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KAZUKI
「FLASHBACK」
"IZUMI, ilang beses ko na bang sinabi sa 'yo na huwag kang pupunta sa opisina ko?!" inis na kompronta ko kay Aki nang marating na namin ang lobby. May usapan kami na pupunta ako sa kanyang clinic ngunit hindi ko naman inasahang pupunta siya mismo sa opisina ko and the worst, Okuda was there! So to be safe, I dragged him out and went to a secluded place somewhere in the building.
"Pero na-miss kita, Kicchan!" giit ni Aki.
"And don't call me 'Kicchan' at work!" gigil na buska ko pa sa kanya. "Anyways, why are you here? I told you last night that I'm going to stop by today," pag-iiba ko ng usapan and he switched from being goofy to a serious kind of person. Minsan naiisip ko na may dual personality ang doktor na ito.
"Kicchan, that guy... he's your—"
"Don't assume things, Aki," putol ko sa kanya at medyo diniinan ko ang pagkakabigkas ng kanyang pangalan upang makuha nito na ayaw kong pag-usapan kung ano man ang naiisip n'ya sa mga sandaling ito. Ilang sandali pa ay naisipan ko siyang tanungin, "Um... Ano na nga pala ang resulta?"
"Ng alin?" lutang na baling ni Aki.
Naikuyom ko naman ang mga kamay ko sa inis. "The fucking test, you idiot!" I slightly raised my voice in order to remind him.
Until now, I am still wondering how this guy passed the board exams and became who he is now. He looks stupid, absent-minded, ridiculously weird for his age, and childish. But, he is reliable. I have already proven that many times.
"Oh, that one?" alala n'ya sabay ayos ng suot nitong salamin at ngumisi. "The pregnancy test was negative so chill."
Nakahinga naman ako ng maluwag sa narinig. After Okuda released all of his cum inside me when I was in heat, I thought I would lose everything that I've worked so hard for.
「It is not that I blame everything on Okuda but I was stupid too for not taking my medicines. I was pretty aware that my heat fluctuations had become worst and I still went and let myself be fucked — day and night — to the point of almost breaking myself. If only I haven't met him…」
"Kicchan, why won't you consider having a mate? You know it will lessen your sexual needs and help you calm your heats," suhestiyon ni Aki. As a doctor and a friend, he was just concerned of my well-being. He knew very well what hardships I've been through.
Suffering from irregular heats... bearing those painful days where I felt like I might lose my mind one day to the pleasure and end up giving myself to an Alpha whom I know nothing of. I didn't want that to happen. Matapos ang lahat ng kahihiyan at panlalait na tinapon nila sa akin... hinding-hindi na nila maibabalik ang dating ako.
"Aki, we've been through this already. Wala akong balak magkaroon ng mate," I clarified and he looked weary.
"I respect your decision but... fourteen years? Who the fuck can withstand fourteen years of irregular and intense heats without even being fucked by some Alpha?" mangha nitong turan while staring at me with his eyes wide open in disbelief. "Your case is dangerous, Kicchan. You once had a mate and a retracted bond have bad effects to an Omega. You know that."
"I'll be fine. Sinisiguro ko na namang uminom ng gamot at lumayo sa mga lugar kung saan maaaring mabulgar ang totoo kong pagkatao," depensa ko naman.
"You can't hide forever, Kicchan. Marami nang nagbago sa lipunan at ang sari-saring pagbabago na nagaganap ay iba-iba ang epekto sa atin. You must find an Alpha soon enough," Aki said and continued, "I know I told you that I can prescribe you medicines to ease the pain but your body can no longer take it. I don't wanna see you break down."
"Salamat sa pag-aalala, Aki," sabi ko at bahagyang ngumiti. Since that day, I lost everyone that I loved. I learned the meaning of emptiness the hard way and so I was forced to shut my heart in order for me to survive and move on.
"And one more thing. That subordinate of yours, Okuda Ryuichi, right? Hindi sa nang-aano pero—"
"Aki, please! Let's talk about it some other time. I have to go," putol ko sa kanya and he agreed to end our conversation after that.
「END OF FLASHBACK」
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I was alright. I was fucking alright until that Okuda showed up. And after what he said to me last night...
"Shimada-senpai... don't you think it's better if we stop this?"
「How can I possibly tell him the truth now?」I deeply thought. Telling him would be meaningless. He already lost interest on our little pretend fuck buddy deal. I brought this upon myself so I had no right to be feeling guilty in the first place, right?
Napaigtad naman ako sa sobrang gulat nang may kumatok sa pinto ng aking private office room. Takang napasilip ako sa aking wristwatch at napasimangot nang mapagtantong lunch break na sa mga sandaling ito at wala akong maalala na may inutusan akong magsumite ng kanilang report.
"Who is it?" I casually asked, assuming that it was just one of my subordinates.
