I get up from my knees, to get back up to my computer chair. I hope Mark hasn't said anything that has happened between us but knowing my luck, he has. He has betrayed me, but... I can't stop loving him. He IS the one for me, but I can't force him. I will love him from a distance, no matter what...
Okay...
Relax and listen to my angel's voice...
"Hello everybody… Today I am here to explain why Sean is only doing live streams for the past week or so, and why that phone call that just happened on Sean's live stream…
Sean likes me, and not in a friend way, romanticly, he has said himself that he loves me. Sean invited me to this house in Brighton. I didn't know what he was going to do, but when he confessed to me, I said no. A day later I then texted Sean, told him that I think that I liked him back on the way to me going to the airport.
Sean somehow gets there before I leave and I pushed him back… This is why he hates me now. Sean, if you are hearing this right now, please know that I did not want to hurt you...
I did it because I didn't know what else to do… I didn't know if I was gay or not.
Thank you for listening…"
Oh, GOD! WTF HAVE I DONE!!!
I made my self look like a fool, I made HIM look like a fool!!!
WHAT HAVE I DONE TO HIS LIFE!?!?!?!?!?
I NEED to call him!