on his way, carrying his envelope and lunch box all the way to end of the hallway to his classroom.
"Bye, Jay!" I said waving. Jay, the nickname of the actual "Jason". Which is yeah, the name of my little brother.
Then I turned my head as I went on straight towards my classroom. Though reluctant, but still, willing to.
"Grade 7" The sign read as I was approaching the classroom, the classroom that made me stronger but weaker at the same time. They are my true home, I say that just because I feel much, much, very much welcomed by them compared to the house where I feel like a pile of crap.
I've reached the end of the second flight of stairs and I was just a couple of feet from the door. I peeked through the corner of the hallway that was right in front of the door. I saw Blythe and Luna just right inside of the door. I waved openly enough at them for them to notice it. Luna saw it so I flicked my wrist at her signaling that she'd come to me.
"Bring Blythe too." I mouthed at her. Then they came running to me.
"Hey, help me. I'm a bit... scared to uhm..." I said with an unsure face while they turned their heads with their ears pointed to me as they listened. "To what?" Luna said. "To... go... in." I continued. Then there was a bit of silence.
"Again?!" Luna said "Really?!" Blythe added as she stepped back and crossed her arms. "It's been a week or so since the both of you started talking again. Now you're telling me this?" Blythe said putting down the her hands.
"No, it's ok. I'll go." I said heading towards the classroom.
The story here is that when the school year started, me and Cathryn started to build this friendship. She was new but I was not. Since I was the "voiciest" out of them all, I had to be the one to socialize to them.
Then our teachers set up a group activity and coincidently, I got to be teamates with her. And that just started it all. So what happened was th...
"Hey Nate!" A mixed up scramble of voices that said cutting my thoughts when I entered the room. "Hello!" I shouted. Then I looked at Cathryn and waved at her and she waved back. Then I wanted to tell her if she studies for the exam but all that happened was just that we were at the opposite sides of the room, we were staring at each other.
And suddenly my hands just did a couple of..."twitches" and by that I mean, a desperate try to do a gesture but end up failing so you end up raising your hand and do something that you regret for your whole frickin' life.
Then I waved right above my chest and mouthed "Nothing, it's okay." and went back to my seat. We were both at the opposite sides. She was right at the front door and I was right at the back. We went separate ways, her? To her friends. Me? To my seat. We are actually seatmates. I'm third from the right side window and she's second.
I kinda like this spot very much. Considering that the sun gets to us every day and it just feels so good. Plus, there's a fan behind us. And we can even keep each other company. "Oh wait, what was I thinking again?" I thought to myself as I laid on my arms that were resting on the table.