"*Ore da [It's me]."
Naramdaman kong nanlamig ang buo kong katawan nang marinig ko ang isang napakapamilyar na boses. It's been so long but I would never forget that voice. That raspy, eerie voice...
Kahit na hindi ako sumagot, nagbukas ang pinto at pumasok ang taong pinakaayaw kong makita. "Fujiwara...sensei..." My voice almost cracked at sa isang iglap ay nagbalik ang lahat ng masasakit at nakakatakot na alaala sa aking isipan. I suddenly lost my cool and hurriedly backed away from the man in front of me.
"Still reluctant as always," he said while sneering like a monster and licked the top of his lip as he walked closer to me.
"S-stay away," mahina kong taboy sa kanya. Nagsimulang mangatog ang mga tuhod ko at para akong mawawalan ng malay sa sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso at hininga ko. My chest was tightening. I was having a panic attack. And the worst, I could feel my nape throbbing! Talk about bad timing. Why did he have to come today of all days?!
"Hmm? But we had a deal to meet and tackle things. Right?" pagpapaalala nito at sinadyang titigan ako nang maigi. He was clearly mocking me! He wasn't lying. It was me who forgot because my mind was clouded with depressing thoughts about Okuda lately.
Wala sa sarili ko namang tinakpan ang likod ng aking leeg gamit ang kanan kong kamay at nagsimula akong maging balisa. "Don't come near me!" takot na takot ang ekspresiyon kong wika.
He chuckled, a clear sign that he was enjoying my frightened reaction. "Ilang taon na ba ang lumipas? You are still the same Kazuki that I once knew. Hmm. Do you still remember? That night when I took your virginity and claimed you as my mate... Kazuki?"
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「FLASHBACK」
I was born from a prestigious family of Alphas. My family was both envied and hated. There was never in their history that they had non-Alpha offsprings until I came along.
Confident that their first born will be a great successor and influential Alpha in the future, they didn't bother to have me examined. It was an early examination that should be done after an offspring was born to determine their secondary gender. Results could be uncertain if parents are of different kind.
When I reached the age of five, my parents started to worry. I didn't show any signs of Alpha traits: possessiveness, dominance, high intelligence, and so much more that an Alpha child should develop at a certain point.
Because of their pride, they didn't give me any check-ups and overlooked things until I was ten. By that time, I already had two younger brothers — one was seven and the other was three — and both of them were Alphas. Unlike me, they developed early signs of a dominant Alpha as early as two to three years old. Because of the huge differences, my parents finally brought me to their family doctor and my real secondary gender was revealed.
They were so devastated. I even remember the look on their faces when they announced that I was an Omega — the look of disgust.
Magmula noon ay malaki ang ipinagbago ng pakikitungo nila sa akin. My father became so strict towards me and didn't let me play with my brothers anymore. I was only allowed to get near them when my parents were around. They had me separated in an isolated room somewhere in our house to avoid unnecessary accidents. They also forbid me from bringing visitors over or going to my classmates' houses.
No one knew when my heat will come. They were so scared to death that they saw me as a heresy.
"Kazuki, you must never tell anyone that you're an Omega. Never. Understood?"
That was what my mother always told me. I managed to live a few years of my Omega life normally and hidden from the society until Fujiwara Ichi came. I was sixteen at that time.
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They introduced him to me as my personal mentor since they decided to home school me to secure our family's reputation.
It didn't take long for me to fall in love with Fujiwara-sensei. Despite the fact that he was the same age as my father who was 41 at that time, I felt comfortable around him. He thought me a lot of things. He was a gentle and kind person. He was very patient when there were times I couldn't solve a single problem on opinion-based set of questionnaires.
He was the first person to acknowledge me. That's why I decided to tell him my secret, hoping that I could have someone I could talk to when I felt alone.
"S-sensei, there's something I need to tell you," mahina kong pakli habang namumula ang mga pisngi ko sa magkahalong hiya at kaba.
"Ano 'yon?" kalmado at nakangiting baling nito sa akin.
"Sensei... isa akong Omega," pagbubunyag ko.
He was astonished but didn't say much after that. I was even surprised dahil ang bilis n'yang natanggap at hindi man lang nagbago ang pakikitungo n'ya sa akin. I confessed my feelings to him but he told me it was too early for me to be falling in love. I thought he was different from other Alphas and had my hopes high. It was a clumsy mistake that would forever change my life.
Then one day, he came by to our house. Nagkataong mag-isa lang ako dahil nagbakasyon ang buong pamilya at iniwan nila ako sa bahay. Natuwa ako sa pagdalaw ni Fujiwara-sensei pero lingid sa kaalaman ko na iyon ang araw na maghahatid ng napakalaking pagbabago sa buhay ko.
