If there was a time, a day, a moment where I would go back in time and change what happened then, I promise I would, Silas... But it was the system that prevented me from doing so... I'm sorry...
I could feel my heart pounding, like it will never stop beating, almost as if there are drummers beating it. While my heels clattered against the white, luminous floor, each step I take makes my levels of anxiety rise. This is my first long-term mission that I'll be getting to do. Given to me by the one, and only Cupid themselves.
Walking inside the long hallway, the pounds in my heart were so loud that it might've echoed inside these corridors. Reaching to the last doors at the end of the hall, my hands were shaking while reaching the knobs. I let out a shaky exhale, and breathed in before turning the knob around.
As the doors opened, I was met with a lovely, vanilla aroma. My eyes widened when I scanned the area. It was glowing, almost like I was in space. I looked down, my breathe halted when I see there was no floor.
Cold sweat broke out as I see a never ending depth of darkness, making my body freeze like an ice block. After a few seconds, I came to my senses while grabbing onto the door, still looking down.
"Don't worry dear, you won't fall.." A resonant, deep voice called out. My eyes searched the area, looking for the voice I heard, and there they are. Large as they were, wings like an angel, luminous as a star and eyes so honeyed you'd think they were gold. I sighed in awe, almost feeling my lips curling itself into a smile. Before my voice could escape through my mouth, I felt a gentle push behind me. Just as my head turned to see, the doors closed quickly. I closed my eyes tightly, thinking I might fall into the dark abyss. Instead, I felt a soft ground. I quickly opened them, and looked at what appeared to be a floating platform.
I wanted to stand, but my legs trembled when I looked down. Heart beating so fast it might win a marathon. Although my anxiety was rising a lot more than it did before, I lifted my head to see the being, Cupid. I didn't expect them to look at me with gentle yet concern.
"My dear child, are you alright?" They asked. I could only nod before my voice could say 'yes'. Breathing in and out, I stood up, still afraid. Standing in front of a being so big and so powerful that I felt like a child who's about to get scolded by a parent. Right as I was about to introduce myself to them, their ethereal voice spoke first.
"You're Evangeline, are you..?" I simply nod. I was too embarrassed to say anything now after getting interrupted.
"Such a curious name you have... This is your first time getting a long-term task you're doing... isn't it?.."
"Yes.." I responded. My eyes looked down, still afraid to meet them in the eyes.
"Why are you so quiet..?" They asked.
"O-oh, I'm sorry! I felt very nervous, and usually when I'm nervous, I end up talking about things that are not related to the topic, so when I do, I usually get weird stares, a-and it's not because of how beautiful you look or how big you are, but it's mainly because-" Oh shit. Before I could finish my sentence, I was flushed with embarrassment.
Beautiful?! Big?! Oh, I've done it now.
One thing I thought to do, was to wish for the platform to swallow me whole. Cause what was that?! I placed my hands on my face, uttering the words-
"I'm so sorry!" repeating it over, and over. As I was going to say it again, I heard a snort before a laugh erupted. I looked up, saw Cupid laughing like a child. It was.. no... It felt nice. Instead of getting scolded, they were laughing. And never have I felt so happy seeing them do so. While their laughter began to subside itself, they looked at me with such sparkle.
"You are quite an odd one, Evangeline!.." I awkwardly smiled while they giggled.
"A rare gem that you are, very few have been able to make me laugh.." They remarked.
"Please excuse me for asking but, is that a compliment I hear?" I joked while they chuckled.
Their eyes expressed joy, and my lips smiled.
"Say, Evangeline, I hope you don't mind me asking this question.."
"Not at all!" I clasped my hands together, making my back straight to appear formal.
"What do you think falling in love means..?"
"Falling.. in love?"
"Yes.."
I stood quietly.
"Well, it's where two people meet, get to know each other, and-"
"In your own words..." They interrupted.
"What..?" In a confused tone my voice used, they didn't seem happy when hearing that.
"You are reciting what other people have said to me, but it's true... People meet, they get to know one another, and so on... But I'm tired of hearing the same response over and over, and over again!... I want another being, besides me, to know the true depth of it...but if it's the only one you know... then I'll take it regardless..." They said.
My body trembled from their frustration. I didn't want to make them, but I didn't know any other meaning besides the one I said previously. Just as I was about to speak, my mind wanted to say something else.
"You said that you want another being to know the true depth of it..?" I asked.
"Yes, that's right.." while nodding. I exhale and inhale, clasping my hands hard and having my head down.
"When a person falls in love with the other, it's not love that draws them in, rather it's curiosity that does so. It gives them courage to talk to that person, to learn and know more about them. Even while they talk, that person would scan your eyes, lips, your moles or freckles, if you have them, the way you talk, the way they approach things, just the basics. When you guys talk through the whole day, it may feel like a hour or two had only passed. You may start off as friends, and continue to talk. But when you talk to them, you feel like something is growing inside you, something warm. A-and when time passes, your perspective changes over time, like the jokes don't annoy you anymore, instead they make you laugh, or they don't know boundaries and are constantly in yours, but instead of telling them off, you let them stay because your body likes the touch of another. You start seeing these little things that you would normally not have noticed." I explained.
"And in my perspective, it tells me that you are paying attention way more than you should, but you don't care, because you feel like you should remember those details even if they are insignificant. You find yourself staring at them longer than you should, laughing harder than you should. You find yourself yearning for them! You feel like time isn't long enough to experience it fully, and it's true!" Tears started to stream down on my cheeks.
"You want to be hugged, you want to hold hands, you want to be in the arms of that person! You want to kiss them so bad, that the feeling it is eating you inside! You will lay awake, thinking about them, thinking about their voice, thinking about everything they are! You want to let them know about your vulnerable parts, and pray that they love those parts! When they do love them, you cry, not of sadness, but of joy! And when you're having sex, they don't judge the way that you look! Naked in front of them? Sure it's embarrassing, but it's not embarrassing when that person continues to love those parts! And at that point, you want to be one with them... two bodies, but one soul.. that's what falling in love means, at least for me..." I breathed in hard, as all the air went out of that speech. Hell, it got me emotional too. But that doesn't matter.
I looked up, my eyes widening itself, seeing tears streaming down on Cupid. Unlike my tears, Cupid's are glowing.
"I-I'm sorry! I-I got too emotional there-!"
"That.. was beautiful.." They interrupted.
What? They thought my speech was beautiful?
"I've never seen anyone explain it emotionally... especially coming from one's soul, that was very extraordinary, Evangeline..." They complimented. I could only give them a small smile. They wipe away their tears, and use those tears to form a circle. Soon, that circle grew bigger and light began to appear inside it.
It was a portal. I looked at them again, full of confusion.
"Is this my mission?"
"Yes..." They said.
"Aren't you going to tell me who am I supposed to make someone fall in love with?"
"You'll know once you're there..." They remarked.
"How long until I have to come back?" I questioned.
"You have one year.." Putting up one finger. I could only gulp before my eyes held contact with Cupid's.
"You can trust me, Cupid!" I say with a smile. And just when I was about to step through that portal-
"I know..." They assured me. The voice is so sweet I might've thought they were lying, but it seemed so genuine.
I chuckled before heading into the portal. I guess this marks my story, my adventure.