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"Hey, fucking Seonghyeon, you're a year older now, shouldn't you be feeling sorry for me?"
Minwoo hyung put his arm around Seonghyun's shoulder while eating a really boring meal at a really tasteless restaurant and suggesting that they go to a room salon that they really didn't want to go to.
The meat at the restaurant was just okay to eat and not particularly tasty, to the point where I couldn't even think of anything special.
I feel like I just filled my stomach… On top of that, he strangely didn't talk much during the meal, and just asked me to show off my skills.
If this was going to happen, then why did you call me?
Besides, when I brag about my long legs, he tells me not to, saying it's not funny.
Why did you tell me to do that?
After finishing the meal and leaving the restaurant with negative thoughts about the money I lent him and didn't pay back, he was talking to Seonghyeon and suggesting that they go to a room salon.
He says he'll pay, he'll pay, but just now at the restaurant, I saw a guy from E University who I often see these days calculating the bill.
Of course he's paying it himself, but he probably thinks he's paying it with borrowed money.
"Oh, bro, I said it's okay. Why, why are you going to a room salon?"
"Fuck, dude, if you're a man, shouldn't you fuck this dick? Are you saying that humans can't have sex with both dogs and cows? Isn't that right, Taesu?"
I'm stuttering again because I'm nervous. And why is that guy pointing his arrows at me again?
"Oh, well, can't I just do it whenever I want? I don't have any money…."
"Ah, that's why I'm saying that hyung will pay for everything. Seonghyeon, do you see that over there? That's a room salon. If you just go in there, hyung will do everything for you. All you have to do is stand this up and shake your hips!"
"Oh, that's fine… What are you doing going to a room salon on your birthday?"
"Haa… These guys really don't have any guts. Guts."
Yes, if you compare ants and grasshoppers, that guy is the one with the guts. He takes our hard-earned money, pretends to be pitiful, and then later laughs at us while playing the violin.
And yet, he thinks he's doing it for us... Is he stupid or does he only think of good things about himself?
"Oh, and if you're going to take pity on me, take Taesu first. I'm fine."
"I said I don't feel sorry… why don't you believe me!"
For some reason, whenever the topic of sympathy comes up, Seonghyeon tries to make me feel sympathy too.
Do I look that pitiful?
Where the hell are you?
"Do you have evidence? Do you have evidence? If you have evidence, show it to me now."
"Ah, but where is the evidence for having sex? The only evidence I have is the memories of women in my head!"
"If there's no evidence, it's over!"
Shit… I do have pictures of myself as a woman on my phone… and even a video of me masturbating… .
Since it was filmed in my room, I was worried that something would happen if I cried, but there was no video of them actually having sex.
There's no way I could take a picture of something like that.
"Are you guys doing that again, Seonghyeon? I know because I talked to Taesu… He's not a virgin. He's done it a lot."
"How would you know that? There's no evidence."
"I know because I tried it… When you talk, the bottom line becomes clear."
Minwoo hyung is still a little helpful in times like that. He also knows Kwon Sungmin's weaknesses here and there, and he even makes threatening phone calls sometimes, so if we look at them one by one, he's been of a lot of help so far.
Well, now that I've been expelled, I guess I won't be of much help in that regard.
"Seonghyun, that bastard Kwon Seongmin has sex and lives, so how can you not have sex as a man? Hey, what's the point of you being inferior to that bastard? You're overweight, your grades are good, right? And your looks are okay too."
"Why are you talking about that kid? You could just compare him to a dog."
"Yeah… I'm sorry about that."
In the end, after talking, we ended up going to a billiard hall.
If that's the case, then why did you bring up the idea of going to a room salon?
By the way, I'm not good at billiards, so I played against E, who is also bad at billiards, and a fierce battle ensued that lasted over 30 minutes.
The two of us, who were somewhat more confident in billiards than them, found it funny and kept laughing the whole time.
They say it's the match of the century.
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"Hey Taesu."
"What's going on all of a sudden? Did you get the money?"
After playing billiards until dawn, I was told to go back first with E-dae hyung, so I took a taxi back, and the next day, Seong-hyeon called me.
I saw that there were only two people left and I could tell that they were trying to get money, so I asked the question that I had guessed from the beginning.
"Hoooo…."
Then Seonghyeon sighed over the phone.
… You still didn't receive it?
"Hey, don't worry about it. You know that guy's like that. When he said he'd go to a room salon, he ended up saying he'd borrow money from another guy. Just think of it as a waste of time and relax. You can just pay later."
"Hehehehe."
This time, he suddenly laughs.
I was thinking, "Is this crazy because I'm so annoyed?" when Seonghyeon added one more thing.
"I got my money, damn it."
"…really?"
"After a full four hours of fighting, I finally went to the bank and withdrew money."
Did the two of you just talk for four hours, one asking for money and the other saying you don't have any money?
This is really bad.
"Oh, so you have some money after all."
"He said he didn't have any, but he ended up giving it to me as emergency funds."
"Emergency fund, what the heck…."
It's absurd, but does that guy think that even if you have money, you shouldn't spend it, and that he lives a life where he borrows money from others and thinks it's cool?