"Kazuki, are you wearing perfume?" biglang tanong ni sensei. Kakabalik ko lang mula sa kusina para kumuha ng makakain at maiinom naming dalawa.
"Huh? Hindi po, Sensei. Ang totoo n'yan, medyo masama ang pakiramdam ko mula pa kaninang umaga kaya natutuwa ako na nandito ka," sabi ko naman habang nakangiti, without even noticing Fujiwara-sensei's lusty gaze at me.
"Gano'n ba?" To me who was stupid and innocent back then, it was a genuine smile but he was actually faking it.
"Mm! Kain na po tayo, Sensei. May dala akong cookies at iced tea," yaya ko pa sa kanya at sabik na kumuha ng baso at nilagyan iyon ng iced tea ngunit bigla ko na lamang itong nabitawan nang makaramdam ako ng panginginig na hindi ko maintindihan.
Nagsimulang uminit ang buo kong katawan at binalot ang buong sistema ko ng kakaibang pagnanasa. Prantik akong napatingin kay Sensei na noo'y mariing nakatitig sa akin. Hinihingal ito at nagmistulang baliw na aso bago ako dinaganan.
"Sensei?!" taranta kong pakli pero natakot ako nang sumilay ang isang 'di pamilyar na ngiti sa mga labi ni Fujiwara-sensei.
"Haah… Kazuki... nakakabaliw ang amoy mo," turan nito at bigla na lamang n'yang hinawakan ang magkabila kong braso at diniin ako sa sahig.
"Sensei? Ano'ng ginagawa mo? P-pakawalan mo ako," umiiyak kong pakiusap pero napasinghap na lamang ako nang dilaan n'ya ang leeg ko at inamoy ito.
"Kazuki... You're in heat," ani Sensei at tila nandilim ang buong mundo ko.
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"Mmfgh! Haah! Aah... Sensei... Sensei..." umiiyak kong ungol.
Sa mga sandaling iyon ay malupit na akong ginagahasa ni Fujiwara-sensei. He tied my hands using his belt and made me lie on all fours. Ginusto kong manlaban noon ngunit nanaig ang pagnanasa ng katawan kong matikman ang pagkalalake ng isang Alpha.
"Kazuki... Kazuki!" he called out my name like a hungry beast while devouring me completely.
Masakit, nakakatakot, at nakakadiri. Pero kahit ano'ng iyak at protestang gawin ko, nilamon ng heat ang buo kong sistema at maging ang lalaking tinuring kong kaisa-isang kakampi at espesyal na tao sa buhay ko.
"Pakiusap, tama na, Sensei," pagmamakaawa ko pero imbes na tumigil siya ay lalo lamang naging marahas ang bawat paglabas-masok ng kanyang pagkalalake, dahilan upang mapahiyaw ako. "Aah! Argh! Sensei, hindi ko ito gusto! Tama na! Nasasaktan ako, sensei! Tama na!" humahagulgol kong saad.
"Kazuki..." he called my name again before licking my nape and before I could squirm in protest, naramdaman ko na lang ang pagkagat nito sa aking leeg kasabay ng paglabas n'ya ng mainit na likido n'ya sa loob ko.
I shuddered in total shock. It didn't end there. Fujiwara-sensei fucked me in all sorts of positions and he released all of his cum inside me without a second thought.
My first heat sex was a nightmare.
My parents were enraged after finding out that I have become mates with my own mentor. They were so mad at me that they seized me out of the house the following day and announced that I was no longer their son nor was born.
Dahil doon ay napilitan akong sumama kay Fujiwara-sensei. I thought he would apologize for what happened pero nagpatuloy ang pagmamaltrato n'ya sa akin. I had no choice but to stay by his side because we were mates.
For the next two years, I endured the life of being fucked everyday, beaten occasionally, starved for three days when sensei was upset over something, and clearly used me as a slave. Kahit rinding-rindi na ako, tiniis ko dahil isa lamang akong Omega na walang kalaban-laban. But things took a turn when sensei started bringing home another Omegas and fucked all of them in my presence. That was when I realized that he was a two-faced motherfucker. Soon after he got tired of me and just like that, he threw me away — leaving me with nothing.
And the rest was history.
「END OF FLASHBACK」
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"Don't touch me." I gritted my teeth as I clenched my fists in anger. I've managed to come this far. I won't let this bastard put all of my efforts into waste!
"Hmm?" He raised an eyebrow and pinned me against the wall.
Napasinghap naman ako sa mabilis na pangyayari at napilitang tumingin sa kanya. "Ugh!" I bit my lower lip and felt the urge to cry. How long has it been since I last cried in desperation to receive someone's love and affection only to realize that they were just holding me because I was an Omega?
Fujiwara-sensei looked at my lips and smirked when I gulped. "Your physical appearance have changed drastically. You used to be cute and innocent. Looking at you now kinda turns me off."
