I would never have imagined that this happy, carefree life alongside my Guardian Angel, and demons would turn into a nightmare.
A few weeks ago I caused Andy's death. It was solely my fault that the caregiver gave his life for me. He disappeared from our world, leaving behind his memory.
I can no longer watch Andy arguing about alcohol with a smile on his lips. It's only been a few days, and I miss it so much.... I can't bear the thought that he will never protect me again, that he won't take my side, or at least rebuke me for being careless.
I am suffering because I was the one who led to his death.
Irene and Lisa have the right to hate me. Both of them loved him, and even though the redhead is my friend, the other day, out of despair, she uttered so many hurtful words to me that I have no idea if she will ever forgive me.
All I know is that for this moment he doesn't consider me his friend because I didn't protect Andy and let him die.
I don't hold it against her. I will never forgive myself for it.
It's late at night. I am sitting above the ocean, fluttering my white wings. At my side is only one person who intends to protect me. He has kept his word and does not leave my side, as he promised Andy.
I'm grateful to him, because I wouldn't have been able to handle it all on my own. I wouldn't have been able to bear it.
- Cheer up. You are now an angel, a beautiful being. You have wings that every demon envies.
With sad eyes, I look down at Thomas, still in disbelief that this shot idiot is now my biggest support. When he's not fooling around, he's an entirely different person. I can't get over how mature he can be, how well he takes care of me....
- Do you have contact with your sister? Have you heard from her?
- She doesn't want to know me since I took your side. She doesn't seem to realize the seriousness of the situation. It doesn't get through to her that it was Andy's decision, and you are not responsible, so I'm not going to put up with her whimsical moods. Until she calms down and comes to her senses, she doesn't exist for me.
I am sorry that the twins are in conflict and because of me. I have yet to see this...
- And Victor? - I ask in a sad voice.
- Apparently, he is on the side of Lisa and Irene. You are his friend, and it seemed to me that he would do anything for you, but I should not be surprised that he does not want to leave my sister.
- I also intend to keep supporting Jennie. You are not the only one on her side. - We both look over our shoulders, watching as Victor heads in our direction.
A stone falls from my heart.
- How did you find us?
- I will find you even on the other side of the world," he answers me, sitting down next to me. I glance at Thomas, and see that he is unhappy about his presence.
Do they do not friend? They have been acting strangely for a long time.
- So where were you for the past weeks when Jennie was suffering the most? Why didn't you support her? - bites back Thomas, piercing him with her eyes. - What kind of friend are you?
I don't know what is going on, but it seems to me that there is a tension between them. Just as they were inseparable before, they have been competing for some time now, and the worst thing is that they are stirring me up. It seems to me that I am the main reason for their conflict, especially since for a while, they were making bets and trying to seduce me at all costs.
- I couldn't leave your sister. She's a mess.
Thomas snorts under his breath.
- No worries. She won't die a second time. She will be fine. This is simply your excuse.
With sad eyes, I look at the guys, feeling nasty.
- My appearance in this house changed everything. I regret asking Andy for help on the day of the accident. I could have just died...
Victor pulls me close, letting me rest my head on his shoulder. At that moment, I feel Tom's penetrating gaze on me, and get the impression that I am in the middle of two, ticking bombs.
- Don't ever say that again," Vic says in a soft voice, stroking my hair. - Andy was your guardian, he loved you like a child, so it's normal that he gave his life for you. I would have done the same in his place.
Sitting to my right, the demon, he bursts into artificial laughter.
- Did you read these texts from some book? No wonder some girls try to find comfort in your arms.
- No, I just say what I feel.
- Next time, bite your tongue before you open your mouth. There are some things it's better not to say out loud.
The boys look at each other intensely for a long moment, which makes me confused.
- Hey, what's wrong with you, guys? You guys are acting weird.
- Just someone stuck in a friend zone," Thomas says mockingly, and I have no doubt that he is referring to the fact that Victor secretly has feelings for me.
- Both of you are my friends. We like to tease each other, and cause conflicts, but at this point you are exaggerating.
- No worries, Jennie. I finally realized that I'm your ex-boyfriend, and you're treating me purely as a friend. I have no intention of playing this up any longer. A few weeks ago, a tragedy happened that hit you hard, so I just want to support you like a friend," Victor hastily explains, at which I furrow my brow.
There really is something strange going on with them.
- So take care of her for a while. I'll use it to get something done. - Thomas disappears before our eyes, and I look at my ex-boyfriend's face with concerned eyes. The ocean waves are hitting the rocks, which he looks at with tears in his eyes.
- Hey, what's up? You know you can tell me anything.
- You're a mess, we're having a really nasty time right now, so I would rather not hit you with my problems.
I sit down opposite him, with my back to the ocean. My white wings flutter, as Victor looks on with a slight smile on his face.
- Being an angel, you are even more beautiful now.
I pull my knees up to my chest, and embrace them with my hands.
- I'm trying to think less about Andy, to stop blaming myself for his death all the time, so let me occupy my head with another topic.
I perceive terror in his eyes.