It's absurd.
"I finally got a good birthday present."
"Hey, do you know when my birthday is?"
"Okay, let's go eat some meat. I'll enjoy it."
"Okay, I got it. Take a rest."
The call was disconnected.
I'm jealous... I need to get paid too, but I haven't gotten it yet.
Should I also beg for money like Seonghyeon and be prepared to be cut off from the relationship?
Anyway, now that it's come to this, I think I need to think about it too.
After thinking about it on my own, I thought that if there was no reason for the two of us to go eat meat together, I should just let it go, but since it has come to this, I think I really need to decide whether or not I should meet her as a woman.
Well, I'm a little excited about it. The realization that I'm a completely different person when I turn into a woman makes me feel a little like I'm playing a game.
The problem is that the immersion is too high.
I'm not sure either. I'm wavering, wondering if I'm thinking of myself as a woman, or if I'm thinking of myself as someone who's controlling another version of myself.
Is it because I tried to think of myself as a man and a woman separately, thinking that I would somehow get over it after what happened with David, or is it because I experimented a little and guessed that it really was like that?
I feel like something inside me has changed a little… .
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Name, Kim Hee-yeon. Age, the flowery age of 21. I just went with my age. I told Kwon Sung-min, so I made it up then… After looking in the mirror and thinking about how old I was, I decided to go with 21. My body looks a bit more mature, but I thought it would be okay to say that my skin and face were 21. I wouldn't get confused.
There was no need to reveal much information about me as a woman. Rather, I was worried that if I were to reveal too much information, there would be holes in it, and if someone were to look for me, they would find out, so I decided to keep things like where I went to college and what I like a secret.
It seems like this is the first time I've been exposed to people for so long as a woman during the day. I met Seonghyeon in front of a meat restaurant and we were supposed to eat together, so I came out wearing a white long-sleeved sweater and jeans.
The new sweater I bought was nice and warm, although it tickled my neck a little. I tied my hair up like I had practiced while playing at home alone as a woman.
I got on the bus and looked at myself in the window and I felt quite satisfied. Hmm, pretty, pretty. It's a shame that I, a man, can't have sex with a woman who looks sexy even when she's wearing normal clothes, beyond being sexy.
Is it narcissism?
Anyway, I decided to have dinner with Seonghyeon today. The person involved is me… So I never would have dreamed that it would be a beautiful woman named Kim Hee-yeon, whom I was seeing for the first time, and not Shin Tae-soo.
I feel excited for some reason, I should say it's fun, I'm looking forward to it because I think it'll be fun.
In his hand he is holding a cake he bought on his way here. How surprised would he be… if a woman, so pretty that it almost seems like CG, suddenly appeared in front of a meat restaurant and handed him a cake and wished him a happy birthday.
I can feel the people on the bus staring at me. Hmm, maybe the sweater makes my chest look a little more emphasized?
It may not seem like it because it's thick clothing, but it does stick to my body a bit, so it makes my chest look bigger than usual.
'So what?'
I've become a little numb to walking around as a woman. At first, I was embarrassed and cowered for no reason because I was worried that someone might see me, but now I feel like I'm becoming someone else, and I feel more confident.
The night before, I sent a text message to Seonghyeon saying, "Have fun tomorrow," and he replied saying, "What are you talking about all of a sudden?"
Hehehe, you wouldn't have thought of this, would you? For your birthday present, go on a date with a girl who is as pretty as a model, or even prettier than a model!
How surprising would that be?
I feel playful. My heart feels a little lighter today.
My butt and chest have gotten bigger, so I feel strange when I sit on a chair. I can definitely feel that it is not my body. I keep wanting to touch my body with my hands to check it out.
When the bus arrived near the restaurant, I got off the bus and walked carefully so as not to shake the cake.
I already thought it would be like this, but as I become a woman, I feel like even my way of thinking is becoming more feminine. When I see people walking down the street, I look at men before women, and normally, if a pretty woman passes by, I would glance at her and pass by, but when a woman with a nice body passes by, instead of looking at her, I just look at my body and feel happy.
Instead, other men and women pass by and look at my body.
Sure, this is pretty enough to be weird. Well, let's assume that my ideal type has come true... Even though she doesn't have any makeup on, her face is white as if she does, and she's shiny, her lips are slightly pink, and her eyelashes are long... I'm surprised that she's like this without makeup.
I used to think that women were all about makeup!
'Hey… isn't my condition a little strange…?'
Is it because it's been so long since I've been a woman and come out? I feel liberated, as if all the stuffiness has been released.
Why is this happening?
More important than that is having a meal with Seonghyeon. Well, I thought I should enjoy how flustered Dongjeong was and get a delicious meal, so I walked lightly to the front of the meat restaurant.
"hmm…."
But Seonghyeon is nowhere to be seen.
Where is this kid?
He must have gotten there first… I clearly asked him where he was on my phone before he came out, and he told me to hurry up and come over, asking where he was. So he must have gotten there first.
I walked around and went into a nearby cafe, but it wasn't there, so I thought maybe they had already gone into a meat restaurant, so I went inside.