"Then shut the hell up and fucking leave!" singhal ko sa kanya. "The deal's off. Your shitty business is way too suspicious!"
"Hah!" he scoffed and punched me on the left cheek. Kaagad naman akong natumba sa lakas ng suntok n'ya. He then positioned himself on top of me and began stripping off my clothes.
"Stop it! I'm not gonna let you destroy me again!" buska ko sa kanya habang pilit itong nilalabanan. Even though he has become older, his strength was still incredible. I could easily push him away with this body of mine now but a part of me was still scared of Fujiwara-sensei.
"Why don't we fuck again like the old times? What do you say, huh?" he suggested while pulling my shirt off. "But to make things exciting, let's try this out," ani nito at pagkatapos ay may dinukot siyang maliit na bote mula sa bulsa ng kanyang pantalon at pagkuwa'y pinaamoy ito sa akin.
"What the fuck—?!" Hindi ako natuloy sa pagsasalita nang makaramdam ako ng pang-iinit ng katawan.
Taka akong napatitig kay Fujiwara-sensei na nakangisi ng nakakaloko bago nagsalita, "Can you feel it, Kazuki?" he asked, "It's a heat inducing drug. Experimental pa lamang iyan kaya sa black market ko pa binibenta. Can you feel your whole body throbbing? Soon enough, you will have to submit to me 'cause the side effects are quite... hostile. You might even get pregnant after this so just enjoy the moment. Okay?"
I went pale and lost all of my strength in an instant. My body was in agonizing pain but my mind went numb.
「I don't want this! I don't wanna go through that shameful situation again! Help me… Someone…!」
"OKUDA!" Basta ko na lamang isinigaw ang kanyang pangalan nang napakalakas. Kasabay niyon ay ang pagbukas ng pinto and there stood Okuda; giving off a heavy wave of Alpha pheromones na bumalot sa buong opisina. That amount of pheromones could reach a long distance, making it even worse!
"Oh?" Napatigil si Fujiwara-sensei sa kanyang ginagawa at nabaling ang kanyang atensiyon kay Okuda na matalim ang tingin sa kanya. "You're quite aggressive, young man. Wanna join the fun? This muscular Omega here just went into heat and really wants to get his ass fucked," pang-iimbita pa n'ya rito at doon ko lamang napansing apektado si Okuda sa nire-release kong pheromones.
"Leave," mahina ngunit maawtoridad na utos ni Okuda kay Fujiwara-sensei.
"What?" kunwaring nagbingi-bingihan naman ang matanda.
"I'll kill you if you don't leave!" Okuda warned. He was dead serious.
Nanigas namang bigla si Fujiwara-sensei sa kanyang kinatatayuan habang titig na titig ito kay Okuda. "You... You are his—!"
"LEAVE!"
Fujiwara-sensei had no choice but to let go of me. Nagtapunan pa sila ng matatalim na tingin sa isa't isa bago tuluyang nilisan ni Fujiwara-sensei and lugar. After the tension had gone down, Okuda hurriedly searched for something to cover me up before carrying me and ran out of the office.
"Where… are you… taking me?" nanghihina kong tanong.
"Far from here," tipid nitong sagot.
Habang papunta kami sa elevator, sakto namang nakasalubong namin sina Moriya at Amamiya na kakagaling lamang kumain.
"Okuda-kun, ano'ng nangyari? May naamoy kaming Alpha pheromones at Omega heat mula sa department natin. Nagkakagulo ang lahat. Hindi kami gaanong naaapektuhan ng Omega heat pero masyadong malakas itong bumabalot sa buong building. Delikado ka dito, Okuda-kun," balita n'ya sa kausap pero napasinghap itong bigla. "Ano'ng nangyari kay Shimada-senpai?!" nag-aalalang tanong ni Moriya kay Okuda nang makita ang kalagayan ko.
"Call the police. That Fujiwara bastard sells illegal heat inducing drugs," utos ni Okuda dito.
"Huh? Papaano si Shimada-senpai? Saan kayo pupunta?!" tarantang tanong ni Moriya pero narinig kong kinumbinsi na siya ni Amamiya na tumawag ng pulis.
Nagawa naming marating ang elevator and my mind was still blurry. It was hard to breathe and my whole body would throb to the slightest touch. Hindi ko gaanong mawari ang ekspresiyon ng mukha ni Okuda ngunit tila nahihirapan din siya.
"Right now," Okuda paused before continuing, "you are releasing a very nice scent." he said and his grip on me tightened. "But I won't allow anyone to see that face you're making right now. I may end up hurting you today but I'll try to hold back."
What the fuck was he saying? There was so much going on I can't think straight. My heat was clouding up my mind and everything that was happening around me made no sense.
I held on Okuda's collar before saying, "Please don't throw me away." And after that, everything went black.
「to be continued」