- I confessed to Thomas that I fell in love with his sister," he says in a stifled voice, and I look at him with wide-open eyes, hammering into my head that I had overheard myself. - This happened after Lisa and I ended up in bed together.
I'm sure I went pale on my face. His words hit me so hard that I just can't get a sentence out.
- What?
- Since I started spending a ton of time with her recently, something has changed in me. I feel it more and more strongly every day. I thought that's just how a friendly relationship works, but I realized something was wrong when at times I wanted to kiss her....
I hastily blink my eyelids, analyzing his words in my head. It all hits me like a strong gust of wind.
Not that I have any problem with it, but I'm just extremely shocked that Victor has feelings for Lisa, and more strangely that it started with them sleeping together!
- When did you tell Thomas about it?
- Recently.
- And that's why he's so mad at you?
- For a while he even considered tearing me to pieces for taking advantage of his sister when she was at her most broken. He is angry with both of us.
- I'm sorry, Victor. I didn't think Tom could be so possessive of Lisa.
- As he pointed out ... I am stuck in a friend zone. She only sees me as a friend, he stated that she went to bed with me, because she was mentally shattered after Andy's death. She feels nothing for me, she still misses your guardian.
- No one can have control over his feelings," I comfort him, stroking his shoulder.
- Do you think it's because I'm a demon that I fell in love with this crazy woman?
For the first time since Andy's death, I burst out laughing. With laughing eyes I look at my ex-boyfriend.
- This is probably a punishment for the sins you committed during your lifetime.
*
My back is still adorned with white wings, his black, as we walk along the ocean shore, talking. Victor puts his arm around me, accompanying me until Thomas returns.
- There is a real hell in the house. Irene has disappeared without a trace, and it's impossible to stand with Lisa. I have to keep an eye on her to make sure she doesn't do something stupid, since her brother doesn't give a damn about her.
- It's my fault that everyone is suffering," I say in a sad voice.
- Jennie, stop blaming yourself. It's just that Lisa and Irene were in love with him, so they will judge you for his death, but it was Andy's decision alone. He himself wanted it.
I close my eyelids from under which tears flow.
- If I had known that there was a possibility for him to come back to us.... my suffering would not have been so strong.
- Do not have false hopes. I know it hurts, but he has fallen apart. He has turned into nothingness. He will not return to us.
I can't help myself and burst out crying. I cover my face with my hands, feeling that in a moment I too will fall apart.
- Help me change the subject.
- I wish I could turn back time. - I look at him with eyes glazing over with tears. - If I hadn't ended up in bed with Lisa, nothing would have started between us. That is, I would not have suffered from one-sided love, and my friend would not have been angry with me.
- To be interested in someone else, at least a bit of helps to forget about someone you can't have - I give him an idea. - Maybe this is how you wanted to forget about me?
- Listen... I tried to flirt with you, but our love burned out long ago.
I open my mouth, outraged by his statement.
- Am I really not attractive? Didn't you feel anything or anything while being with me?
The demon puffed out his lips, shrugging his shoulders with indifference.
- I think we are more suited to friendship than to being lovers.
I curve my lips in a slight smile.
- That's good, because I'm unable to resist her. - Thomas, who appears behind us, grabs my hand and turns me to face him. With my eyes wide open, I look at him as he brings his lips to my lips. - And I hope you won't want to sleep with her.
- Since you are back, it's time for me. Let's meet soon, Jennie," Victor turns to me in a sad voice, then disappears.
My heart beats hard as I push the bastard away from me, and punch him in the chest with my hands.
- Are you crazy? - I yell at him, piercing him with furious eyes. - Victor confessed everything to me. Why are you hurting him so much? You have no right to judge him for falling in love with your sister!
- There is something wrong with him," replies the demon dismissively, tapping his forehead with his finger. - I will not believe that he loves Lisa. He just wanted to sleep with her, and I won't forgive him for that.
- Everything is fine with Victor. We haven't been home lately, and we don't know what happened between them. However, something caused them to sleep with each other.
- But I can't fathom it! - he jumps on me, and then I let the air out of my mouth - My friend slept with my twin sister! I don't see them together! Lisa doesn't even feel anything for him, she still misses Andy!
- You are exaggerating, Thomas said.
The demon rubs his forehead with his hand and sighs loudly.
- Now let's talk about something else. I found out by chance what Irene is up to.
- Irene? - I repeat, wrinkling my eyebrows. - Apparently she is not at home. She disappeared without a trace.
- She is the oldest of us and has the most knowledge. Apparently, she has discovered a way to bring Andy back.
- Really? - My voice comes alive with joy. - What kind of way is this? Is it actually possible to do something to get him to come back to us?
- They were lovers, they shared the strongest bond, so only she can do it; however, we must prepare for the fact that it is dangerous, and our friend will never be the same again.
- Meaning? What do you mean? - I cross my arms on my chest, looking at him with concern in my eyes.
- He will not be an ordinary demon, he will become something far worse.
- With what?
- Destroyer. Hell's angel.
Why did it sound so terrible?